Am r\u0103mas lipit\u0103 de perete, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai pot respira normal.<\/p>\n
Dincolo de gaur\u0103, Andrei \u00ee\u0219i \u0219tergea ochii cu dosul palmei, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103-\u0219i recapete calmul \u00eenainte s\u0103 sting\u0103 veioza.<\/p>\n
Nu mai v\u0103zusem niciodat\u0103 at\u00e2ta durere pe chipul lui.<\/p>\n
\u0218i cel mai r\u0103u era c\u0103 o purtase singur.<\/p>\n
Noapte dup\u0103 noapte.<\/p>\n
\u00cen timp ce eu m\u0103 consumam de gelozie \u0219i suspiciuni.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00eentors \u00eencet \u00een pat \u0219i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng \u00een pern\u0103, \u00een lini\u0219te, ca s\u0103 nu m\u0103 aud\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu \u0219tiu c\u00e2t am stat a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
Poate o or\u0103.<\/p>\n
Poate p\u00e2n\u0103 diminea\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Tot ce \u0219tiam era c\u0103 b\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel iubeam trecea printr-un iad \u0219i \u00eencerca s\u0103 m\u0103 protejeze de el.<\/p>\n
A doua zi diminea\u021b\u0103, Andrei s-a purtat la fel ca \u00eentotdeauna.<\/p>\n
Mi-a f\u0103cut cafeaua.<\/p>\n
M-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 mai avem p\u00e2ine.<\/p>\n
Mi-a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
Dar acum \u00eei vedeam altfel oboseala din ochi.<\/p>\n
M\u00e2inile u\u0219or tremurate.<\/p>\n
Felul \u00een care se sprijinea de mobil\u0103 c\u00e2nd credea c\u0103 nu sunt atent\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i am \u00een\u021beles c\u00e2t de bine \u00ee\u0219i ascunsese suferin\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Toat\u0103 ziua m-am g\u00e2ndit ce s\u0103 fac.<\/p>\n
S\u0103-l confrunt?<\/p>\n
S\u0103 m\u0103 prefac c\u0103 nu \u0219tiu?<\/p>\n
Seara, c\u00e2nd a luat iar perna \u00een bra\u021be ca s\u0103 mearg\u0103 \u00een cealalt\u0103 camer\u0103, l-am prins u\u0219or de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Andrei\u2026<\/p>\n
S-a oprit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da?<\/p>\n
Avea vocea calm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Prea calm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Vocea unui om care se obi\u0219nuise s\u0103 mint\u0103 frumos.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Putem s\u0103 vorbim?<\/p>\n
L-am v\u0103zut \u00eencord\u00e2ndu-se imediat.<\/p>\n
A \u00eencercat s\u0103 z\u00e2mbeasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sigur. Ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat?<\/p>\n
Nu m-am mai putut ab\u021bine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
Fa\u021ba i s-a golit de culoare.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u00e2teva secunde n-a clipit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce\u2026 \u0219tii?<\/p>\n
Mi-au dat lacrimile instant.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 e\u0219ti bolnav.<\/p>\n
T\u0103cere.<\/p>\n
O t\u0103cere at\u00e2t de grea \u00eenc\u00e2t parc\u0103 ap\u0103sa pere\u021bii casei.<\/p>\n
Andrei \u0219i-a \u00eentors privirea.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci am v\u0103zut ceva ce nu mai v\u0103zusem niciodat\u0103 la el.<\/p>\n
Frica.<\/p>\n
Nu frica de moarte.<\/p>\n
Frica de a fi v\u0103zut slab.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mariana\u2026<\/p>\n
Vocea i s-a fr\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce n-ai spus nimic?<\/p>\n
El s-a a\u0219ezat \u00eencet pe canapea \u0219i \u0219i-a acoperit fa\u021ba cu palmele.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 mi-a fost ru\u0219ine.<\/p>\n
M-am apropiat de el.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ru\u0219ine de mine?<\/p>\n
A cl\u0103tinat din cap.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ru\u0219ine c\u0103 omul pe care \u00eel iube\u0219ti a ajuns a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
Atunci mi-a povestit tot.<\/p>\n
