Doctorul a \u00eenchis u\u0219a cabinetului \u00eencet, ca \u0219i cum nu voia ca nici pere\u021bii s\u0103 aud\u0103.<\/p>\n
S-a uitat c\u00e2teva secunde la dosarul medical, apoi la mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Domnule Popescu\u2026 trebuie s\u0103 v\u0103 spun adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n
Inima mi-a \u00eenceput s\u0103 bat\u0103 at\u00e2t de tare \u00eenc\u00e2t \u00eemi auzeam pulsul \u00een urechi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 So\u021bia dumneavoastr\u0103 are o boal\u0103 grav\u0103. Foarte grav\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu mai auzeam nimic clar. Cuvintele lui parc\u0103 veneau de foarte departe.<\/p>\n
\u2014 C\u00e2t timp? am reu\u0219it s\u0103 \u00eentreb.<\/p>\n
Doctorul a inspirat ad\u00e2nc.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 tratamentul nu r\u0103spunde\u2026 poate un an. Poate mai pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 p\u0103m\u00e2ntul se rupe sub picioarele mele.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd am ie\u0219it din cabinet, Mariana st\u0103tea pe hol, cu geanta \u00een bra\u021be, privind pe fereastr\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu m-a \u00eentrebat nimic.<\/p>\n
Parc\u0103 \u0219tia deja.<\/p>\n
Pe drumul spre cas\u0103 n-am spus niciun cuv\u00e2nt. Motorul ma\u0219inii \u0219i ploaia m\u0103runt\u0103 care \u00eencepea s\u0103 cad\u0103 erau singurele sunete.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea am m\u00e2ncat \u00een lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
Ca \u00een toate celelalte seri din ultimii cincisprezece ani.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 ce a str\u00e2ns masa, Mariana s-a dus \u00een dormitor.<\/p>\n
Eu am r\u0103mas \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie mult timp, privind o cea\u0219c\u0103 de cafea rece.<\/p>\n
\u00cen minte \u00eemi revenea mereu aceea\u0219i imagine.<\/p>\n
Vlad.<\/p>\n
R\u00e2z\u00e2nd \u00een curte.<\/p>\n
Alerg\u00e2nd cu mingea.<\/p>\n
\u0218i apoi spitalul.<\/p>\n
Perfuzia.<\/p>\n
Privirea Marianei c\u00e2nd doctorul ne spusese c\u0103 e prea t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
Am intrat \u00een dormitor t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
Mariana era deja \u00een pat, pe partea ei.<\/p>\n
La fel ca \u00eentotdeauna.<\/p>\n
Am stins lumina \u0219i m-am \u00eentins.<\/p>\n
Linia invizibil\u0103 dintre noi era acolo.<\/p>\n
Aceea\u0219i ca \u00een fiecare noapte.<\/p>\n
Am stat a\u0219a c\u00e2teva minute.<\/p>\n
Apoi ceva \u00een mine s-a rupt.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu mai pot, am spus \u00een \u00eentuneric.<\/p>\n
Ea nu a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mariana\u2026 dac\u0103 mai avem pu\u021bin timp\u2026 nu vreau s\u0103-l tr\u0103im ca ni\u0219te str\u0103ini.<\/p>\n
T\u0103cere.<\/p>\n
Respira\u021bia ei era calm\u0103, dar \u0219tiam c\u0103 nu doarme.<\/p>\n
\u2014 To\u021bi anii \u0103\u0219tia\u2026 am crezut c\u0103 m\u0103 pedepse\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
Vocea mea tremura.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru Vlad.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva secunde, am auzit-o oft\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
Apoi, \u00eencet, s-a \u00eentors spre mine pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani.<\/p>\n
\u00cen lumina slab\u0103 de pe strad\u0103 \u00eei vedeam ochii umezi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu te pedepseam, a spus ea \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge pieptul.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Atunci de ce?<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 atunci c\u00e2nd te atingeam\u2026 \u00eemi aminteam de el.<\/p>\n
Cuvintele ei au c\u0103zut peste mine ca o ploaie rece.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vlad sem\u0103na at\u00e2t de mult cu tine\u2026 a continuat ea. Acelea\u0219i m\u00e2ini\u2026 acela\u0219i fel de a z\u00e2mbi.<\/p>\n
Lacrimile \u00eei curgeau lini\u0219tit pe obraji.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd te atingeam\u2026 sim\u021beam c\u0103 pierd din nou copilul.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas f\u0103r\u0103 cuvinte.<\/p>\n
To\u021bi anii aceia\u2026<\/p>\n
Totul fusese durere.<\/p>\n
Nu ur\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu indiferen\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Durere.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eentins m\u00e2na \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
M-am oprit la jum\u0103tatea drumului.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pot?<\/p>\n
Mariana s-a uitat la m\u00e2na mea mult timp.<\/p>\n
Apoi, cu o mi\u0219care tremurat\u0103, \u0219i-a a\u0219ezat palma peste a mea.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 cincisprezece ani\u2026<\/p>\n
ne-am atins din nou.<\/p>\n
Am\u00e2ndoi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ngem.<\/p>\n
Nu erau lacrimi de disperare.<\/p>\n
Erau lacrimi care sp\u0103lau ani de t\u0103cere.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea am vorbit p\u00e2n\u0103 diminea\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Despre Vlad.<\/p>\n
Despre vin\u0103.<\/p>\n
Despre tot ce nu avuseser\u0103m curaj s\u0103 spunem.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 foarte mult timp, linia invizibil\u0103 dintre noi a disp\u0103rut.<\/p>\n
Boala nu a plecat.<\/p>\n
Lunile care au urmat au fost grele.<\/p>\n
Dar nu au mai fost t\u0103cute.<\/p>\n
Ne \u021bineam de m\u00e2n\u0103 la doctor.<\/p>\n
Beam cafea \u00eempreun\u0103 diminea\u021ba.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een fiecare sear\u0103 adormeam \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219a\u021bi.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103 de prim\u0103var\u0103, Mariana s-a stins lini\u0219tit.<\/p>\n
Cu m\u00e2na ei \u00een m\u00e2na mea.<\/p>\n
Ultimul lucru pe care mi l-a spus a fost un \u0219oapt\u0103 abia auzit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu a fost niciodat\u0103 vina ta.<\/p>\n
Iar \u00een clipa aceea am \u00een\u021beles ceva ce mi-a luat cincisprezece ani s\u0103 pricep.<\/p>\n
Uneori, iubirea nu dispare.<\/p>\n
Uneori doar se ascunde\u2026 \u00een spatele durerii.<\/p>\n
\u0218i a\u0219teapt\u0103, \u00een lini\u0219te, momentul \u00een care dou\u0103 m\u00e2ini au din nou curajul s\u0103 se ating\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Doctorul a \u00eenchis u\u0219a cabinetului \u00eencet, ca \u0219i cum nu voia ca nici pere\u021bii s\u0103 aud\u0103. S-a uitat c\u00e2teva secunde la dosarul medical, apoi la mine. \u2014 Domnule Popescu\u2026 trebuie s\u0103 v\u0103 spun adev\u0103rul. Inima mi-a \u00eenceput s\u0103 bat\u0103 at\u00e2t de tare \u00eenc\u00e2t \u00eemi auzeam pulsul \u00een urechi. \u2014 So\u021bia dumneavoastr\u0103 are o boal\u0103 grav\u0103. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":20830,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20829","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20829","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=20829"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20829\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20831,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20829\/revisions\/20831"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/20830"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=20829"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=20829"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=20829"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}