\u0219i mi-a spus pe un ton calm, prea calm:<\/p>\n
\u201eSo\u021bia dumneavoastr\u0103 nu are doar probleme fizice. Durerea ei e veche. \u0218i netratat\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se taie picioarele.<\/p>\n
\u201eCe vre\u021bi s\u0103 spune\u021bi?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
Doctorul m-a privit drept \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n
\u201eTr\u0103ie\u0219te cu un doliu care nu s-a \u00eenchis niciodat\u0103. \u0218i cu o vin\u0103 pe care \u0219i-a pus-o \u00een spate. Nu sunte\u021bi singurul care se \u00eenvinov\u0103\u021be\u0219te.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cuvintele lui mi-au r\u0103sunat \u00een cap tot drumul spre cas\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 ani, n-am mai stins lumina imediat. Ana s-a a\u0219ezat \u00een pat, cu spatele la mine, ca de obicei.<\/p>\n
Dar ceva era diferit.<\/p>\n
Respira greu.<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat \u00een cot.<\/p>\n
\u201eAna\u2026 tu te \u00eenvinov\u0103\u021be\u0219ti pentru Andrei?\u201d<\/p>\n
T\u0103cere.<\/p>\n
Apoi, \u00eencet, am auzit:<\/p>\n
\u201eDac\u0103 \u00eel duceam mai devreme la spital\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eDac\u0103 insistam mai tare\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eDac\u0103 nu te ascultam c\u00e2nd ai zis s\u0103 mai a\u0219tept\u0103m\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Fiecare \u201edac\u0103\u201d era ca o lovitur\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218i eu m\u0103 \u00eenvinov\u0103\u021besc\u201d, am spus, cu vocea tremur\u00e2nd\u0103. \u201e\u00cen fiecare zi.\u201d<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een cincisprezece ani, s-a \u00eentors spre mine.<\/p>\n
Avea ochii ro\u0219ii. Obosi\u021bi. Dar vii.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu te-am putut atinge\u201d, a \u0219optit, \u201epentru c\u0103 de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd o f\u0103ceam, \u00eemi aminteam c\u0103 l-am f\u0103cut \u00eempreun\u0103. \u0218i c\u0103 l-am pierdut \u00eempreun\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mi s-a rupt sufletul.<\/p>\n
Nu era ur\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu era indiferen\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Era durere.<\/p>\n
Durere pur\u0103, \u021binut\u0103 \u00eentre noi ca un zid.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eentins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n
De data asta, nu s-a retras.<\/p>\n
Nu m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<\/p>\n
Dar nici nu mi-a \u00eendep\u0103rtat m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas a\u0219a minute \u00eentregi. M\u00e2na mea peste a ei. At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
Pentru al\u021bii ar fi fost nimic.<\/p>\n
Pentru noi era un \u00eenceput.<\/p>\n
\u00cen s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nile urm\u0103toare, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 vorbim. Despre Andrei. Despre fricile noastre. Despre vin\u0103. Despre nop\u021bile \u00een care fiecare pl\u00e2ngea separat, la c\u00e2\u021biva centimetri distan\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am mers la consiliere. A fost greu. Au fost zile c\u00e2nd voiam s\u0103 renun\u021b.<\/p>\n
Dar, \u00eencet, spa\u021biul dintre noi s-a mic\u0219orat.<\/p>\n
Nu peste noapte.<\/p>\n
Nu ca \u00een filme.<\/p>\n
Ci \u00eencet, ca atunci c\u00e2nd se dezghea\u021b\u0103 p\u0103m\u00e2ntul prim\u0103vara.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, m-am trezit \u0219i am sim\u021bit ceva ce nu mai sim\u021bisem de ani.<\/p>\n
Bra\u021bul ei era peste mine.<\/p>\n
Nu \u0219tiu c\u00e2nd s-a apropiat.<\/p>\n
Poate \u00een somn.<\/p>\n
Poate f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-\u0219i dea seama.<\/p>\n
Dar era acolo.<\/p>\n
\u0218i n-am mi\u0219cat.<\/p>\n
Mi-au dat lacrimile.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 totul era rezolvat.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103, dup\u0103 cincisprezece ani, zidul se cr\u0103pase.<\/p>\n
Ast\u0103zi \u00eenc\u0103 tr\u0103im \u00een aceea\u0219i cas\u0103 din Ploie\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
\u00cenc\u0103 ne lipsesc multe.<\/p>\n
\u00cenc\u0103 ne doare.<\/p>\n
Dar ne \u021binem de m\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd mergem la cimitir.<\/p>\n
Vorbim despre Andrei f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 ne mai fie team\u0103 c\u0103 ne vom rupe unul de altul.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat ceva simplu \u0219i greu \u00een acela\u0219i timp:<\/p>\n
Durerea ne poate desp\u0103r\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Dar, dac\u0103 avem curajul s\u0103 o privim \u00eempreun\u0103, ne poate \u0219i aduce \u00eenapoi unul l\u00e2ng\u0103 altul.<\/p>\n
Uneori, o c\u0103snicie nu moare din lips\u0103 de iubire.<\/p>\n
Ci din prea mult\u0103 durere nespus\u0103.<\/p>\n
Iar vindecarea \u00eencepe cu un singur lucru.<\/p>\n
O atingere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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