\ud835\uddd6\ud835\udde2\ud835\udde1\ud835\udde7\ud835\udddc\ud835\udde1\ud835\udde8\ud835\uddd4\ud835\udde5\ud835\uddd8\ud835\uddd4 \ud835\uddd4\ud835\udddc\ud835\uddd6\ud835\udddc \ud83d\udc47Bine\u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nu.<\/p>\n
Dar \u00een ziua aceea mergea \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Ca \u0219i cum ar fi purtat ceva mai greu dec\u00e2t b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021bea.<\/p>\n
\u00cen cabinet, doctorul a deschis rezultatele lui.<\/p>\n
O foaie.<\/p>\n
Apoi alta.<\/p>\n
Apoi un dosar medical vechi, \u00eeng\u0103lbenit, din fundul teancului.<\/p>\n
Fa\u021ba medicului s-a schimbat.<\/p>\n
S-a uitat la Alexandru.<\/p>\n
Apoi la mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Domnule Dumitrescu \u2014 a spus cu grij\u0103 \u2014 asta nu s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat dintr-odat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pieptul mi s-a \u00eenghe\u021bat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce are? \u2014 am \u00eentrebat.<\/p>\n
Doctorul nu mi-a r\u0103spuns.<\/p>\n
A scos o h\u00e2rtie \u00eemp\u0103turit\u0103 din dosarul vechi.<\/p>\n
Alexandru a \u00eencercat s\u0103 o ia, dar m\u00e2na \u00eei tremura at\u00e2t de tare \u00eenc\u00e2t h\u00e2rtia a c\u0103zut pe podea.<\/p>\n
Atunci doctorul \u0219i-a ridicat privirea spre mine \u0219i a spus fraza care a rupt optsprezece ani din via\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doamn\u0103 Elena\u2026 \u00eenainte s\u0103 v\u0103 vorbesc despre starea so\u021bului dumneavoastr\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 \u0219tiu dac\u0103 v-a explicat cineva ce a semnat acum optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
\u00cen cabinet s-a f\u0103cut o lini\u0219te at\u00e2t de ap\u0103s\u0103toare, \u00eenc\u00e2t auzeam b\u00e2z\u00e2itul slab al neonului din tavan.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la Alexandru.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani, p\u0103rea speriat.<\/p>\n
Nu rece.<\/p>\n
Nu distant.<\/p>\n
Speriat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce s\u0103 semneze? \u2014 am \u00eentrebat \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
Doctorul \u0219i-a dres glasul \u0219i a deschis dosarul.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Acum optsprezece ani, so\u021bul dumneavoastr\u0103 a fost diagnosticat cu o form\u0103 agresiv\u0103 de hepatit\u0103 viral\u0103. \u00cen perioada aceea exista suspiciunea c\u0103 boala putea fi transmis\u0103 foarte u\u0219or prin contact apropiat. A refuzat internarea \u0219i a semnat c\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i asum\u0103 responsabilitatea.<\/p>\n
Nu \u00een\u021belegeam.<\/p>\n
M\u0103 uitam c\u00e2nd la doctor, c\u00e2nd la Alexandru.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i ce leg\u0103tur\u0103 are asta cu\u2026<\/p>\n
Doctorul s-a oprit o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Domnul Dumitrescu a cerut atunci s\u0103 fie monitorizat separat \u0219i a insistat s\u0103 nu v\u0103 fie spus nimic p\u00e2n\u0103 nu avea confirm\u0103ri clare. Dosarul arat\u0103 c\u0103 a repetat analizele luni \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n
Mi s-a uscat gura.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu\u2026 nu \u00een\u021beleg.<\/p>\n
Alexandru \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2inile la fa\u021b\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een optsprezece ani, l-am v\u0103zut tremur\u00e2nd.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Primele rezultate erau foarte proaste \u2014 a spus el cu voce joas\u0103. \u2014 Doctorii nu \u0219tiau c\u00e2t de grav era. Mi-au spus s\u0103 evit orice apropiere fizic\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 se clarific\u0103 situa\u021bia.<\/p>\n
Am clipit des, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 respir.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar\u2026 asta a fost acum optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
El a \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva luni, analizele au \u00eenceput s\u0103 ias\u0103 mai bine. Apoi mi-au spus c\u0103 riscul era aproape inexistent. Dar p\u00e2n\u0103 atunci\u2026<\/p>\n
Nu \u0219i-a terminat fraza.<\/p>\n
Doctorul s-a ridicat discret.<\/p>\n
\u2014 V\u0103 las c\u00e2teva minute.<\/p>\n
U\u0219a s-a \u00eenchis \u00een urma lui.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas singuri.<\/p>\n
Singuri pentru prima dat\u0103 cu adev\u0103rul.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la peretele alb din cabinet \u0219i am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 scufund.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Tu\u2026 ai crezut c\u0103 m\u0103 protejezi?<\/p>\n
Alexandru a r\u00e2s scurt \u0219i amar.<\/p>\n
\u2014 La \u00eenceput, da.<\/p>\n
