\u0218i-a str\u00e2ns buzele \u00eentr-un z\u00e2mbet slab, obosit.<\/p>\n
\u201eBun\u0103, Adrian.\u201d<\/p>\n
Vocea ei era calm\u0103, dar avea ceva stins \u00een ea, ca o lumin\u0103 l\u0103sat\u0103 aprins\u0103 \u00eentr-o camer\u0103 goal\u0103. M-am oprit la doi pa\u0219i de ea, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u0219tiu dac\u0103 am voie s\u0103 m\u0103 apropii mai mult, de parc\u0103 divor\u021bul ar fi trasat o linie invizibil\u0103 \u00eentre noi.<\/p>\n
\u201eCe\u2026 ce faci aici?\u201d am \u00eentrebat, de\u0219i \u00eentrebarea suna stupid chiar \u0219i pentru mine.<\/p>\n
A ridicat din umeri u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
\u201eA\u0219tept.\u201d<\/p>\n
T\u0103cerea s-a a\u0219ezat \u00eentre noi. Se auzeau pa\u0219i, un c\u0103rucior metalic, o asistent\u0103 care \u0219optea ceva. Via\u021ba mergea \u00eenainte, indiferent de furtuna din pieptul meu.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la halatul ei, la br\u0103\u021bara alb\u0103 de la m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eE\u0219ti bolnav\u0103?\u201d<\/p>\n
A ezitat o frac\u021biune de secund\u0103. At\u00e2t. Dar am v\u0103zut-o.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm fost diagnosticat\u0103 \u00eenainte s\u0103 pleci.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cuvintele au c\u0103zut greu, una c\u00e2te una. Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul.<\/p>\n
\u201eDiagnosticat\u0103 cu ce?\u201d am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
\u201eCu cancer,\u201d a spus simplu. \u201eLa s\u00e2n. Stadiu incipient, au zis. Dar suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103-mi dea lumea peste cap.\u201d<\/p>\n
M-am a\u0219ezat pe banca de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-mi dau seama c\u00e2nd. Capul \u00eemi vuia.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe ce nu mi-ai spus?\u201d<\/p>\n
M-a privit lung. Nu era repro\u0219 \u00een ochii ei. Doar adev\u0103r.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u021ai-am spus c\u0103 nu mai pot. \u021ai-am spus c\u0103 m\u0103 simt singur\u0103. Tu erai deja plecat, Adrian. Chiar dac\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 erai \u00een cas\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
M-a lovit mai tare dec\u00e2t orice \u021bip\u0103t.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm \u00eenceput tratamentul singur\u0103,\u201d a continuat. \u201eOpera\u021bia, apoi chimioterapia. Mama a mai stat cu mine, c\u00e2nd a putut. Restul\u2026 m-am descurcat.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mi-am trecut m\u00e2na prin p\u0103r, sim\u021bind un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
\u201eEu credeam c\u0103\u2026 c\u0103 ai plecat la ai t\u0103i, c\u0103 vrei lini\u0219te.\u201d<\/p>\n
A z\u00e2mbit trist.<\/p>\n
\u201eLini\u0219tea nu vindec\u0103 tot.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am stat acolo mult timp. I-am cump\u0103rat un ceai de la automat. Am \u021binut-o de m\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd asistenta i-a spus c\u0103 mai dureaz\u0103. Am vorbit despre nimicuri. Despre cum s-a scumpit totul, despre vecinii care \u00eenc\u0103 mai parcheaz\u0103 aiurea, despre c\u00e2inele vecinului care latr\u0103 noaptea.<\/p>\n
La un moment dat, m-a privit din nou.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu-\u021bi spun asta ca s\u0103 te sim\u021bi vinovat.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eDar m\u0103 simt,\u201d am r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218tiu. Dar vreau s\u0103 \u0219tii ceva. Am supravie\u021buit. \u0218i o s\u0103 fiu bine. Nu pentru c\u0103 a fost u\u0219or, ci pentru c\u0103 a trebuit.\u201d<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd medicul a chemat-o, s-a ridicat cu greutate. M-am ridicat \u0219i eu.<\/p>\n
\u201eSorina\u2026 \u00eemi pare r\u0103u,\u201d am spus, cu o sinceritate care venea prea t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
S-a uitat la mine calm.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218tiu. Ai venit c\u00e2nd ai putut.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0218i apoi a plecat pe u\u0219a aceea alb\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas pe hol, cu mirosul de spirt \u0219i cu o lec\u021bie dureroas\u0103 \u00een piept: uneori nu plec\u0103m pentru c\u0103 nu iubim, ci pentru c\u0103 ne e fric\u0103. Iar frica ne cost\u0103 mai mult dec\u00e2t orice.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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