\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 eu nu mai vreau c\u0103snicia asta deloc.<\/p>\n
Parc\u0103 aerul din buc\u0103t\u0103rie s-a oprit.<\/p>\n
Mihai a clipit lent.<\/p>\n
Ca un om convins c\u0103 a auzit gre\u0219it.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce?<\/p>\n
Mi-am pus geanta pe um\u0103r.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai vrut libertate. Acum o ai.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Hai s\u0103 nu exager\u0103m.<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s scurt.<\/p>\n
Exageram?<\/p>\n
Zece ani \u00een care \u00eemi transformasem via\u021ba \u00een proiect comun.<\/p>\n
Zece ani \u00een care eu devenisem \u201enoi\u201d, iar el r\u0103m\u0103sese doar \u201eel\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Credeai c\u0103 po\u021bi ie\u0219i pe u\u0219\u0103 c\u00e2nd vrei \u0219i c\u0103 eu o s\u0103 stau aici s\u0103 te a\u0219tept.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu asta am spus.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu trebuia. Ai ar\u0103tat-o.<\/p>\n
S-a apropiat repede.<\/p>\n
Agitat.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mult timp, p\u0103rea speriat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i tipul \u0103la? Rare\u0219? Pentru el faci asta?<\/p>\n
Am z\u00e2mbit obosit\u0103.<\/p>\n
Uite c\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i atunci tot despre alt b\u0103rbat era vorba.<\/p>\n
Nici m\u0103car \u00een momentul \u00een care m\u0103 pierdea nu reu\u0219ea s\u0103 m\u0103 vad\u0103 pe mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu. Fac asta pentru femeia care pl\u00e2ngea singur\u0103 \u00een baie \u00een timp ce tu \u00ee\u021bi c\u0103utai validarea prin alte paturi.<\/p>\n
A deschis gura s\u0103 r\u0103spund\u0103, dar n-a ie\u0219it nimic.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 adev\u0103rul are prostul obicei s\u0103 lase oamenii f\u0103r\u0103 replici.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea aceea am dormit \u00een camera de oaspe\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Iar pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 ani, am dormit bine.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 nu m\u0103 durea.<\/p>\n
M\u0103 durea \u00eengrozitor.<\/p>\n
Dar uneori lini\u0219tea sincer\u0103 doare mai pu\u021bin dec\u00e2t iubirea umilitoare.<\/p>\n
Diminea\u021ba, Mihai era deja \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie c\u00e2nd am cobor\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
Avea cafeaua f\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n
Ca la \u00eenceputurile noastre.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Putem s\u0103 repar\u0103m asta, a spus imediat.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la el lung.<\/p>\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 vrei s\u0103 repari ceva? C\u00e2nd m-ai v\u0103zut cu altcineva?<\/p>\n
Maxilarul i s-a \u00eencordat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 E normal s\u0103 m\u0103 deranjeze.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Exact.<\/p>\n
Acolo a \u00een\u021beles.<\/p>\n
Sau m\u0103car a \u00eenceput.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 libertatea era sexy doar c\u00e2t timp o controla el.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2t timp eu r\u0103m\u00e2neam disponibil\u0103 emo\u021bional, fidel\u0103 \u00een suflet \u0219i trist\u0103 \u00een t\u0103cere.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 m\u0103 urm\u0103reasc\u0103 prin cas\u0103 cu privirea.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentrebe unde merg.<\/p>\n
Cu cine ies.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd m\u0103 \u00eentorc.<\/p>\n
Lucruri care \u00eenainte nici nu-l interesau.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, \u00een timp ce m\u0103 preg\u0103team s\u0103 ies, a r\u0103mas rezemat de u\u0219a dormitorului \u0219i m-a privit \u00een oglind\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Te-ai schimbat mult.<\/p>\n
Mi-am pus cerceii f\u0103r\u0103 grab\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu. Doar am reap\u0103rut.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenghi\u021bit \u00een sec.<\/p>\n
\u0218i atunci l-am v\u0103zut cu adev\u0103rat speriat.<\/p>\n
Nu de Rare\u0219.<\/p>\n
De faptul c\u0103 femeia pe care o considera garantat\u0103 \u00eencepuse s\u0103 se aleag\u0103 pe ea \u00eens\u0103\u0219i.<\/p>\n
Rare\u0219 nu era perfect.<\/p>\n
Era mai t\u00e2n\u0103r.<\/p>\n
Uneori prea impulsiv.<\/p>\n
Uneori prea direct.<\/p>\n