Apoi s-a uitat direct la mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dup\u0103 ce am aflat de R\u0103zvan\u2026 n-am mai \u0219tiut s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc.<\/p>\n
Cuvintele lui au intrat \u00een mine lent, ca ni\u0219te ace.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ai preferat s\u0103 m\u0103 pedepse\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu doar pe tine.<\/p>\n
Vocea \u00eei era obosit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i pe mine.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi ard ochii.<\/p>\n
To\u021bi anii aceia.<\/p>\n
Toate nop\u021bile.<\/p>\n
Perna alb\u0103.<\/p>\n
Camera rece.<\/p>\n
T\u0103cerea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Puteai s\u0103 divor\u021bezi \u2014 am spus.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Puteai s\u0103 \u021bipi la mine. S\u0103 m\u0103 ur\u0103\u0219ti pe bune. Orice era mai bine dec\u00e2t\u2026<\/p>\n
Nu am mai putut continua.<\/p>\n
El \u0219i-a frecat palmele \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cen fiecare an m\u0103 obi\u0219nuiam cu distan\u021ba. \u0218i dup\u0103 un timp\u2026 nici nu mai \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 ating pe cineva.<\/p>\n
Am izbucnit \u00een pl\u00e2ns.<\/p>\n
Nu dramatic.<\/p>\n
Nu zgomotos.<\/p>\n
Doar un pl\u00e2ns vechi, obosit, care p\u0103rea c\u0103 vine din toate femeile care fuseser\u0103 c\u00e2ndva iubite \u0219i apoi \u021binute la marginea vie\u021bii.<\/p>\n
Alexandru s-a uitat la mine lung.<\/p>\n
Apoi, foarte \u00eencet, \u0219i-a mutat m\u00e2na pe scaunul dintre noi.<\/p>\n
Nu m-a atins.<\/p>\n
Dar era mai aproape dec\u00e2t fusese \u00een optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Elena\u2026 eu nu te-am iertat niciodat\u0103 complet.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenchis ochii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar nici n-am \u00eencetat vreodat\u0103 s\u0103 te iubesc.<\/p>\n
Asta m-a rupt.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 \u00een vocea lui nu era romantism.<\/p>\n
Era regret.<\/p>\n
Regret adev\u0103rat.<\/p>\n
Am stat mult timp f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 vorbim.<\/p>\n
\u00cen cele din urm\u0103, doctorul s-a \u00eentors \u0219i ne-a explicat calm c\u0103 boala lui Alexandru afectase ficatul mai mult dec\u00e2t crezusem. Nu era o condamnare imediat\u0103, dar urma tratament lung \u0219i monitorizare constant\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pe drumul spre cas\u0103, ploua m\u0103runt.<\/p>\n
Bucure\u0219tiul p\u0103rea sp\u0103lat \u0219i trist.<\/p>\n
\u00cen ma\u0219in\u0103 nu mergea radioul.<\/p>\n
La un semafor, Alexandru a spus brusc:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Perna aia\u2026 \u00eenc\u0103 e pe pat.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
A dat din cap \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 C\u00e2nd ajungem acas\u0103\u2026 scoate-o.<\/p>\n
L-am privit.<\/p>\n
Avea ochii umezi, dar nu pl\u00e2ngea.<\/p>\n
Alexandru nu fusese niciodat\u0103 un b\u0103rbat care s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd am intrat \u00een apartament, totul era la fel.<\/p>\n
Mirosul mobilei vechi.<\/p>\n
Icoana de deasupra patului.<\/p>\n
Ventilatorul care sc\u00e2r\u021b\u00e2ia u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
Perna alb\u0103 era acolo.<\/p>\n
Curat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Rece.<\/p>\n
Ca un morm\u00e2nt.<\/p>\n
M-am apropiat de pat \u0219i am pus m\u00e2na pe ea.<\/p>\n
Optsprezece ani.<\/p>\n
At\u00e2t \u00eenc\u0103puse \u00een bucata aceea de material.<\/p>\n
Vin\u0103.<\/p>\n
Orgoliu.<\/p>\n
Fric\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pedepse.<\/p>\n
Singur\u0103tate.<\/p>\n
Am luat-o \u00een bra\u021be \u0219i am dus-o spre dulap.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd m-am \u00eentors, Alexandru st\u0103tea pe marginea patului, cu umerii c\u0103zu\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas am\u00e2ndoi t\u0103cu\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Apoi, nesigur, aproape st\u00e2ngaci, \u0219i-a \u00eentins m\u00e2na spre mine.<\/p>\n
Pentru o secund\u0103 am crezut c\u0103 visez.<\/p>\n
I-am atins degetele.<\/p>\n
Piele cald\u0103.<\/p>\n
Real\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dup\u0103 optsprezece ani, so\u021bul meu m-a \u021binut din nou de m\u00e2n\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00een lini\u0219tea aceea simpl\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 discursuri mari \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 promisiuni, am \u00een\u021beles c\u00e2t de mult r\u0103u pot face doi oameni care se iubesc, atunci c\u00e2nd aleg s\u0103 sufere \u00een t\u0103cere.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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