\u2014 Ce bine c\u0103 ne-am g\u0103sit. T\u00e2rziu, dar m\u0103car ne-am g\u0103sit.<\/p>\n
\u0218i eu \u00eel credeam.<\/p>\n
Ca o proast\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mi se p\u0103rea c\u0103 la v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103 oamenii nu mai joac\u0103 teatru.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 dac\u0103 un b\u0103rbat trecut de cincizeci de ani spune c\u0103 \u00eei e bine cu tine, atunci chiar a\u0219a e.<\/p>\n
M-am \u00een\u0219elat.<\/p>\n
Primele semne au fost mici.<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t de mici \u00eenc\u00e2t \u00eemi era ru\u0219ine s\u0103 le iau \u00een seam\u0103.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103-\u0219i ia telefonul \u0219i \u00een baie.<\/p>\n
Mesajele le citea pe ascuns.<\/p>\n
Ie\u0219ea pe balcon \u201es\u0103 vorbeasc\u0103 cu fiica lui\u201d, de\u0219i \u00eenainte vorbea normal l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 se uite mai des \u00een oglind\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i-a cump\u0103rat o c\u0103ma\u0219\u0103 nou\u0103, mai mulat\u0103.<\/p>\n
M-am mirat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ia uite\u2026 \u0219i unde merge a\u0219a elegan\u021b\u0103?<\/p>\n
El a r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n
Prea repede.<\/p>\n
Prea u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar ce, n-am voie s\u0103 ar\u0103t \u0219i eu bine?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ba da\u2026 doar \u00eentrebam.<\/p>\n
A venit l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine \u0219i m-a pupat pe frunte.<\/p>\n
\u2014 E\u0219ti geloas\u0103?<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s \u0219i eu atunci.<\/p>\n
Dar ceva m-a \u00een\u021bepat \u00een stomac.<\/p>\n
Ceva mic.<\/p>\n
Rece.<\/p>\n
Genul \u0103la de senza\u021bie pe care femeile o recunosc imediat \u0219i apoi \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 o ignore.<\/p>\n
\u00cen seara aia a stat mai mult pe telefon.<\/p>\n
Z\u00e2mbea singur.<\/p>\n
Scria repede.<\/p>\n
Iar c\u00e2nd am intrat \u00een camer\u0103, a \u00eentors ecranul.<\/p>\n
Mi-am zis c\u0103 exagerez.<\/p>\n
Doar n-o s\u0103 ajung paranoic\u0103 la v\u00e2rsta asta.<\/p>\n
Dar semnele s-au adunat.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 ias\u0103 \u201ep\u00e2n\u0103 la magazin\u201d \u0219i se \u00eentorcea dup\u0103 o or\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00ce\u0219i cump\u0103rase parfum nou.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 spun\u0103 mai des:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Omul trebuie s\u0103 mai tr\u0103iasc\u0103 \u0219i pentru el.<\/p>\n
Sau:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Via\u021ba nu se termin\u0103 dup\u0103 cincizeci de ani.<\/p>\n
La \u00eenceput p\u0103reau vorbe normale.<\/p>\n
Apoi au \u00eenceput s\u0103 doar\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103 f\u0103ceam sarmale.<\/p>\n
Eu rulam foile de varz\u0103, el toca ceap\u0103.<\/p>\n
La radio mergeau ni\u0219te melodii vechi.<\/p>\n
\u0218i din senin a zis:<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tii care e problema femeilor?<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la el.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Care?<\/p>\n
A ridicat din umeri.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dup\u0103 o v\u00e2rst\u0103 \u00eencep s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103 dac\u0103 un b\u0103rbat st\u0103 l\u00e2ng\u0103 ele, gata, \u00eel de\u021bin.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum m\u0103 str\u00e2nge ceva \u00een piept.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Adic\u0103?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Adic\u0103 trebuie s\u0103-i mai dai omului aer. S\u0103 nu-l sufoci.<\/p>\n
A spus-o calm.<\/p>\n
Aproape z\u00e2mbind.<\/p>\n
Dar exact atunci am sim\u021bit primul fior adev\u0103rat de fric\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 ridicase tonul.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 vorbea de parc\u0103 preg\u0103tea terenul.<\/p>\n
Ca \u0219i cum eu nici m\u0103car nu \u0219tiam \u00eenc\u0103 ce urma s\u0103 aud.<\/p>\n
Din ziua aia am \u00eenceput s\u0103 observ tot.<\/p>\n
\u0218i adev\u0103rul\u2026 adev\u0103rul nu vine niciodat\u0103 dintr-o dat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Picur\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00cencet.<\/p>\n
Ca o \u021beav\u0103 spart\u0103 noaptea.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o miercuri a ie\u0219it \u201edup\u0103 p\u00e2ine\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u0218i-a uitat telefonul pe mas\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu l-am verificat imediat.<\/p>\n
Jur.<\/p>\n
Am rezistat aproape zece minute.<\/p>\n
Dar apoi a vibrat.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pe ecran a ap\u0103rut:<\/p>\n
\u201eAbia a\u0219tept s\u0103 te v\u0103d iar \u2764\ufe0f\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit c\u0103-mi amor\u021besc m\u00e2inile.<\/p>\n
Nici m\u0103car n-am vrut s\u0103 citesc mai departe.<\/p>\n
Dar am citit.<\/p>\n
Mesaje.<\/p>\n
Poze.<\/p>\n
Glume.<\/p>\n
Planuri.<\/p>\n
Femeia se numea Alina.<\/p>\n
Treizeci \u0219i opt de ani.<\/p>\n
Divor\u021bat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Lucra la un salon de cosmetic\u0103.<\/p>\n
Iar omul care \u00eemi spunea seara c\u0103 \u201ece bine c\u0103 ne-am g\u0103sit\u201d \u00eei scria ei:<\/p>\n
\u201eCu tine m\u0103 simt viu.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am stat nemi\u0219cat\u0103 \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/p>\n
