\u2026piciorul lui s-a \u00eencordat sub mine.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenlemnit pe loc. M-am retras brusc, sprijinindu-m\u0103 \u00een coate, uit\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 la el ca \u0219i cum tocmai a\u0219 fi v\u0103zut o fantom\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eEdi\u2026 tu\u2026 ai mi\u0219cat.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nu a spus nimic. Doar respira, \u00eencet, controlat, ca \u0219i cum \u00eencerca s\u0103-\u0219i dea timp s\u0103 g\u0103seasc\u0103 o explica\u021bie. Dar eu nu mai aveam r\u0103bdare.<\/p>\n
\u201eMi-ai mi\u0219cat piciorul\u201d, am repetat, de parc\u0103 nu puteam crede ce v\u0103zusem.<\/p>\n
Ochii lui s-au \u00eentors spre mine, iar \u00een privirea aceea nu mai era deloc distan\u021b\u0103. Era un amestec de team\u0103, furie \u0219i un soi de oboseal\u0103 sufleteasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eLidia\u2026 ascult\u0103-m\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eDe c\u00e2t timp po\u021bi s\u0103 mergi?\u201d am \u00eentrebat, vocea tremur\u00e2ndu-mi.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii o secund\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe c\u00e2teva luni.\u201d<\/p>\n
Aerul din camer\u0103 s-a schimbat brusc, ca \u0219i cum pere\u021bii s-au apropiat de noi. Sim\u021beam cum \u00eemi bate inima \u00een urechi. M-am ridicat \u00een genunchi, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103-mi adun g\u00e2ndurile.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe ce ai min\u021bit? De ce i-ai l\u0103sat pe to\u021bi s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103 e\u0219ti paralizat?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nu mi-a r\u0103spuns imediat. \u00cen schimb, s-a tras pu\u021bin \u00eenapoi, sprijinindu-se cu m\u00e2inile de podea. Nu s-a ridicat, de parc\u0103 \u0219i asta era parte din jocul lui.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru c\u0103 a\u0219a a fost mai bine\u201d, a murmurat.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru cine?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat, mai aspru dec\u00e2t inten\u021bionasem.<\/p>\n
A ezitat. Apoi, cu un oftat lung, parc\u0103 sf\u00e2\u0219iat, a cedat:<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru mine. \u0218i\u2026 pentru familie. A\u0219a au crezut ei.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t. \u201e\u0218i eu? Eu ce am fost? O pies\u0103 de schimb \u00eentr-un plan f\u0103cut de al\u021bii?\u201d<\/p>\n
Nu a negat.<\/p>\n
Asta a durut cel mai tare.<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat \u00eencet, \u0219terg\u00e2ndu-mi palmele de rochia alba, acum \u0219ifonat\u0103. Edi m-a privit cu o urm\u0103 de vin\u0103, dar nu suficient\u0103 c\u00e2t s\u0103-mi calmeze sufletul.<\/p>\n
\u201eLidia, nu sunt omul care ai crezut. \u0218i nici nu vreau s\u0103 fiu.\u201d A ridicat privirea spre mine. \u201eDar nu pot s\u0103 stau \u0219i s\u0103 m\u0103 las aruncat ca o marf\u0103 stricat\u0103. Am avut de ales: fie dispar din lume ca un neputincios, fie \u00eei las pe to\u021bi s\u0103 cread\u0103 ce vor\u2026 p\u00e2n\u0103 sunt gata s\u0103 m\u0103 ridic.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218i c\u0103s\u0103toria cu mine?\u201d l-am \u00eentrebat, vocea aproape rupt\u0103.<\/p>\n
S-a oprit. S-a uitat lung la mine, prea lung ca s\u0103 fie o minciun\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eN-am vrut asta pentru tine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cuvintele lui au fost simple, sincere\u2026 \u0219i au t\u0103iat ca o lam\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am f\u0103cut un pas spre el. \u201eAtunci de ce n-ai spus nimic? De ce ai acceptat?\u201d<\/p>\n
