S-a uitat la Adrian.<\/p>\n
Apoi la mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Domnule Dumitrescu, asta nu s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat peste noapte, a spus doctorul cu grij\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a f\u0103cut frig \u00een piept.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce are? am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
Doctorul nu a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
A scos o h\u00e2rtie \u00eemp\u0103turit\u0103 din dosarul vechi.<\/p>\n
Adrian a \u00eentins brusc m\u00e2na spre ea, dar \u00eei tremura at\u00e2t de tare \u00eenc\u00e2t foaia i-a c\u0103zut.<\/p>\n
Apoi doctorul s-a uitat direct la mine \u0219i a spus propozi\u021bia care mi-a sf\u00e2\u0219iat optsprezece ani din via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doamn\u0103 Nicoleta… \u00eenainte s\u0103 v\u0103 vorbesc despre starea so\u021bului dumneavoastr\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 \u0219tiu dac\u0103 vi s-a spus vreodat\u0103 ce a semnat acum optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
Cabinetul s-a f\u0103cut brusc prea mic pentru mine.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi \u021biuie urechile.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce s\u0103 semneze? am \u00eentrebat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Adrian \u0219i-a plecat privirea.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani, nu mai p\u0103rea rece.<\/p>\n
P\u0103rea… obosit.<\/p>\n
Foarte obosit.<\/p>\n
Doctorul a luat h\u00e2rtia \u0219i a oftat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cen urm\u0103 cu optsprezece ani, so\u021bul dumneavoastr\u0103 a venit aici pentru analize complete.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la Adrian f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg.<\/p>\n
Doctorul a continuat:<\/p>\n
\u2014 A aflat atunci c\u0103 avea cancer.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a oprit respira\u021bia.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Un cancer agresiv. \u0218anse mici. I s-a recomandat tratament urgent \u0219i o opera\u021bie care \u00eel putea salva… dar care \u00eel l\u0103sa infertil \u0219i cu multe complica\u021bii.<\/p>\n
L-am privit pe Adrian.<\/p>\n
Nu ridica ochii.<\/p>\n
Doar \u00ee\u0219i str\u00e2ngea m\u00e2inile p\u00e2n\u0103 i se albeau degetele.<\/p>\n
Doctorul a \u00eentors h\u00e2rtia spre mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Aici este acordul refuzului de tratament.<\/p>\n
Nu \u00een\u021belegeam.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce ar refuza?<\/p>\n
Doctorul m-a privit lung.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 \u00een aceea\u0219i zi a aflat \u0219i c\u0103 dumneavoastr\u0103 era\u021bi \u00eens\u0103rcinat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 p\u0103m\u00e2ntul fuge de sub mine.<\/p>\n
Copiii no\u0219tri.<\/p>\n
Gemeni.<\/p>\n
Atunci aveau optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat spre Adrian cu gura \u00eentredeschis\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar… copiii…<\/p>\n
Doctorul a \u00eenchis dosarul \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 So\u021bul dumneavoastr\u0103 \u0219tia c\u0103 nu putea avea copii de c\u00e2\u021biva ani \u00eenainte de asta.<\/p>\n
Nu mai auzeam nimic.<\/p>\n
Doar inima mea.<\/p>\n
Lovind.<\/p>\n
Lovind.<\/p>\n
Lovind.<\/p>\n
Adrian s-a ridicat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Hai s\u0103 mergem, Nicoleta.<\/p>\n
Dar eu nu m\u0103 mai puteam mi\u0219ca.<\/p>\n
To\u021bi anii aceia.<\/p>\n
Perna.<\/p>\n
T\u0103cerea.<\/p>\n
Privirea lui.<\/p>\n
Nu fusese doar despre tr\u0103dare.<\/p>\n
Fusese despre copiii pe care \u00eei crescuse ca pe ai lui, \u0219tiind c\u0103 nu erau.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a f\u0103cut r\u0103u.<\/p>\n
Am ie\u0219it afar\u0103 din cabinet cl\u0103tin\u00e2ndu-m\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pe hol, pensionarii vorbeau, asistentele mergeau gr\u0103bite, un televizor vechi b\u00e2z\u00e2ia \u00eentr-un col\u021b.<\/p>\n
Lumea continua normal.<\/p>\n
Iar via\u021ba mea tocmai se pr\u0103bu\u0219ise.<\/p>\n
\u00cen parcare, Adrian s-a a\u0219ezat pe o banc\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 optsprezece ani, p\u0103rea b\u0103tr\u00e2n.<\/p>\n
Cu adev\u0103rat b\u0103tr\u00e2n.<\/p>\n
M-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 el.<\/p>\n
Perna invizibil\u0103 era \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eentre noi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce n-ai spus nimic? am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
A r\u00e2s scurt.<\/p>\n
Un r\u00e2s f\u0103r\u0103 bucurie.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce rost avea?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Erau \u0219i copiii t\u0103i…<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu biologic.<\/p>\n
