\u2014 Te mai g\u00e2nde\u0219ti vreodat\u0103 la Bianca? a \u00eentrebat femeia, r\u00e2z\u00e2nd u\u0219or.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eencremenit.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 v\u0103zuse. St\u0103tea la c\u00e2\u021biva metri distan\u021b\u0103, l\u00e2ng\u0103 un grup de fo\u0219ti colegi.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Cea cu aparatul dentar? a r\u0103spuns cineva.<\/p>\n
To\u021bi au r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n
Mi-am sim\u021bit stomacul str\u00e2ng\u00e2ndu-se exact cum se \u00eent\u00e2mpla \u00een urm\u0103 cu zece ani.<\/p>\n
Apoi femeia a spus ceva nea\u0219teptat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Sincer, uneori m\u0103 simt vinovat\u0103 pentru felul \u00een care ne-am purtat cu ea.<\/p>\n
R\u00e2setele s-au oprit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Serios? a \u00eentrebat un b\u0103rbat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da. Eram ni\u0219te copii pro\u0219ti. Credeam c\u0103 e amuzant. Acum am o fiic\u0103 de aceea\u0219i v\u00e2rst\u0103 pe care o aveam noi atunci. Dac\u0103 cineva s-ar purta cu ea a\u0219a cum ne-am purtat noi cu Bianca, a\u0219 fi devastat\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu m\u0103 a\u0219teptasem la asta.<\/p>\n
Ani la r\u00e2nd \u00eemi imaginasem c\u0103 oamenii ace\u0219tia nici m\u0103car nu \u00ee\u0219i amintesc ce f\u0103cuser\u0103.<\/p>\n
Dar se pare c\u0103 unii \u00ee\u0219i aminteau.<\/p>\n
\u0218i \u00eei durea.<\/p>\n
M-am apropiat pu\u021bin.<\/p>\n
Alt coleg a dat din cap.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i eu m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc uneori la asta. \u00ce\u021bi aminte\u0219ti c\u00e2nd i-am ascuns proiectul \u00eenainte de prezentare?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da, a spus femeia \u00eencet.<\/p>\n
\u2014 A pl\u00e2ns \u00een baie aproape o or\u0103.<\/p>\n
Mi-am amintit perfect ziua aceea.<\/p>\n
Eu crezusem c\u0103 nimeni nu observase.<\/p>\n
Dar observaser\u0103.<\/p>\n
Pur \u0219i simplu nu f\u0103cuser\u0103 nimic.<\/p>\n
\u2014 M-am g\u00e2ndit s\u0103-mi cer scuze dac\u0103 o mai v\u0103d vreodat\u0103, a continuat el.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dac\u0103 vine \u00een seara asta, a spus cineva.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu cred c\u0103 ar veni.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.<\/p>\n
Aveam dou\u0103 op\u021biuni.<\/p>\n
S\u0103 plec.<\/p>\n
Sau s\u0103 le spun cine sunt.<\/p>\n
Mama \u00eemi ap\u0103ruse brusc \u00een minte.<\/p>\n
\u201e\u00centr-o zi, to\u021bi ceilal\u021bi te vor vedea la fel.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am tras ad\u00e2nc aer \u00een piept \u0219i am f\u0103cut un pas \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bun\u0103.<\/p>\n
To\u021bi s-au \u00eentors spre mine.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bun\u0103, a r\u0103spuns femeia politicos.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Vorbea\u021bi despre Bianca?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Da, a spus ea. O cuno\u0219teai?<\/p>\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Destul de bine.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2teva secunde nimeni nu a \u00een\u021beles.<\/p>\n
Apoi am v\u0103zut cum expresiile lor se schimb\u0103 una c\u00e2te una.<\/p>\n
Femeia a clipit de mai multe ori.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Stai…<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul de l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea a r\u0103mas cu gura \u00eentredeschis\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu…<\/p>\n
Am \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ba da. Eu sunt.<\/p>\n
S-a f\u0103cut lini\u0219te.<\/p>\n
O lini\u0219te complet diferit\u0103 de cea pe care o \u021bineam minte din \u0219coal\u0103.<\/p>\n
Atunci era o lini\u0219te rece.<\/p>\n
Acum era una plin\u0103 de surpriz\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bianca? a \u0219optit cineva.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bianca.<\/p>\n
