Mi s-au t\u0103iat picioarele.<\/p>\n
M-am a\u0219ezat direct pe podea, l\u00e2ng\u0103 p\u0103tu\u021b, cu telefonul tremur\u00e2nd \u00een m\u00e2ini.<\/p>\n
Vocea Marei era slab\u0103, obosit\u0103, dar era ea.<\/p>\n
F\u0103r\u0103 nicio \u00eendoial\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ionu\u021b\u2026 dac\u0103 ascul\u021bi asta, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 eu nu mai sunt. \u0218i mai \u00eenseamn\u0103 ceva\u2026 c\u0103 probabil o ur\u0103\u0219ti pe Sofia pentru ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-mi dau seama.<\/p>\n
Feti\u021ba scotea mici sunete lini\u0219tite din p\u0103tu\u021b, de parc\u0103 m\u0103 asculta \u0219i ea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Te rog s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi c\u0103 nu \u021bi-am spus adev\u0103rul mai devreme \u2014 continua Mara. \u2014 Doctorii mi-au descoperit probleme grave \u00eenc\u0103 din luna a \u0219asea. \u0218tiam c\u0103 na\u0219terea poate s\u0103 m\u0103 omoare.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se opre\u0219te respira\u021bia.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar eu am ales s\u0103 merg mai departe. Am ales-o pe ea. Pentru c\u0103 deja o iubeam mai mult dec\u00e2t via\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu\u2026 \u2014 am \u0219optit printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n
Vocea ei tremura pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiam c\u0103 dac\u0103 mor, o s\u0103 te distrugi. \u0218i mi-a fost fric\u0103 de felul \u00een care o vei privi. De asta am \u00eenregistrat mesajul \u0103sta.<\/p>\n
Am ridicat privirea spre copil.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 am v\u0103zut c\u00e2t de mic\u0103 era.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2t de neajutorat\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i c\u00e2t de tare sem\u0103na cu Mara.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sofia nu \u021bi-a luat nimic \u2014 spuse vocea so\u021biei mele. \u2014 Sofia este ultima parte din mine care a r\u0103mas l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine.<\/p>\n
Am izbucnit \u00een pl\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
Un pl\u00e2ns ur\u00e2t, greu, care ie\u0219ea din mine ca dup\u0103 ani de \u00eentuneric.<\/p>\n
Toate nop\u021bile \u00een care o ignorasem.<\/p>\n
Toate clipele \u00een care o l\u0103sasem s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n
Toat\u0103 ura aceea murdar\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mara continua:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Promite-mi ceva. S\u0103 nu o faci s\u0103 pl\u0103teasc\u0103 pentru alegerea mea. Eu am ales. Eu am vrut s\u0103 devin\u0103 mama ei. \u0218i dac\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi o s\u0103 se uite la tine cu ochii mei\u2026 s\u0103 nu \u00eentorci privirea.<\/p>\n
Atunci feti\u021ba a \u00eentins din nou m\u00e2nu\u021ba spre mine.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, n-am mai ezitat.<\/p>\n
Am luat-o \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n
Era at\u00e2t de mic\u0103 \u00eenc\u00e2t \u00eemi \u00eenc\u0103pea aproape \u00eentr-o singur\u0103 palm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dar c\u00e2nd s-a lipit de pieptul meu, ceva din mine s-a rupt.<\/p>\n
Sau poate s-a reparat.<\/p>\n
Sofia s-a lini\u0219tit imediat.<\/p>\n
\u0218i-a pus obrazul pe mine \u0219i a oftat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Ca \u0219i cum m\u0103 iertase deja.<\/p>\n
Telefonul \u00eenc\u0103 mergea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i \u00eenc\u0103 ceva \u2014 spuse Mara cu o urm\u0103 de z\u00e2mbet \u00een voce. \u2014 \u00cen sertarul meu de jos e o scrisoare pentru tine. Dar s\u0103 o cite\u0219ti doar dup\u0103 ce o vei \u021bine pe Sofia \u00een bra\u021be \u0219i \u00eei vei spune pe nume.<\/p>\n
\u00cenregistrarea s-a terminat.<\/p>\n
Camera a r\u0103mas \u00een lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la feti\u021b\u0103 mult timp.<\/p>\n
Ochii ei mari \u0219i \u00eentuneca\u021bi m\u0103 priveau f\u0103r\u0103 team\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sofia\u2026 \u2014 am spus cu voce spart\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een clipa aceea am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc pe din\u0103untru.<\/p>\n
Am str\u00e2ns-o tare la piept \u0219i am pl\u00e2ns p\u00e2n\u0103 diminea\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru Mara.<\/p>\n
Pentru mine.<\/p>\n
Pentru tot r\u0103ul pe care \u00eel l\u0103sasem s\u0103 creasc\u0103 \u00een sufletul meu.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd s-a luminat afar\u0103, am deschis sertarul despre care vorbise.<\/p>\n
\u00cen\u0103untru era o scrisoare alb\u0103 \u0219i o fotografie.<\/p>\n
\u00cen poz\u0103, Mara \u021binea o pereche minuscul\u0103 de \u0219osete roz \u0219i r\u00e2dea.<\/p>\n
Pe spatele fotografiei scria:<\/p>\n
\u201eO s\u0103 fii un tat\u0103 minunat. Chiar dac\u0103 la \u00eenceput o s\u0103-\u021bi fie fric\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am c\u0103zut \u00een genunchi.<\/p>\n
Toat\u0103 via\u021ba mea crezusem c\u0103 \u00een noaptea aceea am pierdut tot.<\/p>\n
Dar adev\u0103rul era altul.<\/p>\n
Mara nu m\u0103 p\u0103r\u0103sise complet.<\/p>\n
\u00cemi l\u0103sase cea mai important\u0103 parte din ea.<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele urm\u0103toare am \u00eenceput \u00eencet s\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021b s\u0103 fiu tat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu era u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
Uneori \u00eenc\u0103 m\u0103 trezeam noaptea \u0219i \u00eentindeam m\u00e2na spre partea goal\u0103 a patului.<\/p>\n
Uneori \u00eenc\u0103 pl\u00e2ngeam \u00een baie ca s\u0103 nu m\u0103 aud\u0103 nimeni.<\/p>\n
Dar acum, c\u00e2nd Sofia pl\u00e2ngea, o luam imediat \u00een bra\u021be.<\/p>\n
\u00cei c\u00e2ntam prost \u0219i fals.<\/p>\n
\u00cei \u00eenc\u0103lzeam laptele.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een fiecare sear\u0103 \u00eei spuneam despre mama ei.<\/p>\n
Despre cum r\u00e2dea.<\/p>\n
Despre cum dansa prin buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n
Despre cum o iubise \u00eenainte s\u0103 se nasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
Iar \u00eentr-o noapte, pe c\u00e2nd o leg\u0103nam adormit\u0103 l\u00e2ng\u0103 fereastr\u0103, Sofia a deschis ochii, s-a uitat la mine \u0219i a z\u00e2mbit exact ca Mara.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 multe s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, n-am mai sim\u021bit vinov\u0103\u021bie.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit iubire.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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