Bianca \u0219i-a str\u00e2ns degetele \u00een palma mea \u0219i a r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe cu ochii \u00een podea.<\/p>\n
P\u0103rea c\u0103 \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 g\u0103seasc\u0103 puterea s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva ce \u021binuse ascuns mult timp.<\/p>\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, a ridicat \u00eencet privirea spre mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Am leucemie, Andrei.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 tot aerul dispare din jurul meu.<\/p>\n
Nu puteam s\u0103 vorbesc.<\/p>\n
Nu puteam nici m\u0103car s\u0103 clipesc.<\/p>\n
Doar m\u0103 uitam la ea.<\/p>\n
La obrajii ei sl\u0103bi\u021bi.<\/p>\n
La m\u00e2inile reci.<\/p>\n
La femeia pe care o iubisem \u0219i pe care o abandonasem exact c\u00e2nd avea mai mare nevoie de cineva.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De c\u00e2nd? am \u00eentrebat cu voce stins\u0103.<\/p>\n
Bianca a z\u00e2mbit trist.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De aproape un an.<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat brusc \u00een picioare.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Un an?! \u0218i nu mi-ai spus nimic?!<\/p>\n
O asistent\u0103 s-a uitat speriat\u0103 spre noi, iar eu am cobor\u00e2t imediat vocea.<\/p>\n
Bianca \u0219i-a mu\u0219cat buza.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu voiam s\u0103 fii obligat s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2i cu mine din mil\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit o durere cumplit\u0103 \u00een piept.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bianca\u2026 eu eram so\u021bul t\u0103u.<\/p>\n
Ochii ei s-au umplut de lacrimi pentru prima dat\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu. Dar deja te pierdeam pu\u021bin c\u00e2te pu\u021bin. Veneai tot mai t\u00e2rziu acas\u0103. Nu m\u0103 mai priveai la fel. Dup\u0103 al doilea copil pierdut\u2026 parc\u0103 am\u00e2ndoi ne-am rupt pe din\u0103untru.<\/p>\n
Mi-am acoperit fa\u021ba cu m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n
Avea dreptate.<\/p>\n
Fusesem at\u00e2t de prins \u00een propria durere, \u00eenc\u00e2t nu observasem c\u00e2t suferea ea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doctorii mi-au spus c\u0103 tratamentul va fi lung\u2026 \u0219i ur\u00e2t, a continuat ea \u00eencet. N-am vrut s\u0103 devin o povar\u0103 pentru tine.<\/p>\n
Cuv\u00e2ntul \u0103la m-a lovit direct \u00een suflet.<\/p>\n
Povar\u0103.<\/p>\n
Femeia care \u00eemi f\u0103cea cafeaua diminea\u021ba.<\/p>\n
Care \u00eemi punea m\u00e2na pe frunte c\u00e2nd aveam febr\u0103.<\/p>\n
Care dormea lipit\u0103 de mine dup\u0103 co\u0219maruri.<\/p>\n
Ea credea c\u0103 era o povar\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc pe interior.<\/p>\n
\u2014 De ce erai singur\u0103 aici?<\/p>\n
Bianca a z\u00e2mbit amar.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mama e bolnav\u0103 \u0219i ea. Tata nu mai conduce. Iar prietenii\u2026 se r\u0103resc c\u00e2nd oamenii se \u00eemboln\u0103vesc mult timp.<\/p>\n
Am privit perfuzia de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea \u0219i mi s-a f\u0103cut ru\u0219ine de mine \u00eensumi.<\/p>\n
Eu ie\u0219eam la bere cu colegii \u0219i \u00eencercam s\u0103 uit de divor\u021b.<\/p>\n
Ea lupta singur\u0103 s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103 \u00een via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen clipa aia am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nimic din ce credeam important nu mai conta.<\/p>\n
Nici orgoliul.<\/p>\n
Nici certurile.<\/p>\n
Nici divor\u021bul.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vino acas\u0103 cu mine, am spus f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc.<\/p>\n
Bianca s-a uitat surprins\u0103 la mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Andrei\u2026<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu merit s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi. \u0218tiu asta. Dar nu te mai las singur\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ochii ei s-au umplut complet de lacrimi.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 multe luni, am v\u0103zut ceva viu \u00een privirea ei.<\/p>\n
Speran\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cen s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2nile care au urmat, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 merg cu ea la fiecare tratament.<\/p>\n
\u00cei g\u0103team.<\/p>\n
\u00cei cump\u0103ram medicamente.<\/p>\n
St\u0103team nop\u021bi \u00eentregi l\u00e2ng\u0103 patul ei c\u00e2nd \u00eei era r\u0103u dup\u0103 chimioterapie.<\/p>\n
Au fost zile cumplite.<\/p>\n
Zile \u00een care vomita f\u0103r\u0103 oprire.<\/p>\n
Zile \u00een care pl\u00e2ngea \u00een baie ca s\u0103 n-o aud.<\/p>\n
Zile \u00een care eu ie\u0219eam pe balcon \u0219i m\u0103 uram pentru c\u00e2t de orb fusesem.<\/p>\n
Dar \u00eencet\u2026 ceva \u00eentre noi s-a \u00eentors.<\/p>\n
Nu ca \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n
Mai sincer.<\/p>\n
Mai fragil.<\/p>\n
Mai adev\u0103rat.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103 de iarn\u0103, dup\u0103 un control important, doctorul ne-a chemat \u00een cabinet.<\/p>\n
Mi-am sim\u021bit stomacul str\u00e2ns c\u00e2t timp r\u0103sfoia analizele.<\/p>\n
Apoi a ridicat privirea \u0219i a z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tratamentul func\u021bioneaz\u0103 foarte bine.<\/p>\n
Bianca a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 imediat.<\/p>\n
Iar eu am izbucnit \u0219i eu odat\u0103 cu ea.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 \u00een clipa aia am realizat ceva:<\/p>\n
Uneori, oamenii nu se pierd din lips\u0103 de iubire.<\/p>\n
Se pierd pentru c\u0103 durerea \u00eei face s\u0103 tac\u0103 exact c\u00e2nd ar trebui s\u0103 se \u021bin\u0103 unul de altul mai str\u00e2ns ca niciodat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Un an mai t\u00e2rziu, Bianca \u0219i-a l\u0103sat din nou p\u0103rul s\u0103 creasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, st\u0103tea \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie f\u0103c\u00e2nd cafea c\u00e2nd m-a \u00eentrebat z\u00e2mbind:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai m\u00e2ncat ceva?<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci am sim\u021bit c\u0103, dup\u0103 tot \u00eentunericul prin care trecuser\u0103m, via\u021ba ne d\u0103duse \u00eenc\u0103 o \u0219ans\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Bianca \u0219i-a str\u00e2ns degetele \u00een palma mea \u0219i a r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe cu ochii \u00een podea. P\u0103rea c\u0103 \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 g\u0103seasc\u0103 puterea s\u0103 spun\u0103 ceva ce \u021binuse ascuns mult timp. \u00cen cele din urm\u0103, a ridicat \u00eencet privirea spre mine. \u2014 Am leucemie, Andrei. Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 tot aerul dispare din jurul meu. Nu puteam […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":22817,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24352","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24352","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24352"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24352\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24353,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24352\/revisions\/24353"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/22817"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24352"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24352"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24352"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}