Cu telefonul \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani m-am sim\u021bit b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu din cauza ridurilor.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 \u00een clipa aia am \u00een\u021beles ce rol \u00eemi d\u0103duse el f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 direct.<\/p>\n
Eu eram lini\u0219tea.<\/p>\n
Ciorba.<\/p>\n
C\u0103ma\u0219a sp\u0103lat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Lumina aprins\u0103 acas\u0103.<\/p>\n
Iar ea era dovada c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 poate cuceri femei tinere.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat \u00een jurul buc\u0103t\u0103riei.<\/p>\n
La perdelele alese de mine.<\/p>\n
La oalele mele.<\/p>\n
La omul care \u00ee\u0219i l\u0103sase papucii la u\u0219\u0103 de parc\u0103 apar\u021binea casei.<\/p>\n
\u0218i m-a lovit un g\u00e2nd at\u00e2t de dur \u00eenc\u00e2t aproape m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 r\u00e2d:<\/p>\n
El nu venise doar pentru iubire.<\/p>\n
Venise pentru confort.<\/p>\n
Pentru lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
Pentru un loc unde s\u0103 \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2neasc\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 griji\u2026 \u00een timp ce se sim\u021bea \u00eenc\u0103 t\u00e2n\u0103r \u00een alt\u0103 parte.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd s-a \u00eentors cu p\u00e2inea, eu st\u0103team la mas\u0103.<\/p>\n
Calm\u0103.<\/p>\n
Cu telefonul lui \u00een fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
A \u00een\u021bepenit instant.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai uitat asta.<\/p>\n
A \u00een\u021beles imediat.<\/p>\n
Se vedea dup\u0103 fa\u021ba lui.<\/p>\n
Dar \u0219ti\u021bi care a fost partea cea mai ur\u00e2t\u0103?<\/p>\n
Nu a negat.<\/p>\n
Nu a c\u0103zut \u00een genunchi.<\/p>\n
Nu a pl\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
A oftat.<\/p>\n
De parc\u0103 eu devenisem problema.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Voiam s\u0103-\u021bi spun.<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s scurt.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Serios?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu e ce crezi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Asta spune\u021bi to\u021bi.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci a venit fraza.<\/p>\n
Fraza care m-a rupt pe din\u0103untru.<\/p>\n
S-a uitat la mine obosit \u0219i a zis:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Maria\u2026 la v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103 nu mai trebuie s\u0103 facem tragedii din orice.<\/p>\n
La v\u00e2rsta noastr\u0103.<\/p>\n
Adic\u0103 eu trebuia s\u0103 accept.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 fiu matur\u0103.<\/p>\n
Convenabil\u0103.<\/p>\n
Recunosc\u0103toare c\u0103 are cine s\u0103 stea cu mine.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit atunci ceva ce n-am mai sim\u021bit de ani de zile.<\/p>\n
Furie.<\/p>\n
Nu pe el.<\/p>\n
Pe mine.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 acceptasem prea pu\u021bin pentru mine \u00eens\u0103mi.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 m\u0103 bucurasem ca un copil c\u0103 cineva \u00eemi \u021bine saco\u0219a de cartofi.<\/p>\n
M-am ridicat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
M-am dus la dulap.<\/p>\n
I-am scos geanta mare.<\/p>\n
A r\u0103mas \u0219ocat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce faci?<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00ce\u021bi \u00eempachetez lucrurile.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Hai s\u0103 vorbim normal.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tocmai asta fac.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 explice.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 n-a vrut s\u0103 m\u0103 r\u0103neasc\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 b\u0103rba\u021bii sunt slabi.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 nimic.<\/p>\n
C\u0103 eu sunt \u201eacas\u0103\u201d.<\/p>\n
Iar atunci am izbucnit:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Exact! Eu eram casa! Iar ea era distrac\u021bia! \u0218i tu credeai c\u0103 eu trebuie s\u0103 m\u0103 mul\u021bumesc cu resturile?!<\/p>\n
A t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n
\u0218i t\u0103cerea lui mi-a confirmat tot.<\/p>\n
\u00cen dou\u0103 ore \u00ee\u0219i str\u00e2nsese lucrurile.<\/p>\n
La plecare s-a uitat lung la mine.<\/p>\n
Poate a\u0219tepta s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<\/p>\n
S\u0103-l opresc.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 negociez.<\/p>\n
Dar eu doar i-am deschis u\u0219a.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00eenainte s\u0103 ias\u0103, i-am spus ceva ce nici acum nu regret:<\/p>\n
\u2014 S\u0103 \u0219tii un lucru, Marian. Singur\u0103tatea nu e cel mai r\u0103u lucru care \u021bi se poate \u00eent\u00e2mpla dup\u0103 cincizeci de ani. Mai r\u0103u e s\u0103 stai l\u00e2ng\u0103 cineva care te face s\u0103 te sim\u021bi suficient\u0103 doar pe jum\u0103tate.<\/p>\n
A plecat f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 spun\u0103 nimic.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aia am pl\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
Mult.<\/p>\n
Cu sughi\u021buri.<\/p>\n
Ca o femeie care \u00eengroap\u0103 nu un b\u0103rbat, ci propria iluzie.<\/p>\n
Dar diminea\u021ba m-am trezit.<\/p>\n
Mi-am f\u0103cut cafea.<\/p>\n
Am cur\u0103\u021bat dou\u0103 mandarine.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 multe luni, lini\u0219tea din cas\u0103 n-a mai p\u0103rut pedeaps\u0103.<\/p>\n
A p\u0103rut libertate.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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