Edi \u0219i-a mu\u0219cat maxilarul, semn c\u0103 se lupta cu ceva \u00een interior.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru c\u0103 mama ta era disperat\u0103. \u0218i tat\u0103l t\u0103u\u2026 datoria aceea nu era doar o h\u00e2rtie. Era o capcan\u0103. Familia mea\u2026 nu voia scandal. A\u0219a c\u0103 au propus o solu\u021bie. Una elegant\u0103, dup\u0103 p\u0103rerea lor.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mi s-a pus un nod \u00een stomac.<\/p>\n
\u201eO solu\u021bie \u00een care eu eram moneda de schimb.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nu a spus da. Dar t\u0103cerea lui a confirmat totul.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum lacrimile \u00eemi urc\u0103 \u00een ochi, dar le-am \u021binut cu din\u021bii. Nu voiam s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng \u00een fa\u021ba lui. Nu acum.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218i adev\u0103rul?\u201d, am \u0219optit. \u201eDe c\u00e2te ori ai vrut s\u0103-mi spui?\u201d<\/p>\n
Edi a deschis gura\u2026 apoi a \u00eenchis-o. \u0218i-a trecut m\u00e2na pe ceaf\u0103, ca un om r\u0103mas f\u0103r\u0103 scuze.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe multe ori. Dar n-am putut. Pentru c\u0103 \u00een fiecare zi\u2026 te vedeam altfel.\u201d<\/p>\n
M-am oprit. \u201eAlt\u2026 fel?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eAi venit aici f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 urli, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ceri nimic. Ai fost bl\u00e2nd\u0103, chiar dac\u0103 nu aveai motive. \u0218i atunci\u2026 m-am temut c\u0103 dac\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi spun adev\u0103rul, vei pleca.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge inima. O parte din mine voia s\u0103 cread\u0103. Cealalt\u0103 parte \u00eenc\u0103 ardea de furie.<\/p>\n
\u201eRidic\u0103-te\u201d, i-am spus.<\/p>\n
Edi m-a privit surprins. \u201eAcum?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eRidic\u0103-te.\u201d<\/p>\n
A fost o secund\u0103 de lini\u0219te. Apoi \u0219i-a pus m\u00e2inile pe podea \u0219i, cu efort vizibil, s-a ridicat \u00eencet \u00een picioare.<\/p>\n
L-am privit cum st\u0103 \u00een fa\u021ba mea, sprijinit de marginea patului, respir\u00e2nd greu dar bine\u2026 at\u00e2t de bine \u00eenc\u00e2t mi s-a t\u0103iat r\u0103suflarea.<\/p>\n
\u201eAsta e\u0219ti tu de fapt\u201d, am spus, cu voce joas\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eDa\u201d, a murmur\u00e2t. \u201eDar nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 meri\u021bi s\u0103 vezi partea asta din mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eBa merit\u201d, am r\u0103spuns. \u201eMerit adev\u0103rul.\u201d<\/p>\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n
Apropierea dintre noi s-a \u00eenc\u0103rcat brusc cu o greutate pe care nu o pot descrie. Nu era romantism. Nu era atrac\u021bie. Era adev\u0103rul, crud \u0219i dezbr\u0103cat.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe azi \u00eenainte\u201d, i-am spus, \u201edac\u0103 vrei s\u0103 fie o c\u0103snicie adev\u0103rat\u0103\u2026 nu mai min\u021bim. Nici tu. Nici eu.\u201d<\/p>\n
Edi m-a privit cu o intensitate care mi-a dat fiori.<\/p>\n
\u201eAtunci \u00eencepem de la zero\u201d, a spus.<\/p>\n
\u201eDa\u201d, am r\u0103spuns. \u201eDar s\u0103 fie un zero curat.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een lini\u0219tea aceea, pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een acea zi, am sim\u021bit ceva ce nu sim\u021bisem de mult: puterea de a alege.<\/p>\n
Iar alegerea mea a fost simpl\u0103:<\/p>\n
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