Mariana nu era \u00een pat.<\/p>\n
Era \u00een picioare.<\/p>\n
Sprijinit\u0103 de marginea dulapului, cu o m\u00e2n\u0103 pe sp\u0103tarul scaunului, cealalt\u0103 \u00eentins\u0103 spre un b\u0103rbat pe care nu-l mai v\u0103zusem niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi fuge p\u0103m\u00e2ntul de sub picioare.<\/p>\n
Nu faptul c\u0103 era cu un alt b\u0103rbat m-a lovit primul.<\/p>\n
Ci faptul c\u0103 st\u0103tea \u00een picioare.<\/p>\n
Cinci ani.<\/p>\n
Cinci ani \u00een care o ridicasem, o sp\u0103lasem, o hr\u0103nisem, o \u00eentorsesem \u00een pat. Cinci ani \u00een care \u00eemi fr\u00e2nsesem spatele muncind \u0219i inima sper\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Alexandru\u2026 \u2014 a \u0219optit ea.<\/p>\n
Vocea nu-i mai era stins\u0103.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul a f\u0103cut un pas \u00eenapoi. Era \u00eembr\u0103cat elegant, \u021binea \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103 ni\u0219te h\u00e2rtii. Probabil exerci\u021bii. Sau altceva.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 asta? \u2014 am reu\u0219it s\u0103 spun.<\/p>\n
Genunchii mi se \u00eenmuiaser\u0103, dar m-am \u021binut drept.<\/p>\n
Mariana s-a a\u0219ezat \u00eencet pe scaun. Nu p\u0103rea c\u0103 o doare. Nu p\u0103rea c\u0103 nu poate.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pot s\u0103 merg\u2026 de aproape doi ani \u2014 a spus, cu ochii \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n
Cuvintele au c\u0103zut peste mine ca o avalan\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doi ani?\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2014 La \u00eenceput au fost doar c\u00e2\u021biva pa\u0219i. Mi-a fost team\u0103 s\u0103-\u021bi spun. Apoi\u2026 mi-a fost ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ru\u0219ine de ce? \u2014 vocea mi-a tremurat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De tine. De cum m\u0103 priveai. De cum tr\u0103iai doar pentru mine. Sim\u021beam c\u0103, dac\u0103 m\u0103 ridic, \u00ee\u021bi iau rostul. C\u0103 o s\u0103 m\u0103 vezi altfel. C\u0103 poate o s\u0103 pleci.<\/p>\n
Am izbucnit \u00eentr-un r\u00e2s scurt, amar.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Eu s\u0103 plec?\u2026<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul a intervenit \u00eencet:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sunt kinetoterapeutul ei. A vrut s\u0103 fac\u0103 recuperare \u00een secret. La \u00eenceput era convins\u0103 c\u0103 nu va reu\u0219i. Apoi\u2026 lucrurile au evoluat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu unde eram? \u2014 am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
Mariana a ridicat privirea. Avea lacrimi \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Te pierdeam \u00eencet, Alexandru. Nu mai erai so\u021bul meu. Erai asistentul meu. Salvatorul meu. \u0218i mi-a fost team\u0103 c\u0103, dac\u0103 m\u0103 fac bine, o s\u0103 vezi c\u0103 nu mai ai pentru ce lupta.<\/p>\n
Adev\u0103rul m-a lovit altfel dec\u00e2t tr\u0103darea.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 \u00een\u0219elase cu trupul.<\/p>\n
M\u0103 \u00een\u0219elase cu t\u0103cerea.<\/p>\n
Ne-am privit lung, \u00een camera care mirosise ani la r\u00e2nd a dezinfectant \u0219i sacrificiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai fi putut s\u0103-mi spui \u2014 am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea am vorbit p\u00e2n\u0103 t\u00e2rziu. Despre fric\u0103. Despre vinov\u0103\u021bie. Despre cum suferin\u021ba ne-a legat at\u00e2t de str\u00e2ns \u00eenc\u00e2t am uitat s\u0103 mai fim so\u021b \u0219i so\u021bie.<\/p>\n
A doua zi, patul medical a fost str\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
\u00cen urm\u0103toarele luni, Mariana a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 mearg\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 sprijin. Eu m-am \u00eentors la \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu a fost u\u0219or s\u0103 reconstruim \u00eencrederea.<\/p>\n
Dar, pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een cinci ani, am ie\u0219it \u00eempreun\u0103 la plimbare, \u021bin\u00e2ndu-ne de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 nu putea merge.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 voiam am\u00e2ndoi.<\/p>\n
\u0218i am \u00een\u021beles ceva dureros, dar eliberator:<\/p>\n
Uneori, dragostea nu se pr\u0103bu\u0219e\u0219te din cauza bolii.<\/p>\n
Ci din cauza t\u0103cerii.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Mariana nu era \u00een pat. Era \u00een picioare. Sprijinit\u0103 de marginea dulapului, cu o m\u00e2n\u0103 pe sp\u0103tarul scaunului, cealalt\u0103 \u00eentins\u0103 spre un b\u0103rbat pe care nu-l mai v\u0103zusem niciodat\u0103. Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi fuge p\u0103m\u00e2ntul de sub picioare. Nu faptul c\u0103 era cu un alt b\u0103rbat m-a lovit primul. Ci faptul c\u0103 st\u0103tea \u00een picioare. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":20237,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20236","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20236","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=20236"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20236\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20238,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20236\/revisions\/20238"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/20237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=20236"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=20236"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=20236"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}