Suficient de aproape \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 ne \u0219tim unul pe altul foarte bine, dar destul de departe \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 ne prefacem c\u0103 nu mai cont\u0103m. Ruperea dintre noi n-a fost cu scandal. N-au fost \u021bipete, nici amenin\u021b\u0103ri dramatice. Doar o discu\u021bie care a mers prost, ni\u0219te vorbe spuse prea dur, la momentul gre\u0219it, \u0219i o t\u0103cere care, \u00eencet-\u00eencet, s-a transformat \u00een distan\u021b\u0103. Restul l-a f\u0103cut orgoliul. M-am convins c\u0103 dac\u0103 \u00eel scot din via\u021ba mea e un semn de respect fa\u021b\u0103 de mine, c\u0103 leg\u0103tura de s\u00e2nge nu scuz\u0103 durerea. \u0218i, cu timpul, lipsa lui a \u00eenceput s\u0103 nu mai par\u0103 ciudat\u0103. Sau a\u0219a \u00eemi spuneam.<\/p>\n
Via\u021ba s-a a\u0219ezat \u00een jurul golului l\u0103sat de el. Zilele de na\u0219tere au trecut f\u0103r\u0103 mesaje. S\u0103rb\u0103torile au devenit mai t\u0103cute, mai simple, \u201ec\u00e2t s\u0103 fie bine\u201d. Mi-am f\u0103cut obiceiuri \u00een care el nu exista \u0219i le-am numit lini\u0219te. C\u00e2nd \u00eemi venea numele lui \u00een minte, \u00eel alungam repede, spun\u00e2ndu-mi c\u0103 un telefon n-ar face dec\u00e2t s\u0103 redeschid\u0103 ceva deja \u00eenchis. Povestea mea era curat\u0103, ordonat\u0103 \u0219i, \u00een mare parte, netulburat\u0103.<\/p>\n
P\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eentr-o noapte de iarn\u0103, c\u00e2nd totul s-a destr\u0103mat.<\/p>\n
Ma\u0219ina s-a oprit din senin. A mai tu\u0219it o dat\u0103 \u0219i gata. Atunci n-am realizat ironia \u2014 am sim\u021bit doar frigul. Apoi m-am uitat \u00een jur \u0219i mi-am dat seama exact unde eram. \u00cen fa\u021ba blocului lui, \u00eentr-un cartier obi\u0219nuit din ora\u0219. Z\u0103pada se str\u00e2ngea pe trotuar, iar felinarele p\u00e2lp\u00e2iau de parc\u0103 nici ele nu \u0219tiau dac\u0103 s\u0103 mai stea aprinse. St\u0103team cu m\u00e2inile str\u00e2nse pe volan, blocat, ca \u0219i cum ora\u0219ul m-ar fi \u00eempins inten\u021bionat \u00eentr-un col\u021b pe care \u00eel ocolisem ani la r\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
Am scos telefonul s\u0103 sun la tractare. Asta era varianta logic\u0103. Dar, c\u00e2nd am derulat lista de contacte, degetul mi s-a oprit pe un nume pe care nu-l \u0219tersesem niciodat\u0103: Andrei. M-am uitat la el mai mult dec\u00e2t pl\u0103nuisem. Toate scuzele au ap\u0103rut deodat\u0103. Nu-l deranja. Nu redeschide r\u0103nile. Descurc\u0103-te singur.<\/p>\n
Le-am ignorat \u0219i am sunat.<\/p>\n
A r\u0103spuns imediat.
F\u0103r\u0103 ezitare. F\u0103r\u0103 \u201ecine e?\u201d. Doar numele meu, spus exact cum \u00eel spunea \u00eenainte \u2014 firesc, f\u0103r\u0103 paz\u0103. Pentru o clip\u0103 n-am fost \u00een stare s\u0103 scot un cuv\u00e2nt. C\u00e2nd i-am explicat unde sunt, vocea mea suna mai slab\u0103 dec\u00e2t de obicei. A urmat o pauz\u0103 scurt\u0103, suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103-mi n\u0103v\u0103leasc\u0103 toate fricile vechi. Apoi a spus simplu:
\u2014 Nu pleca nic\u0103ieri. Vin acum.<\/p>\n
F\u0103r\u0103 \u00eentreb\u0103ri. F\u0103r\u0103 repro\u0219uri. F\u0103r\u0103 vreo vorb\u0103 despre anii pierdu\u021bi.<\/p>\n
A cobor\u00e2t \u00eembr\u0103cat gros, la fel de calm \u0219i practic cum \u00eel \u0219tiam. N-a pomenit nimic de cearta noastr\u0103. N-a \u00eentrebat de ce mi-a luat at\u00e2ta timp s\u0103-l sun. M-a ajutat s\u0103 \u00eemping ma\u0219ina, a dat telefoane, a stat p\u00e2n\u0103 s-a rezolvat totul. Abia dup\u0103 aceea am intrat \u00een bloc, cu m\u00e2inile \u00eenf\u0103\u0219urate \u00een jurul unor c\u0103ni cu ceai fierbinte, schimb\u00e2nd z\u00e2mbete st\u00e2ngace \u0219i vorbind despre nimicuri.<\/p>\n
Discu\u021biile grele n-aveau nevoie s\u0103 se \u00eent\u00e2mple \u00een seara aia.
Ce conta era altceva: sentimentul care se a\u0219eza \u00eencet \u00eentre noi \u2014 c\u0103 distan\u021ba nu rupsese leg\u0103tura. Doar o \u00eentinsese. \u0218i c\u0103, uneori, \u00eemp\u0103carea nu \u00eencepe cu scuze sau explica\u021bii. Uneori \u00eencepe cu o ma\u0219in\u0103 stricat\u0103, o sear\u0103 rece de iarn\u0103 \u0219i curajul de a ap\u0103sa pe un nume pe care, de fapt, nu l-ai uitat niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Suficient de aproape \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 ne \u0219tim unul pe altul foarte bine, dar destul de departe \u00eenc\u00e2t s\u0103 ne prefacem c\u0103 nu mai cont\u0103m. Ruperea dintre noi n-a fost cu scandal. N-au fost \u021bipete, nici amenin\u021b\u0103ri dramatice. Doar o discu\u021bie care a mers prost, ni\u0219te vorbe spuse prea dur, la momentul gre\u0219it, \u0219i o t\u0103cere […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":17520,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17519","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17519","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17519"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17519\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17521,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17519\/revisions\/17521"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/17520"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17519"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17519"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17519"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}