Am r\u0103mas cu sandvi\u0219ul \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i cu inima b\u0103t\u00e2nd ciudat.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul din fa\u021ba mea p\u0103rea trecut de cincizeci de ani. Avea fire albe la t\u00e2mple, m\u00e2ini muncite \u0219i ochii aceia calzi pe care parc\u0103 \u00eei mai v\u0103zusem undeva.<\/p>\n
Dar nu reu\u0219eam s\u0103-l plasez.<\/p>\n
El a r\u00e2s \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Normal c\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai recuno\u0219ti. Au trecut aproape treizeci de ani.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci vocea lui m-a lovit \u00eenaintea amintirii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mihai…? am \u0219optit.<\/p>\n
A dat din cap.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se taie picioarele.<\/p>\n
Mihai.<\/p>\n
Primul meu iubit.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul cu care voiam s\u0103 fug la mare la dou\u0103zeci de ani.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul pe care tata \u00eel numea \u201evis\u0103tor f\u0103r\u0103 viitor\u201d.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel p\u0103r\u0103sisem c\u00e2nd mama m\u0103 convinsese c\u0103 am nevoie de \u201eun om serios\u201d.<\/p>\n
Adic\u0103 de so\u021bul meu.<\/p>\n
Mihai m\u0103 privea f\u0103r\u0103 grab\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu m-am a\u0219teptat niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 te rev\u0103d aici.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eencercat s\u0103 z\u00e2mbesc.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nici eu.<\/p>\n
M-a privit c\u00e2teva secunde lungi.<\/p>\n
Apoi \u0219i-a \u00eencruntat spr\u00e2ncenele.<\/p>\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti bine?<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00eentrebarea aia simpl\u0103 aproape c\u0103 m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 nimeni nu m\u0103 mai \u00eentrebase sincer asta de ani \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n
Nu \u201ece ai g\u0103tit\u201d.<\/p>\n
Nu \u201eunde sunt actele\u201d.<\/p>\n
Nu \u201ede ce n-ai pl\u0103tit factura\u201d.<\/p>\n
Ci \u201ee\u0219ti bine?\u201d.<\/p>\n
Am dat din umeri.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Cred c\u0103 da.<\/p>\n
Dar vocea mea n-a sunat deloc convins\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mihai s-a uitat spre valiza mea din col\u021b.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai fugit?<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s scurt.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sun\u0103 dramatic spus a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i adev\u0103rat?<\/p>\n
L-am privit \u00een ochi.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 foarte mult timp, n-am mai sim\u021bit nevoia s\u0103 mint.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da.<\/p>\n
A ie\u0219it de dup\u0103 tejghea \u0219i a turnat dou\u0103 cafele f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai \u00eentrebe.<\/p>\n
Benzin\u0103ria era aproape goal\u0103. Afar\u0103 ploua m\u0103runt.<\/p>\n
Am stat la o m\u0103su\u021b\u0103 mic\u0103 l\u00e2ng\u0103 geam \u0219i am vorbit ore \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n
Despre via\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Despre copii.<\/p>\n
Despre anii care trecuser\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mi-a spus c\u0103 fusese c\u0103s\u0103torit \u0219i el.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 so\u021bia lui murise acum \u0219apte ani.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 dup\u0103 aceea renun\u021base la ora\u0219 \u0219i cump\u0103rase mica benzin\u0103rie de l\u00e2ng\u0103 Eforie.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Oamenii cred c\u0103 e trist aici, a spus el. Dar uneori lini\u0219tea vindec\u0103 mai mult dec\u00e2t mul\u021bimea.<\/p>\n
L-am ascultat \u0219i am sim\u021bit ceva ciudat.<\/p>\n
Pace.<\/p>\n
Nu fluturi.<\/p>\n
Nu nebunie.<\/p>\n
Nu pasiune de film.<\/p>\n
Pace.<\/p>\n
\u0218i mi-am dat seama c\u00e2t de obosit\u0103 eram.<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t de obosit\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd s-a f\u0103cut sear\u0103, Mihai s-a ridicat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Unde mergi acum?<\/p>\n
Am clipit.<\/p>\n
Nu \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 g\u00e2ndisem at\u00e2t de departe.<\/p>\n
El a ezitat c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Am o pensiune mic\u0103 aproape de plaj\u0103. Dac\u0103 vrei, po\u021bi r\u0103m\u00e2ne acolo c\u00e2teva zile p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi pui g\u00e2ndurile \u00een ordine.<\/p>\n