Cuvintele lui m-au lovit ca o palm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n
Oameni treceau pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 noi f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 \u0219tie c\u0103 dou\u0103 vie\u021bi se rupeau pe banca aia ruginit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 M-ai ur\u00e2t… at\u00e2\u021bia ani?<\/p>\n
Adrian a r\u0103mas t\u0103cut c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n
Apoi a spus:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu. Asta era problema.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00eentors spre el.<\/p>\n
Ochii \u00eei erau umezi.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een aproape dou\u0103 decenii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 te uram, plecam. Te d\u0103deam afar\u0103. Urlam. Dar eu \u00eenc\u0103 te iubeam \u0219i nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 tr\u0103iesc cu asta.<\/p>\n
Am izbucnit \u00een lacrimi.<\/p>\n
El privea \u00een fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cen fiecare diminea\u021b\u0103 m\u0103 uitam la tine \u0219i vedeam femeia pe care o iubeam… \u0219i omul care m-a distrus \u00een aceea\u0219i clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mi-am acoperit fa\u021ba cu m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u…<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu, nu \u0219tii… Adrian, dac\u0103 a\u0219 putea s\u0103 \u0219terg ziua aia…<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar nu po\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Avea dreptate.<\/p>\n
Unele gre\u0219eli nu dispar niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
V\u00e2ntul mi\u0219ca frunzele uscate prin parcare.<\/p>\n
Adrian a tu\u0219it brusc.<\/p>\n
Tu\u0219ea r\u0103u.<\/p>\n
Cu durere.<\/p>\n
Atunci am observat c\u00e2t sl\u0103bise.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2t de tras era la fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Cancerul… s-a \u00eentors? am \u00eentrebat speriat\u0103.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu a plecat niciodat\u0103 complet.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a rupt ceva \u00een mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu n-am \u0219tiut…<\/p>\n
\u2014 A\u0219a am vrut.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea, acas\u0103, am intrat \u00een dormitor \u0219i am privit patul nostru.<\/p>\n
Perna alb\u0103 era acolo.<\/p>\n
La locul ei.<\/p>\n
Ca un morm\u00e2nt mic.<\/p>\n
Adrian st\u0103tea \u00een u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n
Obosit.<\/p>\n
Bolnav.<\/p>\n
Singur.<\/p>\n
\u0218i dintr-odat\u0103, dup\u0103 optsprezece ani, am \u00een\u021beles ceva cumplit.<\/p>\n
Nu el m\u0103 pedepsise cel mai tare.<\/p>\n
Via\u021ba o f\u0103cuse.<\/p>\n
El doar supravie\u021buise cum a putut.<\/p>\n
M-am apropiat de pat.<\/p>\n
Am luat perna \u00een m\u00e2ini.<\/p>\n
El s-a \u00eencordat imediat.<\/p>\n
Ca \u0219i cum \u00eei era fric\u0103.<\/p>\n
Fric\u0103 de mine.<\/p>\n
Fric\u0103 de apropiere.<\/p>\n
Fric\u0103 de iubirea care ne distrusese.<\/p>\n
Apoi, \u00eencet, am pus perna pe jos.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een optsprezece ani, Adrian a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu zgomotos.<\/p>\n
Nu dramatic.<\/p>\n
Doar lacrimile unui om care obosise s\u0103 mai fie tare.<\/p>\n
M-am apropiat \u00eencet \u0219i i-am atins m\u00e2na.<\/p>\n
Nu s-a retras.<\/p>\n
Am\u00e2ndoi tremuram.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu pot s\u0103 repar ce am f\u0103cut, am spus printre lacrimi.<\/p>\n
El a dat \u00eencet din cap.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar las\u0103-m\u0103 s\u0103 fiu l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine acum. M\u0103car acum.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 aproape dou\u0103zeci de ani, \u0219i-a l\u0103sat fruntea pe um\u0103rul meu.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea nu am dormit.<\/p>\n
Am stat unul l\u00e2ng\u0103 altul, vorbind \u00eencet p\u00e2n\u0103 diminea\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Despre copii.<\/p>\n
Despre fric\u0103.<\/p>\n
Despre anii pierdu\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Despre iubirea care uneori nu moare, chiar \u0219i atunci c\u00e2nd oamenii o r\u0103nesc p\u00e2n\u0103 aproape de sf\u00e2r\u0219it.<\/p>\n
Adrian a murit \u0219apte luni mai t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
Acas\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen patul nostru.<\/p>\n
Cu m\u00e2na lui \u00een m\u00e2na mea.<\/p>\n
F\u0103r\u0103 pern\u0103 \u00eentre noi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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