PARTEA 2
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\n\u2014 Nu trebuie s\u0103 te \u00eentorci la el, Sara. Ascult\u0103-m\u0103 bine. Ce \u021bi-a f\u0103cut nu este iubire \u0219i nu trebuie s\u0103 mai supor\u021bi nici m\u0103car o zi.
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\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se taie respira\u021bia.
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\nVocea aceea.
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\nA\u0219 fi recunoscut-o dintre o mie.
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\nEra vocea tat\u0103lui meu.
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\nTat\u0103l meu, despre care mama \u00eemi spusese c\u0103 murise \u00eentr-un accident de ma\u0219in\u0103 c\u00e2nd aveam \u0219apte ani.
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\nAm f\u0103cut un pas \u00eenainte, sprijinindu-m\u0103 de peretele rece.
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\n\u2014 Tat\u0103? am \u0219optit.
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\nConversa\u021bia s-a oprit.
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\nAm auzit pa\u0219i, apoi o u\u0219\u0103 metalic\u0103 s-a deschis la cap\u0103tul pasajului.
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\n\u00cen fa\u021ba mea a ap\u0103rut un b\u0103rbat \u00een v\u00e2rst\u0103, cu p\u0103rul complet alb, sprijinit \u00eentr-un baston. Avea obrajii sup\u021bi, umerii c\u0103zu\u021bi \u0219i o cicatrice deasupra spr\u00e2ncenei st\u00e2ngi.
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\nDar ochii…
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\nOchii erau exact cei din fotografia pe care o \u021binusem ani \u00eentregi pe noptier\u0103.
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\n\u2014 Andrei? a \u00eentrebat el, cu voce tremurat\u0103.
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\nAm sim\u021bit cum mi se \u00eenmoaie genunchii.
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\n\u2014 Nu se poate…
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\nB\u0103rbatul \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.
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\n\u2014 Doamne… b\u0103iatul meu.
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\n\u00cen spatele lui st\u0103tea Sara.
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\nEra palid\u0103, cu ochii umfla\u021bi de pl\u00e2ns. Purta un pulover vechi peste c\u0103ma\u0219a de noapte \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i \u021binea o m\u00e2n\u0103 pe abdomen.
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\nC\u00e2nd m-a v\u0103zut, a f\u0103cut instinctiv un pas \u00eenapoi.
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\nGestul acela m-a durut mai tare dec\u00e2t orice cuv\u00e2nt.
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\n\u2014 Sara… am \u00eenceput.
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\n\u2014 Nu te apropia, Andrei.
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\nM-am oprit imediat.
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\nPentru prima dat\u0103, am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 so\u021bia mea se temea de mine.
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\nNu era sup\u0103rat\u0103.
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\nNu era \u00eenc\u0103p\u0103\u021b\u00e2nat\u0103.
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\n\u00cei era fric\u0103.
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\n***
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\nDin spatele meu s-a auzit vocea mamei.
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\n\u2014 Mihai, \u021bi-am spus s\u0103 nu mai vii aici!
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\nB\u0103tr\u00e2nul \u0219i-a ridicat privirea spre ea.
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\n\u2014 Ecaterina, ajunge. Treizeci de ani sunt suficien\u021bi.
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\nM-am \u00eentors spre mama.
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\n\u2014 Mi-ai spus c\u0103 a murit.
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\nNu a r\u0103spuns.
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\n\u2014 Mi-ai spus c\u0103 a murit \u00eentr-un accident! am repetat, ridic\u00e2nd vocea.
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\nMama \u0219i-a dus m\u00e2na la piept, preg\u0103tindu-se s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.
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\nAcela\u0219i gest.
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\nAcelea\u0219i lacrimi.
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\nAceea\u0219i expresie pe care o v\u0103zusem cu o sear\u0103 \u00eenainte.
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\nDar de data aceasta nu m-am mai gr\u0103bit s\u0103 o consolez.
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\n\u2014 Nu, mam\u0103. Vreau adev\u0103rul.
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\nMihai a f\u0103cut c\u00e2\u021biva pa\u0219i spre mine.
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\n\u2014 Fiule, sunt multe lucruri pe care trebuie s\u0103 le afli. Dar mai \u00eent\u00e2i Sara are nevoie de un medic.