Orice alt\u0103 femeie poate s-ar fi speriat.<\/p>\n
Dar eu eram prea obosit\u0103 ca s\u0103 mai fug de oamenii buni.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aceea am dormit cu geamul deschis \u0219i cu zgomotul m\u0103rii \u00een dep\u0103rtare.<\/p>\n
Nu-mi mai aminteam c\u00e2nd dormisem ultima dat\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 doar\u0103 stomacul de stres.<\/p>\n
A doua zi diminea\u021b\u0103 m-am trezit t\u00e2rziu.<\/p>\n
Soarele intra prin perdele.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 zeci de ani, nimeni nu \u021bipa dup\u0103 cafea.<\/p>\n
Nimeni nu-mi repro\u0219a ceva.<\/p>\n
Nimeni nu-mi cerea nimic.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng direct \u00een pat.<\/p>\n
Nu de triste\u021be.<\/p>\n
De eliberare.<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele urm\u0103toare am r\u0103mas acolo.<\/p>\n
Doar c\u00e2teva zile, \u00eemi repetam.<\/p>\n
Dar zilele s-au f\u0103cut s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni.<\/p>\n
\u00cel ajutam uneori la pensiune.<\/p>\n
Beam cafeaua diminea\u021ba pe falez\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mergeam descul\u021b\u0103 pe nisip ca o adolescent\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00eencet-\u00eencet am \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi amintesc cine eram \u00eenainte s\u0103 devin doar \u201eso\u021bie\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103, telefonul a sunat.<\/p>\n
Era so\u021bul meu.<\/p>\n
Am privit ecranul mult timp \u00eenainte s\u0103 r\u0103spund.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Unde e\u0219ti? a izbucnit el imediat. Ai \u00eennebunit? Ce o s\u0103 spun\u0103 lumea?<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
Aceea\u0219i \u00eentrebare.<\/p>\n
\u00centotdeauna lumea.<\/p>\n
Niciodat\u0103 eu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een via\u021ba mea, nu m\u0103 mai intereseaz\u0103 ce spune lumea, am r\u0103spuns calm.<\/p>\n
A t\u0103cut c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n
Apoi a \u00eenceput:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dup\u0103 tot ce am f\u0103cut pentru tine\u2014<\/p>\n
L-am oprit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu. Dup\u0103 tot ce am f\u0103cut eu pentru noi.<\/p>\n
Lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
Adev\u0103rul doare mai tare c\u00e2nd omul nu se a\u0219teapt\u0103 la el.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Te \u00eentorci acas\u0103 sau nu? a \u00eentrebat rece.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat pe geam.<\/p>\n
Mihai uda ni\u0219te flori \u00een curte.<\/p>\n
Marea se auzea \u00een dep\u0103rtare.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 zeci de ani, nu m\u0103 mai sim\u021beam invizibil\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 aia a mai fost vreodat\u0103 casa mea, am spus \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u0218i am \u00eenchis.<\/p>\n
\u00cen lunile care au urmat, am \u00eenceput procedura de divor\u021b.<\/p>\n
Copiii au fost \u0219oca\u021bi la \u00eenceput.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mam\u0103, la v\u00e2rsta asta?<\/p>\n
Exact a\u0219a au spus.<\/p>\n
De parc\u0103 dup\u0103 o anumit\u0103 v\u00e2rst\u0103 femeile nu mai au voie s\u0103 fie fericite.<\/p>\n
Dar apoi fiica mea a venit \u00eentr-un weekend la mare.<\/p>\n
M-a privit mult timp.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00eentr-o sear\u0103, c\u00e2t st\u0103team am\u00e2ndou\u0103 pe plaj\u0103, mi-a spus \u00eencet:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu te-am v\u0103zut niciodat\u0103 at\u00e2t de lini\u0219tit\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 nici eu nu m\u0103 mai v\u0103zusem a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 povestea mea cu Mihai este iubire ca \u00een tinere\u021be.<\/p>\n
Poate c\u0103 e ceva mai rar.<\/p>\n
Respect.<\/p>\n
Bl\u00e2nde\u021be.<\/p>\n
Lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, pe terasa pensiunii, el mi-a luat m\u00e2na \u0219i a spus r\u00e2z\u00e2nd:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vezi? Tot nu m-ai uitat.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la valurile negre \u0219i line.<\/p>\n
Apoi la omul care m\u0103 privea de parc\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 eram femeia de care se \u00eendr\u0103gostise c\u00e2ndva.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 foarte mul\u021bi ani, nu m-am mai sim\u021bit povar\u0103.<\/p>\n
M-am sim\u021bit vie.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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