Femeia \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2na la piept.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dumnezeule… nu te-am recunoscut.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218tiu.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ar\u0103\u021bi…<\/p>\n
S-a oprit, c\u0103ut\u00e2nd cuvintele potrivite.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Diferit? am completat eu.<\/p>\n
Ea a z\u00e2mbit st\u00e2njenit\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Foarte diferit.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103, comentariul acela nu m-a durut.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103 nu mai aveam nevoie de validarea nim\u0103nui.<\/p>\n
B\u0103rbatul care pomenise de proiect a f\u0103cut un pas \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u.<\/p>\n
Am ridicat privirea spre el.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru ce?<\/p>\n
\u2014 Pentru multe lucruri.<\/p>\n
Nu p\u0103rea c\u0103 recit\u0103 o scuz\u0103 preg\u0103tit\u0103.<\/p>\n
P\u0103rea sincer.<\/p>\n
Femeia a dat \u0219i ea din cap.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i mie.<\/p>\n
\u2014 \u0218i mie, au spus al\u021bii.<\/p>\n
M-am uitat la fe\u021bele lor.<\/p>\n
Nu mai erau adolescen\u021bii care \u00eemi f\u0103cuser\u0103 zilele grele.<\/p>\n
Erau oameni trecu\u021bi de treizeci de ani, cu riduri fine la col\u021bul ochilor, cu responsabilit\u0103\u021bi \u0219i regrete.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103, nu mi-au mai p\u0103rut at\u00e2t de mari \u0219i de puternici.<\/p>\n
Erau doar oameni.<\/p>\n
\u2014 V\u0103 mul\u021bumesc, am spus.<\/p>\n
\u2014 At\u00e2t? a \u00eentrebat cineva surprins.<\/p>\n
Am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce altceva ar trebui s\u0103 spun?<\/p>\n
Femeia \u0219i-a \u0219ters discret ochii.<\/p>\n
\u2014 M-am temut c\u0103 o s\u0103 ne ur\u0103\u0219ti.<\/p>\n
Am r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe pe g\u00e2nduri.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Mult timp am f\u0103cut-o.<\/p>\n
Au cobor\u00e2t privirea.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Dar am obosit s\u0103 car asta dup\u0103 mine.<\/p>\n
Nimeni nu a mai spus nimic.<\/p>\n
\u00cen acel moment am sim\u021bit c\u0103 ceva din mine se desprinde.<\/p>\n
O greutate pe care o purtasem ani \u00eentregi.<\/p>\n
Nu pentru c\u0103 ei \u00ee\u0219i ceruser\u0103 scuze.<\/p>\n
Ci pentru c\u0103 nu mai eram fata care pl\u00e2ngea singur\u0103 \u00een baie dup\u0103 ore.<\/p>\n
Nu mai eram fata care se ascundea.<\/p>\n
Nu mai eram fata care credea c\u0103 valoarea ei depinde de p\u0103rerea altora.<\/p>\n
Mai t\u00e2rziu, \u00een timpul serii, am stat la aceea\u0219i mas\u0103 cu fo\u0219ti colegi.<\/p>\n
Am r\u00e2s.<\/p>\n
Am povestit.<\/p>\n
Am schimbat fotografii.<\/p>\n
La un moment dat, cineva m-a \u00eentrebat:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Care a fost cel mai bun lucru care \u021bi s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat dup\u0103 liceu?<\/p>\n
M-am g\u00e2ndit o clip\u0103.<\/p>\n
Apoi am r\u0103spuns:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 m\u0103 plac pe mine \u00eens\u0103mi.<\/p>\n
Masa a t\u0103cut.<\/p>\n
Iar eu am z\u00e2mbit.<\/p>\n
Pentru c\u0103, dintre toate realiz\u0103rile mele, aceea fusese cea mai important\u0103.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2nd am plecat spre cas\u0103, m-am oprit l\u00e2ng\u0103 u\u0219ile de sticl\u0103 prin care intrasem cu c\u00e2teva ore \u00eenainte.<\/p>\n
Mi-am privit din nou reflec\u021bia.<\/p>\n
De data aceasta nu vedeam doar femeia care devenisem.<\/p>\n
O vedeam \u0219i pe adolescenta speriat\u0103 care fusese c\u00e2ndva.<\/p>\n
\u0218i, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, o priveam cu aceea\u0219i bl\u00e2nde\u021be cu care mama m\u0103 privise mereu.<\/p>\n
Avea dreptate.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o zi, am ajuns s\u0103 m\u0103 v\u0103d a\u0219a cum m\u0103 vedea ea.<\/p>\n
Iar asta a schimbat totul.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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