\u0218i de acolo am \u00eenceput, pentru prima oar\u0103 \u00een mul\u021bi ani, s\u0103 respir altfel. Aerul mirosea a libertate, nu a datorii mascate \u00een \u201ete iubim, mam\u0103\u201d. \u00centre pere\u021bii aceleia\u0219i case, care alt\u0103dat\u0103 p\u0103strau ecoul pa\u0219ilor lui Haralambie, am sim\u021bit cum lini\u0219tea m\u0103 \u021bine de m\u00e2n\u0103, nu singur\u0103tatea.<\/p>\n
M-am dus \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie \u0219i mi-am turnat o can\u0103 cu ceai. Nu mai beam ceaiul gr\u0103bit\u0103, cu telefonul \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103, a\u0219tept\u00e2nd alt\u0103 cerere. L-am b\u0103ut \u00eencet, ca \u0219i cum redescopeream un ritual uitat.<\/p>\n
A doua zi am f\u0103cut ceva \u0219i mai nea\u0219teptat pentru mine: am mers la pia\u021b\u0103. Am vorbit cu oamenii, am negociat mere, am z\u00e2mbit sincer unei femei care mi-a spus c\u0103 sem\u0103n cu mama ei. Nu m-am sim\u021bit b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103. M-am sim\u021bit vie.<\/p>\n
Dar libertatea nu vine niciodat\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 zgomot din partea celor deranja\u021bi de ea.<\/p>\n
\u00cen a treia zi dup\u0103 ce am \u00eentrerupt sprijinul financiar, a venit un mesaj de la Adrian:
\u201eMam\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 vorbim. E urgent.\u201d<\/p>\n
N-am r\u0103spuns. Mi-am pus telefonul \u00een buzunar \u0219i am ie\u0219it \u00een gr\u0103din\u0103. Liliacul \u00eenflorise mai devreme anul acela, iar mirosul lui era at\u00e2t de puternic \u00eenc\u00e2t aproape c\u0103 m\u0103 ame\u021bea. M-am a\u0219ezat pe banca de piatr\u0103, cea pe care Haralambie o lustruise cu m\u00e2inile lui, \u0219i am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
\u0218tiam c\u0103 nu se vor opri.<\/p>\n
\u0218tiam c\u0103 se vor \u00eentoarce.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd tragi covorul de sub picioarele cuiva care a profitat de tine, \u00eencepe dansul disper\u0103rii.<\/p>\n
\u00cen jurul pr\u00e2nzului, poarta mare s-a deschis cu un sc\u00e2r\u021b\u00e2it lung. Am recunoscut sunetul ma\u0219inii lor, chiar dac\u0103 nu voiam. Am r\u0103mas \u00een gr\u0103din\u0103. Nu aveam nimic de ascuns. Nici de oferit.<\/p>\n
\u201eMam\u0103!\u201d, a strigat Adrian din prag. \u201ePutem discuta civilizat?\u201d<\/p>\n
Am ridicat privirea.<\/p>\n
\u201eAdrian, eu \u00eentotdeauna am fost civilizat\u0103. Doar c\u0103 acum nu mai sunt o surs\u0103 de bani.\u201d<\/p>\n
S-a uitat \u00een jur, ca \u0219i cum ar c\u0103uta alia\u021bi printre pietre \u0219i copaci.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu e vorba despre bani, mam\u0103\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00cen clipa aceea am auzit pa\u0219ii ei. Pa\u0219i ap\u0103sa\u021bi, f\u0103r\u0103 ru\u0219ine. \u0218i-a dat ochelarii jos \u0219i \u0219i-a \u00eempins p\u0103rul \u00een spate, cu acea atitudine de superioritate pe care o cunoscusem prea bine.<\/p>\n
\u201eBa exact despre bani e vorba\u201d, a spus ea. \u201eNoi avem nevoie, iar dumneata ai. Ce rost are s\u0103 \u021bii totul doar pentru tine?\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se \u00eent\u0103re\u0219te coloana, os cu os.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru c\u0103 eu am muncit pentru tot ce vede\u021bi aici. Eu \u0219i Haralambie. \u0218i pentru c\u0103 nu mai accept s\u0103 fiu tratat\u0103 ca un portofel cu picioare.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ea a dat ochii peste cap.<\/p>\n
\u201eDoamn\u0103 Ionescu, sunte\u021bi ridicol\u0103. Nu mai suntem copii. Noi avem planuri.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eSunt sigur\u0103. Dar niciunul dintre planurile voastre nu m\u0103 mai prive\u0219te.\u201d<\/p>\n
