\u201ePentru c\u0103 am tr\u0103it destul timp pentru al\u021bii. E timpul s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc \u0219i pentru mine.\u201d<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t a spus. \u0218i vocea ei, alt\u0103dat\u0103 cald\u0103 \u0219i bl\u00e2nd\u0103, acum suna… calm\u0103. Prea calm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge pieptul. M\u0103 uitam fix \u00een ecranul telefonului, de parc\u0103 acolo s-ar fi putut citi vreun regret, o ezitare, o urm\u0103 de c\u0103in\u021b\u0103. Dar n-a mai zis nimic. Lini\u0219te. Doar valurile \u0219i r\u00e2setele altora \u00een fundal.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103\u2026 dar eu sunt copilul t\u0103u\u2026 Nu \u021bi se pare c\u0103\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2014 C\u0103 am f\u0103cut destul? \u2014 m-a \u00eentrerupt ea. \u2014 \u021ai-am dat tot ce am avut p\u00e2n\u0103 ai terminat facultatea. Te-am crescut singur\u0103, am muncit nop\u021bi \u00eentregi ca s\u0103 nu-\u021bi lipseasc\u0103 nimic. Acum… \u00eemi tr\u0103iesc via\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Nu mai era de vorbit. A \u00eenchis.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas singur\u0103, \u00eentr-o buc\u0103t\u0103rie prost luminat\u0103, cu vase nesp\u0103late \u0219i copilul dormind \u00een camera cealalt\u0103, cu stomacul plin doar pe jum\u0103tate. \u0218i am pl\u00e2ns. Nu de sup\u0103rare. De neputin\u021b\u0103. De ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
\u00cen mintea mea, p\u0103rintele era acel sprijin care nu dispare niciodat\u0103. Care, atunci c\u00e2nd tu cazi, \u00ee\u021bi \u00eentinde m\u00e2na, f\u0103r\u0103 \u00eentreb\u0103ri. Care vine cu o pung\u0103 de cartofi, cu o bancnot\u0103 strecurat\u0103 \u00een buzunar, cu un \u201elas\u0103, mam\u0103, c\u0103 trecem noi \u0219i peste asta\u201d.<\/p>\n
Dar poate… poate c\u0103 gre\u0219esc.<\/p>\n
\u00cen ziua urm\u0103toare, \u00een timp ce-l duceam pe b\u0103iat la gr\u0103dini\u021b\u0103, am trecut pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 o vecin\u0103 \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103, tanti Margareta. St\u0103tea pe banc\u0103, cu o batist\u0103 \u00een poal\u0103, cu privirea pierdut\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce mai face\u021bi, tanti Marga?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Of, fat\u0103\u2026 nimic nu mai fac. De c\u00e2nd au plecat copiii \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, parc\u0103 nu mai am rost. Le-am dat tot. Casa, banii, p\u0103m\u00e2ntul. \u0218i-acum\u2026 nici un telefon.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a pus un nod \u00een g\u00e2t. M-am dus mai departe, dar cuvintele ei mi-au r\u0103mas \u00een cap. A\u0219a ar\u0103tau mamele \u201ebune\u201d? Cele care dau tot?<\/p>\n
Poate mama mea refuza s\u0103 repete gre\u0219elile altora. Poate \u201ea tr\u0103i pentru tine\u201d nu e egoism, ci supravie\u021buire.<\/p>\n
Seara, am deschis frigiderul \u0219i am f\u0103cut o sup\u0103 din ce mai aveam. Am pus masa \u0219i m-am uitat la copilul meu. Sl\u0103bu\u021b, dar cu ochii senini.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce-ai p\u0103\u021bit, mami?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nimic. Doar m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam c\u00e2t de norocoas\u0103 sunt c\u0103 te am.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea n-am putut dormi. Am deschis laptopul \u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 caut. Programe de sprijin pentru mame singure. Un job \u00een plus, poate ceva de f\u0103cut de acas\u0103. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 scriu. S\u0103-mi spun povestea. S\u0103 cer ajutor \u2014 dar nu bani. Sfaturi. \u00cencuraj\u0103ri.<\/p>\n
\u0218i au venit. Zeci de femei, unele ca mine, altele mai r\u0103u, toate cu pove\u0219ti. Unele \u0219i-au pierdut mamele devreme, altele n-au avut niciodat\u0103 parte de sprijin. Dar toate mi-au spus acela\u0219i lucru:<\/p>\n
\u201ePoate c\u0103 mama ta nu te mai ajut\u0103. Dar acum e r\u00e2ndul t\u0103u s\u0103 fii mam\u0103. \u0218i s\u0103 faci din copilul t\u0103u un om care nu va fi niciodat\u0103 l\u0103sat s\u0103 se \u00eenece.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mi-a fost greu s\u0103 accept c\u0103 mama mea a ales s\u0103 tr\u0103iasc\u0103. Dar poate c\u0103, \u00een felul ei, mi-a ar\u0103tat cum s\u0103 lupt.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 mai a\u0219tept la telefoane sau bani. Dar \u0219tiu un lucru: nu voi l\u0103sa niciodat\u0103 copilul meu s\u0103 simt\u0103 ce am sim\u021bit eu atunci, c\u00e2nd valurile Greciei se auzeau mai tare dec\u00e2t inima unei mame.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 adev\u0103rata b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021be nu e v\u00e2rsta. E momentul \u00een care \u00eencetezi s\u0103 mai iube\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
Iar eu, oric\u00e2t de greu mi-ar fi\u2026 n-am s\u0103 \u00eencetez niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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