\u2026\u0218i nu a fost deloc ceea ce m\u0103 a\u0219teptam.<\/p>\n
Nu vocea cald\u0103 de la cafenea. Nu r\u00e2sul acela u\u0219or, care m\u0103 f\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 simt mai t\u00e2n\u0103r. Era altceva. Mai ap\u0103sat. Mai rece.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vreau s\u0103 fim clari de la \u00eenceput, a spus ea, privind fix \u00een ochii mei.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Clar\u2026 \u00een ce sens? am \u00eentrebat eu, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 p\u0103strez un ton normal.<\/p>\n
A oftat scurt, de parc\u0103 repeta ceva ce mai spusese de multe ori.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Eu nu mai am timp de pove\u0219ti. Nu mai am r\u0103bdare pentru \u00eencerc\u0103ri. Am fost c\u0103s\u0103torit\u0103, am crescut un copil, am trecut prin destule. Acum \u0219tiu exact ce vreau.<\/p>\n
Am dat din cap, de\u0219i nu eram sigur dac\u0103 vreau s\u0103 aud ce urmeaz\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i ce vrei? am \u00eentrebat, aproape \u00een \u0219oapt\u0103.<\/p>\n
A f\u0103cut o pauz\u0103. Suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103-mi aud inima b\u0103t\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Stabilitate. Siguran\u021b\u0103. Un b\u0103rbat pe care s\u0103 m\u0103 pot baza. Nu vorbe, nu plimb\u0103ri, nu \u201evedem noi\u201d. Lucruri concrete.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi dispare z\u00e2mbetul de pe fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Adic\u0103?<\/p>\n
S-a ridicat, a mers p\u00e2n\u0103 la mas\u0103 \u0219i a luat un carne\u021bel mic. L-a deschis \u0219i s-a \u00eentors spre mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai apartament sau stai \u00een chirie?<\/p>\n
Am clipit des.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Am apartament\u2026 dar\u2014<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ma\u0219in\u0103?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da, dar\u2014<\/p>\n
\u2014 Venitul lunar aproximativ?<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la ea, convins c\u0103 e o glum\u0103. Dar nu era.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Larisa\u2026 ce e asta?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Realitatea, a spus simplu. Eu nu mai pot tr\u0103i din emo\u021bii. Am f\u0103cut asta o dat\u0103 \u0219i m-a costat ani din via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum ceva se rupe \u00een mine. Nu tare, nu dramatic. Doar\u2026 \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu? am \u00eentrebat. Eu unde sunt \u00een toat\u0103 lista asta?<\/p>\n
S-a oprit. Pentru prima dat\u0103 a ezitat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 toate sunt \u00een regul\u0103\u2026 atunci vedem dac\u0103 ne potrivim \u0219i ca oameni.<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s scurt. F\u0103r\u0103 veselie.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Deci eu sunt un fel de\u2026 verificare tehnic\u0103?<\/p>\n
Nu a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
Din buc\u0103t\u0103rie venea \u00een continuare mirosul de pui. Cald, primitor. Exact opusul atmosferei dintre noi.<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103\u2026 nu are rost s\u0103 mai continu\u0103m, am spus.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce? a \u00eentrebat ea, u\u0219or surprins\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 eu am venit aici cu o sticl\u0103 de vin \u0219i cu g\u00e2ndul la o sear\u0103 frumoas\u0103. Nu la un interviu.<\/p>\n
A r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i \u0219tii ceva? am continuat. Nu e nimic gre\u0219it \u00een ce vrei tu. Doar c\u0103\u2026 nu sunt eu omul \u0103la.<\/p>\n
Am luat sticla de vin de pe mas\u0103 \u0219i i-am pus-o \u00eenapoi \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Deschide-o cu cineva care bifeaz\u0103 toate punctele, i-am spus calm.<\/p>\n
Am mers spre u\u0219\u0103. \u00cen spate, lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
Am ie\u0219it pe scar\u0103 \u0219i am tras aer ad\u00e2nc \u00een piept. Era r\u0103coare. Curat. Real.<\/p>\n
Am cobor\u00e2t \u00eencet treptele \u0219i, pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een seara aia, am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc la mine.<\/p>\n
Pe drum spre cas\u0103, nu mai z\u00e2mbeam.<\/p>\n
Dar nici nu mai aveam acel nod \u00een stomac.<\/p>\n
Am ajuns, mi-am scos c\u0103ma\u0219a \u2014 aceea special\u0103 \u2014 \u0219i am pus-o cu grij\u0103 pe umera\u0219.<\/p>\n
Nu fusese seara la care visasem.<\/p>\n
Dar fusese una necesar\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103, uneori, mai important dec\u00e2t s\u0103 g\u0103se\u0219ti pe cineva\u2026 e s\u0103 nu te pierzi pe tine.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2026\u0218i nu a fost deloc ceea ce m\u0103 a\u0219teptam. Nu vocea cald\u0103 de la cafenea. Nu r\u00e2sul acela u\u0219or, care m\u0103 f\u0103cea s\u0103 m\u0103 simt mai t\u00e2n\u0103r. Era altceva. Mai ap\u0103sat. Mai rece. \u2014 Vreau s\u0103 fim clari de la \u00eenceput, a spus ea, privind fix \u00een ochii mei. Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":22818,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-23402","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23402","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=23402"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23402\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":23403,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23402\/revisions\/23403"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/22818"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=23402"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=23402"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=23402"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}