Adrian a f\u0103cut un pas spre mine. Pentru o clip\u0103 am v\u0103zut \u00een ochii lui b\u0103iatul pe care \u00eel leg\u0103nam c\u00e2nd pl\u00e2ngea, cel care \u00eemi aducea flori de c\u00e2mp \u0219i \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 sunt cea mai bun\u0103 mam\u0103 din lume. Doar o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eMam\u0103\u2026 dac\u0103 nu ne aju\u021bi, risc\u0103m s\u0103 fim evacua\u021bi.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eAtunci \u00eencepe\u021bi s\u0103 munci\u021bi. Serios. \u0218i s\u0103 tr\u0103i\u021bi dup\u0103 posibilit\u0103\u021bi.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eNu po\u021bi s\u0103 ne arunci \u00een strad\u0103!\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eNu v-am aruncat. V-am l\u0103sat pe picioarele voastre. Voi nu \u0219ti\u021bi s\u0103 merge\u021bi f\u0103r\u0103 sprijin.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ea s-a sup\u0103rat prima.<\/p>\n
\u201eN-ai inim\u0103! Ai bani, ai cas\u0103, ai tot! Ce-\u021bi pas\u0103 \u021bie?\u201d<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat de pe banc\u0103. Mi-am \u0219ters palmele de rochia mea de cas\u0103 \u0219i am privit-o drept \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm inim\u0103. Tocmai pentru c\u0103 am inim\u0103 nu v\u0103 mai las s\u0103 v\u0103 distruge\u021bi via\u021ba st\u00e2nd ag\u0103\u021ba\u021bi de mine. Dragostea nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 pl\u0103tesc pentru gre\u0219elile voastre la nesf\u00e2r\u0219it.\u201d<\/p>\n
S-a \u00eentors spre Adrian.<\/p>\n
\u201eVezi? \u021ai-am zis eu. Nu-i pas\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Dar Adrian nu o asculta. Se uita la mine.<\/p>\n
\u201eM\u0103car\u2026 m\u0103car ai mai \u021bine copilul dac\u0103 am avea unul?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00centrebarea m-a lovit neanun\u021bat\u0103\u2014dar nu cum sperau ei.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu faci copii ca s\u0103 ai finan\u021bare, Adrian. Copiii vin c\u00e2nd \u00eei po\u021bi cre\u0219te, nu c\u00e2nd te pot ajuta s\u0103 iei ceva.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ea a pufnit.<\/p>\n
\u201eGata. Plec\u0103m. E\u0219ti pierderea ei.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eBa sunte\u021bi pierderea voastr\u0103\u201d, le-am spus.<\/p>\n
Au plecat din nou. F\u0103r\u0103 \u021bipete, f\u0103r\u0103 amenin\u021b\u0103ri. Doar cu o t\u0103cere groas\u0103, \u00eenc\u0103rcat\u0103 de ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci am \u0219tiut c\u0103 b\u0103t\u0103lia se \u00eencheiase.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 i-am \u00eenvins.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103, pentru prima oar\u0103, nu m\u0103 mai puteau atinge.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea mi-am f\u0103cut o omlet\u0103 simpl\u0103, am deschis geamul \u0219i am ascultat marea. Valurile loveau \u021b\u0103rmul ritmic, ca o inim\u0103 uria\u0219\u0103 care nu se oprea niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een zumzetul lor, am sim\u021bit-o pe a mea.<\/p>\n
Liber\u0103.<\/p>\n
Hot\u0103r\u00e2t\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centreag\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 adev\u0103rul era unul singur:
Nu r\u0103m\u00e2i f\u0103r\u0103 suflet atunci c\u00e2nd spui \u201enu\u201d.
R\u0103m\u00e2i f\u0103r\u0103 suflet c\u00e2nd accep\u021bi s\u0103 fii c\u0103lcat \u00een picioare.<\/p>\n
\u0218i eu, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, \u00eemi g\u0103sisem curajul.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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