\u2026\u0218i totul a ie\u0219it din mine, ca \u0219i cum s-ar fi rupt un baraj.<\/p>\n
I-am spus despre prima dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd Bianca m-a \u00eempins u\u0219or la o parte \u0219i a r\u00e2s st\u00e2njenit\u0103. Despre cum mi-a spus c\u0103 \u201enu e normal\u201d. Despre cum, dup\u0103 desp\u0103r\u021bire, colegii din c\u0103min au \u00eenceput s\u0103 \u0219u\u0219oteasc\u0103 pe la col\u021buri. Despre glumele scrise cu markerul pe tabla din sala de lectur\u0103. Despre porecla care s-a lipit de mine ca o etichet\u0103 proast\u0103.<\/p>\n
Vorbeam \u0219i sim\u021beam cum mi se \u00eenro\u0219e\u0219te fa\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 \u00eentrerupea.<\/p>\n
Doar asculta.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd am terminat, \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie era lini\u0219te. Se auzea doar ceasul de pe perete \u0219i tigaia sf\u00e2r\u00e2ind \u00eencet pe aragaz.<\/p>\n
\u201eAt\u00e2t?\u201d, a \u00eentrebat ea bl\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
Am ridicat din umeri.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru mine\u2026 da. E suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103 m\u0103 fac\u0103 s\u0103 vreau s\u0103 dispar.\u201d<\/p>\n
Alina s-a a\u0219ezat \u00een fa\u021ba mea. Nu foarte aproape. Dar suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103 simt c\u0103 nu sunt singur.<\/p>\n
\u201eAndrei, \u0219tii ce e ru\u0219inos cu adev\u0103rat?\u201d, a spus ea \u00eencet. \u201eS\u0103 la\u0219i p\u0103rerile altora s\u0103-\u021bi spun\u0103 cine e\u0219ti.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenghi\u021bit.<\/p>\n
\u201eOamenii r\u00e2d de ce nu \u00een\u021beleg. \u0218i mai ales de ce \u00eei intimideaz\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am ridicat privirea. Pentru prima dat\u0103, nu vedeam mil\u0103 \u00een ochii ei. Vedeam ceva mai puternic.<\/p>\n
Respect.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu e nimic gre\u0219it la tine\u201d, a continuat. \u201eCorpul t\u0103u e al t\u0103u. Nu e subiect de glum\u0103. Iar cine te face s\u0103 te sim\u021bi mic\u2026 nu merit\u0103 niciun minut din via\u021ba ta.\u201d<\/p>\n
Cuvintele ei au c\u0103zut greu. Dar nu ca o povar\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ca o eliberare.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 luni \u00eentregi, n-am sim\u021bit ru\u0219ine. Am sim\u021bit furie. Dar o furie curat\u0103. Dreapt\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218i ce s\u0103 fac?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
\u201eS\u0103 mergi cu spatele drept. S\u0103 nu te mai ascunzi. S\u0103 nu mai la\u0219i pe nimeni s\u0103-\u021bi scrie povestea.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele urm\u0103toare, ceva s-a schimbat \u00een mine.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00eentors la facultate. Pe holurile c\u0103minului, acelea\u0219i priviri. Acelea\u0219i \u0219oapte.<\/p>\n
Dar eu mergeam altfel.<\/p>\n
Nu mai priveam \u00een p\u0103m\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd unul dintre b\u0103ie\u021bi a aruncat o glum\u0103 ieftin\u0103 la adresa mea, m-am oprit. M-am uitat la el direct.<\/p>\n
\u201eAi terminat?\u201d<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
F\u0103r\u0103 ceart\u0103. F\u0103r\u0103 scandal.<\/p>\n
Doar at\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103, ceilal\u021bi au r\u00e2s\u2026 de el.<\/p>\n
\u00cen s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nile care au urmat, zvonurile s-au stins. Pentru c\u0103 nu le-am mai hr\u0103nit. Pentru c\u0103 n-am mai fugit.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ies din nou \u00een ora\u0219. S\u0103 merg la sal\u0103. S\u0103 vorbesc cu oameni f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc ce cred.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, tata s-a \u00eentors din delega\u021bie. A adus cozonac din Bac\u0103u \u0219i pove\u0219ti despre drumuri lungi \u0219i \u0219antiere.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la el \u0219i mi-am dat seama c\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u0219tie, m\u0103 crescuse s\u0103 fiu mai puternic dec\u00e2t credeam.<\/p>\n
Iar Alina\u2026 m-a \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat ceva ce n-am s\u0103 uit niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ru\u0219inea tr\u0103ie\u0219te doar c\u00e2t o ascunzi.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, st\u0103team to\u021bi trei la mas\u0103. Soarele intra pe geam, lumin\u00e2nd fa\u021ba de mas\u0103 cu flori ro\u0219ii.<\/p>\n
M-am sim\u021bit \u00eemp\u0103cat.<\/p>\n
Nu perfect.<\/p>\n
Nu f\u0103r\u0103 trecut.<\/p>\n
Dar \u00eemp\u0103cat.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem un lucru simplu \u0219i mare c\u00e2t o via\u021b\u0103:<\/p>\n
Nu e\u0219ti ce spun al\u021bii despre tine.<\/p>\n
E\u0219ti ce alegi tu s\u0103 crezi despre tine.<\/p>\n
\u0218i din ziua aceea, am ales s\u0103 nu-mi mai fie fric\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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