{"id":16046,"date":"2026-01-02T07:00:49","date_gmt":"2026-01-02T07:00:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/?p=16046"},"modified":"2026-01-02T07:00:49","modified_gmt":"2026-01-02T07:00:49","slug":"fara-sa-i-spun-sotului-meu-m-am-dus-la-mormantul-primei-lui-sotii-ca-sa-i-cer-iertare-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/?p=16046","title":{"rendered":"F\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-i spun so\u021bului meu, m-am dus la morm\u00e2ntul primei lui so\u021bii ca s\u0103-i cer iertare"},"content":{"rendered":"<p data-start=\"1528\" data-end=\"1566\">\u2026iar inima mea parc\u0103 s-a oprit \u00een loc.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1568\" data-end=\"1598\">Femeia din fotografie eram eu.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1600\" data-end=\"1800\">Nu sem\u0103na cu mine. Eram eu. Aceea\u0219i privire, aceea\u0219i aluni\u021b\u0103 mic\u0103 de l\u00e2ng\u0103 buza de sus, acela\u0219i z\u00e2mbet pe care-l v\u0103zusem de at\u00e2tea ori \u00een oglind\u0103 diminea\u021ba. M-am apropiat tremur\u00e2nd \u0219i am citit numele.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1802\" data-end=\"1820\"><strong data-start=\"1802\" data-end=\"1820\">Maria Popescu.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1822\" data-end=\"1838\">Exact ca al meu.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"1840\" data-end=\"2063\">Am sim\u021bit cum mi se taie picioarele \u0219i m-am a\u0219ezat pe banca rece de l\u00e2ng\u0103 morm\u00e2nt. Aerul parc\u0103 disp\u0103ruse. Cimitirul din marginea ora\u0219ului, cu brazii lui b\u0103tr\u00e2ni \u0219i lini\u0219tea ap\u0103s\u0103toare, devenise dintr-odat\u0103 un loc de co\u0219mar.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2065\" data-end=\"2251\">Prima reac\u021bie a fost s\u0103 cred c\u0103 e o glum\u0103 proast\u0103. Sau o coinciden\u021b\u0103 bolnav\u0103. Dar anii trecu\u021bi pe cruce erau reali. Data mor\u021bii era cu cinci ani \u00eenainte s\u0103-l cunosc pe so\u021bul meu, Andrei.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2253\" data-end=\"2289\">Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremur din tot corpul.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2291\" data-end=\"2426\">Am scos telefonul \u0219i am c\u0103utat \u00een grab\u0103 fotografii vechi cu mine, dinainte s\u0103-l cunosc. Aceea\u0219i fa\u021b\u0103. Aceea\u0219i persoan\u0103. Nicio \u00eendoial\u0103.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2428\" data-end=\"2549\">Atunci mi-am dat seama de ceva ce ignorasem mereu: Andrei m\u0103 alesese pe mine nu pentru cine eram, ci pentru cine sem\u0103nam.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2551\" data-end=\"2828\">Mi-au venit \u00een minte toate micile ciud\u0103\u021benii de-a lungul timpului. Faptul c\u0103 insista s\u0103-mi port p\u0103rul \u00eentr-un anumit fel. C\u0103 se sup\u0103ra c\u00e2nd \u00eemi cump\u0103ram haine diferite de \u201estilul care-mi st\u0103 bine\u201d. C\u0103 \u00eemi spunea uneori pe un ton ciudat: \u201eA\u0219a \u00ee\u021bi st\u0103 cel mai frumos\u2026 exact a\u0219a\u201d.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2830\" data-end=\"2846\">Exact a\u0219a ca ea.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"2848\" data-end=\"3041\">M-am ridicat brusc \u0219i am plecat, aproape alerg\u00e2nd, cu lacrimile curg\u00e2ndu-mi pe obraji. N-am mers acas\u0103. M-am oprit la o cafenea mic\u0103 din cartier, unde mi-am comandat un ceai, de\u0219i nu l-am b\u0103ut.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3043\" data-end=\"3072\">Dup\u0103 o or\u0103, Andrei m-a sunat.