\u2026s-a pr\u0103bu\u0219it pe treptele de la intrare, ca un om care a dus \u00een spate o povar\u0103 prea mare prea mult timp.<\/p>\n
L-am tras \u00een cas\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai g\u00e2ndesc. Mirosul de brio\u0219e calde s-a amestecat cu mirosul de ploaie \u0219i cu tremurul din m\u00e2inile mele.<\/p>\n
\u201eSpune-mi tot\u201d, am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
Gabi \u0219i-a \u0219ters fa\u021ba cu podul palmei, iar cicatricea aceea, mic\u0103 \u0219i albicioas\u0103, mi-a aruncat mintea direct \u00eenapoi, \u00eentr-o zi de var\u0103 c\u00e2nd c\u0103zuse din cire\u0219ul din curtea noastr\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu a fost un accident\u201d, a repetat el. \u201eP\u0103rin\u021bii mei voiau s\u0103 plec din \u021bar\u0103. Eu voiam s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n. Cu tine. Tata aflase c\u0103 pl\u0103nuiam s\u0103 fugim la Cluj \u0219i s\u0103 ne angaj\u0103m. Credea c\u0103 \u00eei fac de ru\u0219ine.\u201d<\/p>\n
Sim\u021beam cum \u00eemi \u00eenghea\u021b\u0103 s\u00e2ngele.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u00cen noaptea aia\u2026 a venit la caban\u0103. S-a certat cu ai mei. Cu tata al t\u0103u, Ilie.\u201d<\/p>\n
Respira greu.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm auzit cum vorbeau despre bani. Mult peste un milion de lei, echivalentul de atunci. O \u00een\u021belegere. S\u0103 dispar.\u201d<\/p>\n
Nu puteam procesa.<\/p>\n
\u201eIncendiul\u2026?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201eA fost pus. Eu eram afar\u0103 c\u00e2nd a \u00eenceput. M-au scos de acolo aproape mort. Arsuri peste tot. Ai mei au decis c\u0103 e mai simplu s\u0103 m\u0103 declare mort. S\u0103 m\u0103 trimit\u0103 \u00een Germania la tratament. Mi-au spus c\u0103 tu vei fi mai bine f\u0103r\u0103 mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
M-am sprijinit de mas\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eTata\u2026 \u0219tia?\u201d<\/p>\n
Gabi a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u0218tia. A fost acolo. A acceptat banii. Mi-a spus c\u0103 te va convinge c\u0103 am murit ca s\u0103 nu m\u0103 cau\u021bi.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum se rupe ceva \u00een mine. Toat\u0103 via\u021ba mea fusese construit\u0103 pe vina c\u0103 l-am \u00eempins, c\u0103 din cauza mea mersese la caban\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe ce n-ai venit mai devreme?\u201d am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm \u00eencercat. Dar dup\u0103 ce am aflat c\u0103 tat\u0103l t\u0103u a murit, am sim\u021bit c\u0103 pot s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc. Am vrut s\u0103 te v\u0103d \u00eenainte s\u0103 decid dac\u0103 spun adev\u0103rul.\u201d<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la el. Nu era un vis. Nu era o n\u0103luc\u0103.<\/p>\n
Era b\u0103rbatul pe care l-am iubit, viu.<\/p>\n
\u201eAi fost c\u0103s\u0103torit?\u201d am \u00eentrebat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu. N-am putut. Te-am iubit toat\u0103 via\u021ba, Ana.\u201d<\/p>\n
Numele meu pe buzele lui a spart ultimul zid.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng. Nu de triste\u021be. De eliberare.<\/p>\n
Anii de terapie. C\u0103snicia rece. Singur\u0103tatea. Toate au c\u0103p\u0103tat sens. Nu fusesem nebun\u0103. Nu fusesem vinovat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Tata \u00eemi furase adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n
Dar nu mai era aici s\u0103-l confrunt.<\/p>\n
\u201eCe facem acum?\u201d am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
Gabi a inspirat ad\u00e2nc.<\/p>\n
\u201eAcum tr\u0103im. F\u0103r\u0103 minciuni. F\u0103r\u0103 fric\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele urm\u0103toare, am vorbit ore \u00eentregi. Am pus cap la cap buc\u0103\u021bi de trecut. Am aflat cum \u0219i-a schimbat numele. Cum a lucrat ani de zile \u00eentr-un laborator modest din Bra\u0219ov. Cum s-a mutat l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine inten\u021bionat.<\/p>\n
Vecinii au \u00eenceput s\u0103 b\u00e2rfeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eAi v\u0103zut? Ana are musafiri des.\u201d<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, nu mi-a p\u0103sat.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, am mers la lac. Nu la cabana veche \u2014 fusese demolat\u0103 demult. Ci la mal, unde apa era lini\u0219tit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eAici s-a terminat totul,\u201d a spus el.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu,\u201d i-am r\u0103spuns. \u201eAici \u00eencepe.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een 30 de ani, n-am mai sim\u021bit vin\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit pace.<\/p>\n
Nu pot schimba trecutul. Nu-l pot \u00eentreba pe tata de ce a ales banii \u00een locul meu.<\/p>\n
Dar pot alege ce fac de acum.<\/p>\n
La 46 de ani, credeam c\u0103 via\u021ba mea e a\u0219ezat\u0103, lini\u0219tit\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 surprize.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00een\u0219elat.<\/p>\n
Uneori, Dumnezeu \u00ee\u021bi bate la u\u0219\u0103 cu un co\u0219 de brio\u0219e \u0219i cu adev\u0103rul \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n
Iar dac\u0103 ai curajul s\u0103 deschizi, \u00ee\u021bi d\u0103 \u00eenapoi ceea ce ai pierdut.<\/p>\n
Nu adolescen\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Nu anii.<\/p>\n
Ci \u0219ansa.<\/p>\n
Iar \u0219ansa, atunci c\u00e2nd vine a doua oar\u0103, nu se mai las\u0103 a\u0219teptat\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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