Mi-am \u021binut respira\u021bia, ne\u0219tiind dac\u0103 s\u0103 fug, s\u0103 strig sau s\u0103 ating din nou ceea ce v\u0103zusem. Andrei m\u0103 privea cu ochii larg deschi\u0219i, iar \u00een privirea lui ap\u0103ruse ceva ce nu mai v\u0103zusem p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci: team\u0103. Nu furie, nu durere, nu ru\u0219ine\u2026 ci team\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tu\u2026 ai sim\u021bit? am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
Nu a r\u0103spuns imediat. \u0218i-a \u00eentors privirea spre tavan, apoi a \u00eenchis ochii, ca \u0219i cum lupta cu el \u00eensu\u0219i. C\u00e2nd \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it a vorbit, glasul \u00eei tremura:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu spune nim\u0103nui.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tu\u2026 po\u021bi s\u0103-\u021bi mi\u0219ti picioarele?<\/p>\n
A tres\u0103rit, ca \u0219i cum \u00eentrebarea mea ar fi fost o palm\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu sunt sigur\u2026 La spital au zis c\u0103 e definitiv. Dar uneori\u2026 simt furnic\u0103turi, arsuri, ca \u0219i cum mi-ar trece curentul prin oase. N-am spus nim\u0103nui. Nu vreau iar tabloide. Nu vreau mila nim\u0103nui.<\/p>\n
Mi-au dat lacrimile. Pentru prima dat\u0103, nu l-am mai v\u0103zut ca pe un b\u0103rbat rece, ci ca pe unul sf\u0103r\u00e2mat de durere \u0219i ru\u0219ine. M-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 el, cu grij\u0103, \u0219i am spus \u00eencet:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Jur pe ce am mai sf\u00e2nt, n-o s\u0103 spun nim\u0103nui.<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele care au urmat, t\u0103cerea dintre noi s-a schimbat. Nu mai era o pr\u0103pastie, ci o confiden\u021b\u0103. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103-i duc ceai, s\u0103-l ajut s\u0103 fac\u0103 exerci\u021bii \u00een ascuns, s\u0103-l \u00eencurajez. La \u00eenceput m\u0103 privea piezi\u0219, ne\u00eencrez\u0103tor, dar \u00eencet-\u00eencet privirea lui s-a \u00eenmuiat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce m\u0103 aju\u021bi? m-a \u00eentrebat \u00eentr-o zi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 nimeni n-ar trebui s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 ca o umbr\u0103, i-am r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i tu tr\u0103ie\u0219ti tot ca o umbr\u0103, a spus el, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 clipeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
Vorbele lui m-au lovit \u00een inim\u0103, c\u0103ci avea dreptate.<\/p>\n
Serile le petreceam \u00een bibliotec\u0103, citind cu voce tare sau povestind despre ce visam c\u00e2nd eram copil. El t\u0103cea, dar \u00eel vedeam cum ascult\u0103. \u00centr-o noapte, mi-a spus:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 a\u0219 mai putea s\u0103 merg, a\u0219 pleca de aici \u0219i m-a\u0219 apuca iar de afaceri. A\u0219 demonstra c\u0103 sunt mai mult dec\u00e2t un articol de ziar.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Po\u021bi s\u0103 \u00eencerci, i-am spus, iar el a z\u00e2mbit foarte u\u0219or, ca un om care uitase cum s\u0103 o fac\u0103.<\/p>\n
A doua zi am mutat fotoliul l\u00e2ng\u0103 pat \u0219i l-am ajutat s\u0103 se ridice, sprijinindu-se pe marginea patului. I-am masat mu\u0219chii, l-am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 se \u00eemping\u0103, s\u0103-\u0219i controleze respira\u021bia. \u00cen fiecare sear\u0103 \u00eencercam pu\u021bin, chiar dac\u0103 de multe ori voia s\u0103 renun\u021be.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce insi\u0219ti? m-a \u00eentrebat \u00eentr-un moment de furie.<\/p>\n
Eu am luat o pauz\u0103 \u0219i i-am r\u0103spuns:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 \u0219i pe mine nu m-a \u00eentrebat nimeni ce vreau. Dar dac\u0103 tot am ajuns aici, nu vreau s\u0103 mor tr\u0103ind degeaba.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, pe c\u00e2nd razele soarelui \u00eenc\u0103 erau slabe, Andrei a reu\u0219it s\u0103 se ridice pentru o secund\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se pr\u0103bu\u0219easc\u0103. \u0218i-a dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103, iar ochii i s-au umplut de lacrimi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu-mi vine s\u0103 cred\u2026 a \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
L-am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la ce \u201etrebuie\u201d sau la reguli. Atunci, pentru prima dat\u0103, m-a str\u00e2ns \u0219i el la piept.<\/p>\n
Din ziua aceea, via\u021ba \u00een conac s-a schimbat. Nu mai era doar un loc al t\u0103cerii, ci unul al speran\u021bei. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 g\u0103tim \u00eempreun\u0103, s\u0103 rearanj\u0103m biblioteca, s\u0103 plant\u0103m flori \u00een gr\u0103din\u0103, ca \u0219i cum am\u00e2ndoi \u00eencercam s\u0103 \u00eengrop\u0103m trecutul.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva luni, Andrei a f\u0103cut primii trei pa\u0219i adev\u0103ra\u021bi. S-a oprit, sprijinit de mas\u0103, cu respira\u021bia t\u0103iat\u0103, iar eu am izbucnit \u00een pl\u00e2ns, spun\u00e2nd doar at\u00e2t:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vezi c\u0103 po\u021bi?<\/p>\n
Andrei s-a uitat la mine cu o privire pe care n-o s\u0103 o uit niciodat\u0103 \u2014 o privire de b\u0103rbat viu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi voi ajunge din nou pe picioarele mele \u0219i voi reu\u0219i ceva \u00een via\u021b\u0103\u2026 vreau s\u0103 fim o echip\u0103, nu str\u0103ini, a spus el.<\/p>\n
Iar eu, cu inima b\u0103t\u00e2nd nebune\u0219te, am spus simplu:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Eu sunt aici. Nu plec nic\u0103ieri.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, casa aceea mare nu a mai fost o \u00eenchisoare\u2026<\/p>\n
A devenit acas\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Mi-am \u021binut respira\u021bia, ne\u0219tiind dac\u0103 s\u0103 fug, s\u0103 strig sau s\u0103 ating din nou ceea ce v\u0103zusem. Andrei m\u0103 privea cu ochii larg deschi\u0219i, iar \u00een privirea lui ap\u0103ruse ceva ce nu mai v\u0103zusem p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci: team\u0103. Nu furie, nu durere, nu ru\u0219ine\u2026 ci team\u0103. \u2014 Tu\u2026 ai sim\u021bit? am \u0219optit. Nu a r\u0103spuns imediat. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12527,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12526","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12526","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12526"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12526\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12528,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12526\/revisions\/12528"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12527"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12526"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12526"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12526"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}