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\nM-am \u00eentors brusc spre ea.
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\n\u2014 Ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat?
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\nSara a privit spre podea.
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\n\u2014 Am avut dureri puternice \u00een timpul nop\u021bii. Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 ame\u021besc \u0219i am \u00eencercat s\u0103 ies. Te-am strigat, Andrei. Am b\u0103tut \u00een u\u0219\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 nu mi-am mai sim\u021bit m\u00e2inile.
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\nMi-am amintit bufniturile de la miezul nop\u021bii.
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\nCutii t\u00e2r\u00e2te.
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\nZgomotele pe care le ignorasem.
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\n\u2014 Eu… am auzit ceva, am murmurat.
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\nSara a ridicat ochii spre mine.
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\n\u2014 \u0218tiu. Te-am auzit vorbind cu mama ta pe hol. Am crezut c\u0103 vei deschide.
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\nNu am g\u0103sit nimic de spus.
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\n\u2014 Dar n-ai venit, a continuat ea. A\u0219a c\u0103 am \u00eencercat s\u0103 m\u0103 descurc singur\u0103.
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\nMi-am dus m\u00e2na la frunte.
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\n\u2014 Testul de sarcin\u0103…
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\n\u2014 Este pozitiv, Andrei. Am aflat ieri diminea\u021b\u0103. Voiam s\u0103-\u021bi spun dup\u0103 cin\u0103.
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\nAm privit-o neputincios.
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\n\u2014 Vom avea un copil?
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\nSara \u0219i-a str\u00e2ns bra\u021bele \u00een jurul trupului.
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\n\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 sarcina este \u00een regul\u0103. \u0218i, \u00een acest moment, nu \u0219tiu nici ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 \u201evom\u201d.
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\n***
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\nAm vrut s\u0103 m\u0103 apropii, dar Mihai mi-a f\u0103cut semn s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n pe loc.
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\n\u2014 Nu acum, Andrei. Las-o s\u0103 respire.
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\nCuvintele lui m-au f\u0103cut s\u0103 tresar.
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\nUn om despre care crezusem c\u0103 este mort m\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba, \u00een c\u00e2teva secunde, ceva ce ar fi trebuit s\u0103 \u0219tiu singur.
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\n\u2014 Cum ai ajuns aici? l-am \u00eentrebat.
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\nMihai a privit spre Sara.
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\n\u2014 Prin intrarea din spatele casei. Pasajul acesta duce p\u00e2n\u0103 la vechea magazie din curte. Bunicul t\u0103u l-a construit c\u00e2nd casa era folosit\u0103 \u0219i ca atelier. Mama ta \u0219tia de el.
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\n\u2014 Dar eu nu.
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\n\u2014 Nu, fiule. Tu nu.
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\nSara a explicat c\u0103 descoperise peretele fals \u00een timpul nop\u021bii, c\u00e2nd \u00eencercase s\u0103 mute dulapul pentru a g\u0103si ceva cu care s\u0103 for\u021beze u\u0219a. O plac\u0103 de lemn se desprinsese, dezv\u0103luind pasajul.
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\n\u2014 Am mers pe acolo pentru c\u0103 nu mai puteam sta \u00eencuiat\u0103, a spus ea. La cap\u0103t era o u\u0219\u0103 veche, iar \u00een magazie l-am g\u0103sit pe Mihai.
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\nM-am uitat nedumerit spre tat\u0103l meu.
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\n\u2014 Ce c\u0103utai acolo?
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\nB\u0103rbatul a oftat.
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\n\u2014 Am venit asear\u0103 s\u0103 vorbesc cu mama ta. Am \u00eencercat de mai multe ori \u00een ultimii ani s\u0103 iau leg\u0103tura cu tine, dar ea m-a amenin\u021bat c\u0103, dac\u0103 m\u0103 apropii, va face tot posibilul s\u0103 m\u0103 \u021bin\u0103 departe. De data aceasta venisem s\u0103-i spun c\u0103 nu mai accept.
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\n\u2014 \u0218i de ce erai \u00een magazie?
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\n\u2014 Ecaterina mi-a cerut s\u0103 a\u0219tept acolo, ca s\u0103 nu ne cert\u0103m \u00een fa\u021ba voastr\u0103. Apoi nu s-a mai \u00eentors. Am adormit pe un scaun. Sara m-a g\u0103sit aproape de diminea\u021b\u0103.
