\u2026\u201eNu el\u201d, a spus. \u201eVia\u021ba.\u201d<\/p>\n
S-a a\u0219ezat pe marginea patului, cu umerii str\u00e2n\u0219i, ca \u0219i cum s-ar fi ap\u0103rat de o lovitur\u0103 care nu mai venea. Am r\u0103mas l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 o gr\u0103besc. \u00cen Rom\u00e2nia, oamenii de v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103 au fost \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba\u021bi s\u0103 tac\u0103, s\u0103 \u00eendure, s\u0103 nu se pl\u00e2ng\u0103. Ana era una dintre ei.<\/p>\n
Mi-a povestit \u00eencet, cu pauze lungi. Despre o c\u0103snicie f\u0103r\u0103 dragoste. Despre un b\u0103rbat rece, mereu nemul\u021bumit, care o f\u0103cea s\u0103 se simt\u0103 mic\u0103. Nu o b\u0103tea, dar o zdrobea cu vorba, cu t\u0103cerea, cu dispre\u021bul. Despre ani \u00een care a muncit ca s\u0103 pun\u0103 bani deoparte, ca s\u0103-\u0219i creasc\u0103 copiii, ca s\u0103 pl\u0103teasc\u0103 ratele, ca s\u0103 nu cear\u0103 nimic de la nimeni.<\/p>\n
Cicatricile nu erau din b\u0103t\u0103i. Erau din opera\u021bii, din munc\u0103 grea, din accidente m\u0103runte ignorate pentru c\u0103 \u201enu e timp de doctor\u201d. Erau urmele unei vie\u021bi tr\u0103ite pe din\u0103untru, cu fr\u00e2na tras\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t. M-am g\u00e2ndit la mine, la serile mele goale, la farfuria pus\u0103 doar pentru unul. M-am g\u00e2ndit c\u00e2t de u\u0219or e s\u0103 crezi c\u0103 suferin\u021ba ta e cea mai mare, c\u00e2nd, de fapt, fiecare duce ceva \u00een spate.<\/p>\n
Am luat-o de m\u00e2n\u0103. De data asta nu s-a mai ferit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Acum e\u0219ti acas\u0103, i-am spus. Aici nu mai trebuie s\u0103 fii tare.<\/p>\n
A pl\u00e2ns. Mult. Ca un copil care a \u021binut prea mult totul \u00een el. Am l\u0103sat-o. Lacrimile nu cer solu\u021bii, cer loc.<\/p>\n
Zilele care au urmat au fost altfel dec\u00e2t \u00eemi imaginasem o c\u0103snicie la b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021be. N-au fost pline de planuri mari, ci de gesturi mici. Cafea b\u0103ut\u0103 diminea\u021ba la buc\u0103t\u0103rie. Drumuri la pia\u021b\u0103, unde ne tocmeam la ro\u0219ii. Plimb\u0103ri prin parc, pe b\u0103nci cunoscute, unde al\u021bi oameni ca noi \u00ee\u0219i hr\u0103neau porumbeii.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 o citesc. C\u00e2nd obosea, c\u00e2nd o durea spatele, c\u00e2nd avea nevoie doar s\u0103 stea \u00een lini\u0219te. Ea a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 nu mai cear\u0103 voie. S\u0103-\u0219i cumpere o rochie f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se justifice. S\u0103 r\u00e2d\u0103 tare, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 se team\u0103 c\u0103 deranjeaz\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o zi, am g\u0103sit \u00eentr-un sertar vechi o h\u00e2rtie cu datorie, uitat\u0103 de ani de zile. Restan\u021be, sume mici, dar care se adunaser\u0103. Am stat la mas\u0103, le-am calculat. Le-am pl\u0103tit din economiile mele. Nu pentru c\u0103 trebuia, ci pentru c\u0103 a\u0219a e normal c\u00e2nd e\u0219ti o echip\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ana s-a uitat la mine uimit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 N-am mai sim\u021bit niciodat\u0103 c\u0103 cineva e de partea mea, a spus.<\/p>\n
Am z\u00e2mbit. Nici eu nu mai sim\u021bisem de mult c\u0103 sunt al cuiva.<\/p>\n
Timpul n-a stat pe loc. Au venit \u0219i greut\u0103\u021bi. O r\u0103ceal\u0103 mai serioas\u0103. O factur\u0103 mai mare la gaze. Dar le-am luat pe r\u00e2nd. Cu vorb\u0103. Cu r\u0103bdare.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, st\u00e2nd pe balcon, mi-a spus:<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tii ce e cel mai ciudat? C\u0103 nu-mi mai e fric\u0103 de viitor.<\/p>\n
Am privit luminile ora\u0219ului. Blocuri vechi, vie\u021bi vechi, dar \u00eenc\u0103 aprinse.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nici mie, i-am r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
Nu ne-am reg\u0103sit ca s\u0103 ne salv\u0103m unul pe altul. Ne-am reg\u0103sit ca s\u0103 ne tr\u0103im anii r\u0103ma\u0219i cu demnitate, cu lini\u0219te \u0219i cu bucuria lucrurilor simple.<\/p>\n
La 61 de ani, am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat c\u0103 dragostea nu \u021bip\u0103. Nu promite marea cu sarea. St\u0103. A\u0219teapt\u0103. \u021aine de cald.<\/p>\n
\u0218i asta a fost, pentru am\u00e2ndoi, mai mult dec\u00e2t am visat vreodat\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2026\u201eNu el\u201d, a spus. \u201eVia\u021ba.\u201d S-a a\u0219ezat pe marginea patului, cu umerii str\u00e2n\u0219i, ca \u0219i cum s-ar fi ap\u0103rat de o lovitur\u0103 care nu mai venea. Am r\u0103mas l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 o gr\u0103besc. \u00cen Rom\u00e2nia, oamenii de v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103 au fost \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba\u021bi s\u0103 tac\u0103, s\u0103 \u00eendure, s\u0103 nu se pl\u00e2ng\u0103. Ana era una dintre […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":18689,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18688","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18688","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18688"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18688\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18690,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18688\/revisions\/18690"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/18689"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18688"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18688"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18688"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}