Cu c\u00e2teva luni \u00eenainte fusese diagnosticat cu o boal\u0103 autoimun\u0103 sever\u0103. Tratamentul era agresiv, durerile cumplite, iar medicamentele \u00eei provocau st\u0103ri groaznice noaptea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doctorul mi-a spus c\u0103 exist\u0103 \u0219anse s\u0103-mi revin\u2026 dar dureaz\u0103.<\/p>\n
Avea ochii ro\u0219ii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Uneori urlu de durere dup\u0103 ce adormi. Alteori vomit sau nu m\u0103 pot ridica din pat. Nu voiam s\u0103 m\u0103 vezi a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
M-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 el \u0219i i-am luat m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n
Erau reci.<\/p>\n
\u0218i sl\u0103bite.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Suntem c\u0103s\u0103tori\u021bi, Andrei.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 de c\u00e2nd \u00eel cuno\u0219team.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tocmai de asta\u2026 n-am vrut s\u0103 m\u0103 ur\u0103\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a rupt sufletul.<\/p>\n
Toat\u0103 via\u021ba \u00eel v\u0103zusem puternic. Omul care rezolva tot. Care m\u0103 proteja. Care \u00eemi spunea mereu c\u0103 o s\u0103 fie bine.<\/p>\n
\u0218i acum st\u0103tea \u00een fa\u021ba mea distrus de frica de a nu deveni o povar\u0103.<\/p>\n
L-am \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at tare.<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t de tare \u00eenc\u00e2t am sim\u021bit cum \u00eencepe s\u0103 tremure.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ascult\u0103-m\u0103 bine\u2026 i-am spus printre lacrimi. Eu nu m-am m\u0103ritat doar cu zilele tale bune.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci a cedat complet.<\/p>\n
A pl\u00e2ns \u00een um\u0103rul meu ca un copil obosit.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea n-a mai dormit \u00een camera cealalt\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am mutat toate medicamentele \u00een dormitorul nostru.<\/p>\n
I-am schimbat pansamentele.<\/p>\n
I-am \u021binut m\u00e2na c\u00e2nd durerile deveneau prea mari.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 multe s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, nu s-a mai ascuns.<\/p>\n
Lunile care au urmat au fost grele.<\/p>\n
Foarte grele.<\/p>\n
Au fost nop\u021bi \u00een care adormeam pe scaun l\u00e2ng\u0103 el.<\/p>\n
Zile \u00een care abia aveam bani pentru tratamente.<\/p>\n
Momente \u00een care \u00eel vedeam uit\u00e2ndu-se pe ascuns la mine cu vinov\u0103\u021bie.<\/p>\n
Dar ceva se schimbase \u00eentre noi.<\/p>\n
Nu mai exista zidul \u0103la rece.<\/p>\n
Nu mai exista frica spus\u0103 pe jum\u0103tate.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, pe c\u00e2nd \u00eei preg\u0103team ceaiul, m-a privit lung \u0219i mi-a spus \u00eencet:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Credeam c\u0103 dragostea \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 protejezi omul iubit de tot ce e ur\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
M-am dus la el \u0219i i-am m\u00e2ng\u00e2iat obrazul.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu. Dragostea \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 nu-l la\u0219i singur c\u00e2nd via\u021ba devine ur\u00e2t\u0103.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenchis ochii \u0219i a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
Un z\u00e2mbet mic.<\/p>\n
Obosit.<\/p>\n
Dar sincer.<\/p>\n
Au trecut aproape doi ani de atunci.<\/p>\n
Andrei \u00eenc\u0103 merge la controale.<\/p>\n
\u00cenc\u0103 are zile rele.<\/p>\n
Dar boala s-a stabilizat.<\/p>\n
Iar gaura aceea mic\u0103 din perete a r\u0103mas acolo mult timp.<\/p>\n
N-am acoperit-o imediat.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103, \u00eentr-un fel ciudat, ea ne-a salvat c\u0103snicia.<\/p>\n
Mi-a amintit c\u0103 uneori oamenii care ne iubesc cel mai mult nu se \u00eendep\u0103rteaz\u0103 fiindc\u0103 nu ne mai vor\u2026<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 \u00eencearc\u0103 disperat s\u0103 ne ascund\u0103 propriile lor r\u0103ni.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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