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\nM-am \u00eentors spre mama.
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\nSt\u0103tea la intrarea \u00een pasaj, cu buzele str\u00e2nse.
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\n\u2014 Este adev\u0103rat?
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\n\u2014 Tat\u0103l t\u0103u te-a abandonat, Andrei. Asta este tot ce trebuie s\u0103 \u0219tii.
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\nMihai a cl\u0103tinat din cap.
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\n\u2014 Nu l-am abandonat niciodat\u0103.
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\n***
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\nNu am apucat s\u0103 aflu mai mult atunci.
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\nSara s-a sprijinit brusc de perete.
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\n\u2014 M\u0103 doare…
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\nFa\u021ba i se albise.
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\nMihai a prins-o \u00eenainte s\u0103 cad\u0103.
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\nAm scos imediat telefonul \u0219i am sunat la serviciile de urgen\u021b\u0103.
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\n\u00cen timp ce explicam situa\u021bia, am sim\u021bit pentru prima dat\u0103 adev\u0103rata greutate a ceea ce f\u0103cusem.
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\nNu o pedepsisem pe Sara pentru o vorb\u0103.
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\nO lipsisem de libertate.
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\nO \u00eencuiasem \u00eentr-o \u00eenc\u0103pere nepotrivit\u0103, \u00een ciuda rug\u0103min\u021bilor ei.
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\nIar acum era \u00eens\u0103rcinat\u0103 \u0219i avea nevoie de \u00eengrijiri medicale.
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\nLa spital, medicii au examinat-o \u0219i au f\u0103cut investiga\u021biile necesare. Sarcina era \u00eenc\u0103 la \u00eenceput, iar durerile impuneau supraveghere \u0219i controale ulterioare.
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\nDup\u0103 c\u00e2teva ore, medicul ne-a spus c\u0103 nu observase atunci semnele unei complica\u021bii acute, dar c\u0103 Sara trebuia s\u0103 revin\u0103 imediat dac\u0103 ap\u0103reau simptome \u00eengrijor\u0103toare.
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\nAm sim\u021bit o u\u0219urare uria\u0219\u0103.
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\nDar c\u00e2nd am \u00eencercat s\u0103 intru \u00een salon, Sara i-a cerut asistentei s\u0103 nu m\u0103 lase.
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\nAm r\u0103mas pe coridor.
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\nMihai st\u0103tea l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine.
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\n\u2014 Am distrus totul, am \u0219optit.
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\nEl m-a privit serios.
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\n\u2014 Ai f\u0103cut ceva foarte grav, Andrei.
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\n\u2014 \u0218tiu.
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\n\u2014 Nu. Cred c\u0103 abia \u00eencepi s\u0103 \u00een\u021belegi.
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\nMi-am cobor\u00e2t capul.
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\n\u2014 Ce trebuie s\u0103 fac?
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\n\u2014 \u00cen primul r\u00e2nd, s\u0103 nu-i mai ceri Sarei s\u0103 aib\u0103 grij\u0103 de sentimentele tale. Acum are nevoie de siguran\u021b\u0103, nu de promisiuni.
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\n***
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\nDup\u0103 ce Sara a fost externat\u0103, a plecat s\u0103 locuiasc\u0103 la o prieten\u0103 apropiat\u0103, Elena.
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\nNu m-a \u00eentrebat dac\u0103 sunt de acord.
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\n\u0218i pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een c\u0103snicia noastr\u0103, am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 nici nu trebuia s\u0103 o fac\u0103.
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\nMi-a trimis un mesaj scurt:
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\n\u201eSunt \u00een siguran\u021b\u0103. Nu veni dup\u0103 mine. Voi discuta cu tine c\u00e2nd voi fi preg\u0103tit\u0103.\u201d
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\nAm citit mesajul de zeci de ori.
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\nAm vrut s\u0103-i scriu c\u0103 o iubesc, c\u0103 \u00eemi pare r\u0103u, c\u0103 nu pot tr\u0103i f\u0103r\u0103 ea.
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\nDar m-am oprit.
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\nPentru c\u0103 toate acele cuvinte vorbeau despre mine.