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3074\" data-end=\"3119\">\u2014 Unde e\u0219ti? vocea lui era calm\u0103, prea calm\u0103.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3121\" data-end=\"3150\">\u2014 La cimitir, am spus simplu.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3152\" data-end=\"3174\">A fost o t\u0103cere lung\u0103.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3176\" data-end=\"3202\">\u2014 Ai fost acolo\u2026 a \u0219optit.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3204\" data-end=\"3248\">\u2014 De ce era fotografia mea pe cruce, Andrei?<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3250\" data-end=\"3306\">Respira\u021bia lui s-a schimbat. Nu mai putea ascunde nimic.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3308\" data-end=\"3414\">C\u00e2nd a ajuns, ar\u0103ta ca un om \u00eenfr\u00e2nt. S-a a\u0219ezat \u00een fa\u021ba mea \u0219i, pentru prima dat\u0103, nu m-a privit \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3416\" data-end=\"3435\">Mi-a spus adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3437\" data-end=\"3686\">Prima lui so\u021bie murise, \u00eentr-adev\u0103r. Dar dup\u0103 moartea ei, el o c\u0103utase obsesiv \u00een toate femeile. Ajunsese s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103, dac\u0103 va g\u0103si pe cineva identic, va putea repara trecutul. C\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut prima dat\u0103, \u00eentr-un autobuz aglomerat, aproape le\u0219inase.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3688\" data-end=\"3744\">\u2014 Erai ea, Maria\u2026 doar c\u0103 vie, mi-a spus cu voce fr\u00e2nt\u0103.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3746\" data-end=\"3902\">Fotografia de pe morm\u00e2nt fusese pus\u0103 recent. O \u00eenlocuise cu una mai veche, pentru c\u0103 nu suporta s\u0103 se uite la trecut. Voia s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103 eu sunt continuarea.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3904\" data-end=\"3937\">Am pl\u0103tit ceaiul \u0219i m-am ridicat.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"3939\" data-end=\"4078\">\u2014 Nu sunt nimeni \u00eenlocuitorul nim\u0103nui, i-am spus. \u0218i nici n-am de ce s\u0103 cer iertare unei mor\u021bi pentru o minciun\u0103 pe care tu ai construit-o.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"4080\" data-end=\"4176\">\u00cen aceea\u0219i sear\u0103 mi-am str\u00e2ns lucrurile. N-am luat nimic scump. Doar hainele mele \u0219i demnitatea.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"4178\" data-end=\"4193\">Au trecut luni.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"4195\" data-end=\"4346\">Ast\u0103zi stau \u00eentr-un apartament mic, pl\u0103tit din salariul meu, cu lini\u0219te adev\u0103rat\u0103 \u00een suflet. M\u0103 uit \u00een oglind\u0103 \u0219i v\u0103d, pentru prima dat\u0103, doar pe mine.<\/p>\n<p data-start=\"4348\" data-end=\"4471\" data-is-last-node=\"\" data-is-only-node=\"\">\u0218i \u0219tiu un lucru sigur: iubirea nu trebuie s\u0103 doar\u0103 \u0219i nu trebuie s\u0103 te transforme \u00eentr-o umbr\u0103 dintr-o poz\u0103 de pe o cruce.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u2026iar inima mea parc\u0103 s-a oprit \u00een loc. Femeia din fotografie eram eu. Nu sem\u0103na cu mine. Eram eu. Aceea\u0219i privire, aceea\u0219i aluni\u021b\u0103 mic\u0103 de l\u00e2ng\u0103 buza de sus, acela\u0219i z\u00e2mbet pe care-l v\u0103zusem de at\u00e2tea ori \u00een oglind\u0103 diminea\u021ba. M-am apropiat tremur\u00e2nd \u0219i am citit numele. Maria Popescu. Exact ca al meu. 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