\u2026era chipul meu.<\/p>\n
Nu o asem\u0103nare vag\u0103. Nu \u201eseam\u0103n\u0103 pu\u021bin\u201d. Erau ochii mei, nasul meu, gura mea. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i mica aluni\u021b\u0103 de l\u00e2ng\u0103 spr\u00e2ncean\u0103 era acolo. Am f\u0103cut un pas \u00een spate, apoi \u00eenc\u0103 unul. Sim\u021beam c\u0103 mi se \u00eenmoaie genunchii.<\/p>\n
Pe piatra rece scria un nume rom\u00e2nesc simplu: Ana Ionescu<\/strong>. Exact ca al meu \u00eenainte de c\u0103s\u0103torie.<\/p>\n Am stat c\u00e2teva secunde f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 pot respira. Mintea mea refuza s\u0103 accepte ce vedeam. Prima reac\u021bie a fost s\u0103 cred c\u0103 am gre\u0219it morm\u00e2ntul. Am privit \u00een jur: Cimitirul Bellu, aleea, brazii b\u0103tr\u00e2ni. Totul era real.<\/p>\n Am atins fotografia cu v\u00e2rful degetelor. Piatra era rece, dar pielea mea ardea.<\/p>\n \u201eNu se poate\u2026\u201d, am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n Am scos telefonul, tremur\u00e2nd, \u0219i am deschis camera. M-am apropiat de monument \u0219i am pus ecranul l\u00e2ng\u0103 fa\u021ba mea. Dou\u0103 chipuri identice. Ca \u00eentr-o oglind\u0103 stricat\u0103.<\/p>\n Atunci mi-am amintit de primele zile \u00een care l-am cunoscut pe Andrei. Cum m-a privit lung, de parc\u0103 m\u0103 \u0219tia de o via\u021b\u0103. Cum mi-a spus, \u00eenc\u0103 de la prima \u00eent\u00e2lnire, c\u0103 simte c\u0103 \u201em\u0103 cunoa\u0219te de undeva\u201d. Eu am r\u00e2s atunci.<\/p>\n Mi-am amintit cum evita s\u0103-mi fac poze. Cum se sup\u0103ra dac\u0103 spuneam c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 schimb ceva la p\u0103r sau la stil. \u201e\u00ce\u021bi st\u0103 bine a\u0219a\u201d, spunea mereu, prea ferm.<\/p>\n Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een stomac.<\/p>\n M-am a\u0219ezat pe o banc\u0103 din apropiere. \u00cen jur, lini\u0219te. Doar v\u00e2ntul care fo\u0219nea frunzele uscate. Am realizat c\u0103 nu puteam pleca f\u0103r\u0103 adev\u0103r.<\/p>\n C\u00e2nd am ajuns acas\u0103, Andrei era \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie. C\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut, s-a albit la fa\u021b\u0103. A \u0219tiut. N-am apucat s\u0103 spun nimic.<\/p>\n \u2014 Ai fost acolo, a zis \u00eencet.<\/p>\n Am dat din cap. Nu mai aveam lacrimi.<\/p>\n \u2014 De ce? am \u00eentrebat. Cine era femeia aia?<\/p>\n S-a a\u0219ezat pe scaun, ca un om \u00eenvins.<\/p>\n Mi-a spus tot.<\/p>\n Prima lui so\u021bie murise, da. Dar sem\u0103na izbitor cu mine. Dup\u0103 moartea ei, el se pr\u0103bu\u0219ise. Ani \u00eentregi nu fusese \u00een stare s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103 normal. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi, c\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut pe mine \u00eentr-un supermarket din Bucure\u0219ti.<\/p>\n \u2014 Am crezut c\u0103 am \u00eennebunit, mi-a spus. Erai ea. Vie.<\/p>\n Nu m-a urm\u0103rit, nu m-a for\u021bat. Dar c\u00e2nd ne-am cunoscut \u201eoficial\u201d, el deja \u0219tia c\u0103 nu pot fi \u00eent\u00e2mplare. Recuno\u0219tea c\u0103 s-a ag\u0103\u021bat de asem\u0103narea mea ca de un colac de salvare.<\/p>\n \u2014 La \u00eenceput m-am min\u021bit singur c\u0103 e dragoste. Apoi\u2026 a devenit.<\/p>\n L-am ascultat f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l \u00eentrerup. Adev\u0103rul durea, dar era curat.<\/p>\n \u2014 M-am temut c\u0103 dac\u0103 mergi la morm\u00e2nt, o s\u0103 \u00een\u021belegi, a spus el. \u0218i o s\u0103 pleci.<\/p>\n Am t\u0103cut mult. Apoi i-am spus ce trebuia spus.<\/p>\n \u2014 Nu sunt ea. Nu pot \u0219i nu vreau s\u0103 fiu \u00eenlocuitorul nim\u0103nui.<\/p>\n A pl\u00e2ns. Pentru prima dat\u0103.<\/p>\n \u00cen s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nile urm\u0103toare am mers \u00eempreun\u0103 la terapie. Am pus limite. Am vorbit. Mult. Greu. Sincer.<\/p>\n \u00centr-o zi, la ini\u021biativa lui, am mers din nou la morm\u00e2nt. De data asta \u00eempreun\u0103. Am pus flori. El \u0219i-a luat r\u0103mas-bun cu adev\u0103rat.<\/p>\n C\u00e2teva luni mai t\u00e2rziu, am schimbat fotografia de pe piatra funerar\u0103 cu una mai veche, mai estompat\u0103. A\u0219a cum fusese ea, nu cum eram eu.<\/p>\n Ast\u0103zi suntem \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eempreun\u0103. Nu perfect. Dar real.<\/p>\n \u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 \u0219tiu sigur: nu tr\u0103iesc via\u021ba altei femei. Tr\u0103iesc via\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u2026era chipul meu. Nu o asem\u0103nare vag\u0103. Nu \u201eseam\u0103n\u0103 pu\u021bin\u201d. Erau ochii mei, nasul meu, gura mea. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i mica aluni\u021b\u0103 de l\u00e2ng\u0103 spr\u00e2ncean\u0103 era acolo. Am f\u0103cut un pas \u00een spate, apoi \u00eenc\u0103 unul. Sim\u021beam c\u0103 mi se \u00eenmoaie genunchii. Pe piatra rece scria un nume rom\u00e2nesc simplu: Ana Ionescu. Exact ca al meu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":15970,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15969","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15969","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15969"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15969\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15971,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15969\/revisions\/15971"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/15970"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15969"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15969"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15969"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}