Dar l\u00e2ng\u0103 el nu m\u0103 sim\u021beam invizibil\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103 m-a \u00eentrebat simplu:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Cum de ai acceptat at\u00e2t de pu\u021bin at\u00e2\u021bia ani?<\/p>\n
\u00centrebarea m-a lovit mai tare dec\u00e2t orice ceart\u0103 cu Mihai.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 nici eu nu mai \u0219tiam.<\/p>\n
Poate din iubire.<\/p>\n
Poate din oboseal\u0103.<\/p>\n
Poate pentru c\u0103 femeile sunt \u00eenv\u0103\u021bate s\u0103 transforme sacrificiul \u00een personalitate.<\/p>\n
\u00cen urm\u0103toarele s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, Mihai s-a schimbat complet.<\/p>\n
Flori.<\/p>\n
Mesaje.<\/p>\n
Invita\u021bii.<\/p>\n
Complimente.<\/p>\n
Dar toate aveau gustul acela amar al panicii.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 redescoperea.<\/p>\n
\u00cencerca s\u0103 m\u0103 recupereze \u00eenainte s\u0103 m\u0103 piard\u0103 definitiv.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o duminic\u0103 m-a g\u0103sit pe teras\u0103, citind.<\/p>\n
S-a a\u0219ezat \u00een fa\u021ba mea \u0219i a spus direct:<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cel iube\u0219ti?<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenchis cartea \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu \u00eenc\u0103.<\/p>\n
A durut.<\/p>\n
I-am v\u0103zut-o pe fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dar adev\u0103rul rareori e elegant.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i pe mine? a \u00eentrebat dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva secunde.<\/p>\n
Am vrut s\u0103 spun \u201eda\u201d imediat.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 o parte din mine \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eel iubea.<\/p>\n
Omul cu care turnasem funda\u021bii.
\nCu care m\u00e2ncasem covrigi pe saltea \u00eenainte s\u0103 avem mobil\u0103.
\nCu care visasem.<\/p>\n
Dar iubirea obosit\u0103 nu mai seam\u0103n\u0103 cu iubirea s\u0103n\u0103toas\u0103.<\/p>\n
A\u0219a c\u0103 am r\u0103spuns sincer:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu \u00een felul \u00een care m\u0103 iubeam \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n
A \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 atunci.<\/p>\n
Prima dat\u0103 \u00een zece ani.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, ciudat, nu m-am sim\u021bit r\u0103zbunat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Doar trist\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 uneori oamenii realizeaz\u0103 valoarea a ceva exact \u00een clipa \u00een care \u00eel pierd.<\/p>\n
O lun\u0103 mai t\u00e2rziu m-am mutat singur\u0103 \u00eentr-un apartament mic.<\/p>\n
Cu plante pe balcon.<\/p>\n
Lum\u00e2n\u0103ri parfumate.<\/p>\n
\u0218i lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
Rare\u0219 a r\u0103mas \u00een via\u021ba mea o vreme.<\/p>\n
Frumos.
\nIntens.
\nNepotrivit pe termen lung.<\/p>\n
Dar nu el a fost adev\u0103rata schimbare.<\/p>\n
Ci femeia care se privea diminea\u021ba \u00een oglind\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 mai cear\u0103 aprobare.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, Mihai mi-a trimis un mesaj.<\/p>\n
\u201eMi-e dor de tine.\u201d<\/p>\n
L-am citit de dou\u0103 ori.<\/p>\n
Apoi am pus telefonul jos \u0219i mi-am turnat un pahar de vin.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 dorul lui nu mai era responsabilitatea mea.<\/p>\n
\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 foarte mul\u021bi ani, nu m\u0103 mai sim\u021beam so\u021bia cuiva.<\/p>\n
M\u0103 sim\u021beam, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, \u00eentreag\u0103.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 eu nu mai vreau c\u0103snicia asta deloc. Parc\u0103 aerul din buc\u0103t\u0103rie s-a oprit. Mihai a clipit lent. Ca un om convins c\u0103 a auzit gre\u0219it. \u2014 Ce? Mi-am pus geanta pe um\u0103r. \u2014 Ai vrut libertate. Acum o ai. \u2014 Hai s\u0103 nu exager\u0103m. Am r\u00e2s scurt. Exageram? Zece ani \u00een care […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":22817,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24872","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24872","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24872"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24872\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24873,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24872\/revisions\/24873"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/22817"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24872"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24872"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24872"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}