\u2026un miros greu, ap\u0103s\u0103tor, cum nu mai sim\u021bisem niciodat\u0103 \u00een casa ei.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas \u00een prag, cu m\u00e2na pe clan\u021b\u0103, incapabil\u0103 s\u0103 fac un pas \u00eenainte. Totul era t\u0103cut. Prea t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n
Mama nu era omul lini\u0219tii. Mereu avea un radio pornit, sau vorbea singur\u0103 prin cas\u0103, sau fredona ceva \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Acum\u2026 nimic.<\/p>\n
\u201eMam\u0103?\u201d am strigat, dar vocea mi-a ie\u0219it slab\u0103.<\/p>\n
Niciun r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
Am p\u0103\u0219it \u00eencet \u00een\u0103untru. Pe mas\u0103 erau farfurii nesp\u0103late. Un pahar r\u0103sturnat. Un prosop aruncat pe scaun.<\/p>\n
Nu era dezordine obi\u0219nuit\u0103.<\/p>\n
Era\u2026 abandon.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a str\u00e2ns inima.<\/p>\n
Am mers spre dormitor.<\/p>\n
U\u0219a era \u00eentredeschis\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eempins-o u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci am v\u0103zut-o.<\/p>\n
Mama st\u0103tea \u00eentins\u0103 pe pat, acoperit\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 la piept cu o p\u0103tur\u0103 sub\u021bire. Era palid\u0103, mult prea palid\u0103. P\u0103rea mai mic\u0103 dec\u00e2t o \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n
\u201eMam\u0103!\u201d am fugit la ea.<\/p>\n
Am atins-o.<\/p>\n
Era cald\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103suflat, dar pentru o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ochii i s-au deschis greu.<\/p>\n
\u201eAi venit\u2026\u201d a \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
Vocea ei\u2026 abia se auzea.<\/p>\n
Mi-au dat lacrimile instant.<\/p>\n
\u201eCe s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat? De ce nu ai sunat? De ce nu mi-ai spus nimic?\u201d am \u00eenceput s\u0103 vorbesc repede, panicat\u0103.<\/p>\n
A z\u00e2mbit slab.<\/p>\n
\u201eN-am vrut\u2026 s\u0103 te deranjez.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum m\u0103 love\u0219te vinov\u0103\u021bia \u00een piept.<\/p>\n
\u201eS\u0103 m\u0103 deranjezi?\u201d am repetat. \u201eMam\u0103\u2026 e\u0219ti bolnav\u0103!\u201d<\/p>\n
A dat u\u0219or din cap.<\/p>\n
\u201eA trecut\u2026 o s\u0103 treac\u0103\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Dar nu p\u0103rea c\u0103 o s\u0103 treac\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am fugit dup\u0103 ap\u0103, i-am adus un pahar, dar abia a putut s\u0103 bea.<\/p>\n
Am sunat imediat la salvare.<\/p>\n
\u00cen timp ce a\u0219teptam, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 uit prin cas\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pe noptier\u0103 am v\u0103zut o pung\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen ea\u2026 haine mici.<\/p>\n
Pentru bebelu\u0219i.<\/p>\n
Le-am luat \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
Erau sp\u0103late, c\u0103lcate, \u00eemp\u0103turite cu grij\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i l\u00e2ng\u0103 ele\u2026 o juc\u0103rie mic\u0103, cro\u0219etat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se rupe sufletul.<\/p>\n
Mama le preg\u0103tise.<\/p>\n
Pentru nepoata ei.<\/p>\n
Pentru copilul meu.<\/p>\n
Pe care eu nu o l\u0103sasem nici m\u0103car s\u0103 o ating\u0103.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00eentors spre ea, cu lacrimi \u0219iroind.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru ea sunt\u2026\u201d am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n
\u201eAm vrut\u2026 c\u00e2nd o s\u0103 vii\u2026 s\u0103 i le dau\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Mi-am dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu mai puteam s\u0103 respir normal.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe ce nu ai venit? De ce nu ai sunat?\u201d am \u00eentrebat printre sughi\u021buri.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eMi-a fost ru\u0219ine\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
Cuv\u00e2ntul \u0103la m-a lovit mai tare dec\u00e2t orice.<\/p>\n
Mama mea.<\/p>\n
Femeia care m-a crescut singur\u0103, care a muncit ani de zile cur\u0103\u021b\u00e2nd dup\u0103 al\u021bii, ca eu s\u0103 am ce m\u00e2nca.<\/p>\n
Ei \u00eei era ru\u0219ine\u2026 de mine.<\/p>\n
Din cauza mea.<\/p>\n
Sirena salv\u0103rii s-a auzit \u00een dep\u0103rtare.<\/p>\n
Am str\u00e2ns-o de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eIart\u0103-m\u0103\u2026\u201d am spus. \u201eTe rog, iart\u0103-m\u0103\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
A deschis ochii \u0219i m-a privit.<\/p>\n
Nu era sup\u0103rare \u00een ei.<\/p>\n
Doar oboseal\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i\u2026 dragoste.<\/p>\n
\u201eTe-am iertat\u2026 de mult,\u201d a \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
Atunci am izbucnit \u00een pl\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
Nu mai conta nimic altceva.<\/p>\n
Nici orgoliul.<\/p>\n
Nici vorbele spuse.<\/p>\n
Doar faptul c\u0103 aproape o pierdusem.<\/p>\n
La spital, au \u021binut-o c\u00e2teva zile.<\/p>\n
Am fost acolo \u00een fiecare zi.<\/p>\n
Nu am mai lipsit nicio or\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, am venit cu feti\u021ba mea \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n
Am intrat \u00eencet \u00een salon.<\/p>\n
\u201eMam\u0103\u2026\u201d am spus.<\/p>\n
Ea s-a ridicat pu\u021bin, surprins\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am apropiat copilul.<\/p>\n
\u201eVrei s\u0103 o \u021bii?\u201d<\/p>\n
A ezitat.<\/p>\n
Apoi \u0219i-a \u00eentins m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n
M\u00e2inile alea \u201emurdare\u201d, cum le numisem eu.<\/p>\n
M\u00e2inile care m-au crescut.<\/p>\n
Care m-au hr\u0103nit.<\/p>\n
Care au muncit o via\u021b\u0103 \u00eentreag\u0103 pentru mine.<\/p>\n
A luat copilul \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n
\u0218i a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am pl\u00e2ns \u0219i eu.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
F\u0103r\u0103 distan\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Doar\u2026 ca mam\u0103 \u0219i fiic\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een momentul \u0103la, am \u00een\u021beles ceva simplu, dar greu:<\/p>\n
Nu exist\u0103 m\u00e2ini murdare atunci c\u00e2nd sunt pline de iubire.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2026un miros greu, ap\u0103s\u0103tor, cum nu mai sim\u021bisem niciodat\u0103 \u00een casa ei. Am r\u0103mas \u00een prag, cu m\u00e2na pe clan\u021b\u0103, incapabil\u0103 s\u0103 fac un pas \u00eenainte. Totul era t\u0103cut. Prea t\u0103cut. Mama nu era omul lini\u0219tii. Mereu avea un radio pornit, sau vorbea singur\u0103 prin cas\u0103, sau fredona ceva \u00eencet. Acum\u2026 nimic. \u201eMam\u0103?\u201d am strigat, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":22819,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22950","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22950","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22950"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22950\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22951,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22950\/revisions\/22951"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/22819"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22950"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22950"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22950"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}