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\nDespre durerea mea.
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\nDespre frica mea de a o pierde.
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\nNu despre ceea ce \u00eei f\u0103cusem ei.
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\nI-am r\u0103spuns doar:
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\n\u201e\u00ce\u021bi respect decizia. Nu voi veni. \u00cemi pare r\u0103u pentru ce \u021bi-am f\u0103cut.\u201d
\n\u2800
\nApoi am l\u0103sat telefonul jos.
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\n***
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\n\u00cen seara aceea, mama m-a a\u0219teptat \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie.
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\nPreg\u0103tise m\u00e2ncarea mea preferat\u0103.
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\n\u2014 Andrei, dragul meu, trebuie s\u0103 discut\u0103m. Femeia aceea \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 te \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00eempotriva mea.
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\nAm privit masa.
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\nFriptur\u0103.
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\nCartofi.
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\nChifle calde.
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\nExact ca \u00een seara \u00een care o \u00eencuiasem pe Sara.
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\n\u2014 De ce mi-ai spus c\u0103 tata este mort?
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\nMama a oftat.
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\n\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 pentru noi era ca \u0219i mort.
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\n\u2014 Nu asta te-am \u00eentrebat.
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\n\u2014 Andrei, tat\u0103l t\u0103u a fost un om egoist.
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\n\u2014 A murit sau nu?
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\nMama a r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.
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\n\u2014 Mi-ai ar\u0103tat un certificat de deces.
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\n\u2014 Era un document vechi. Ai \u00een\u021beles gre\u0219it.
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\nAm sim\u021bit un fior rece.
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\n\u2014 Aveam \u0219apte ani, mam\u0103. Mi-ai spus c\u0103 a murit \u0219i m-ai dus la un morm\u00e2nt.
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\nOchii i s-au umplut imediat de lacrimi.
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\n\u2014 Am f\u0103cut totul pentru tine.
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\nAm cl\u0103tinat din cap.
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\n\u2014 Nu. Ai f\u0103cut totul ca s\u0103 m\u0103 \u021bii l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine.
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\nMama a izbucnit:
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\n\u2014 Dup\u0103 tot ce am sacrificat, a\u0219a \u00eemi vorbe\u0219ti?
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\nPentru prima dat\u0103, nu m-am mai sim\u021bit obligat s\u0103-i cer iertare.
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\n\u2014 Trebuie s\u0103 pleci din casa aceasta, i-am spus.
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\nM-a privit de parc\u0103 o lovisem.
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\n\u2014 Poftim?
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\n\u2014 Nu mai putem locui \u00eempreun\u0103. Voi discuta cu un avocat despre situa\u021bia casei \u0219i despre cum \u00ee\u021bi po\u021bi muta lucrurile \u00een siguran\u021b\u0103.
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\n\u2014 M\u0103 dai afar\u0103 pentru femeia aceea?
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\nAm sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi cre\u0219te furia, dar am vorbit \u00eencet.
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\n\u2014 Nu Sara te-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 pleci. Eu iau decizia asta. \u0218i eu sunt responsabil pentru ceea ce i-am f\u0103cut.
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\n***
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\nDou\u0103 zile mai t\u00e2rziu, m-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit cu Mihai \u00eentr-o cafenea.
\n\u2800
\nA venit cu o serviet\u0103 veche \u0219i un plic plin de fotografii.
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\n\u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103-\u021bi cer s\u0103 m\u0103 crezi doar pentru c\u0103 sunt tat\u0103l t\u0103u, a spus. Vreau s\u0103-\u021bi ar\u0103t ce pot dovedi.
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\nA scos o hot\u0103r\u00e2re judec\u0103toreasc\u0103 veche.
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\nEra din anul \u00een care p\u0103rin\u021bii mei divor\u021baser\u0103.
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\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 citesc.
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\nMihai \u00eemi explicase c\u0103, dup\u0103 desp\u0103r\u021bire, \u00eencercase s\u0103 p\u0103streze leg\u0103tura cu mine. Ob\u021binuse un program de vizitare, dar \u00eent\u00e2lnirile deveniser\u0103 tot mai dificile.
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\n\u2014 Mama ta \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 e\u0219ti bolnav, c\u0103 nu vrei s\u0103 m\u0103 vezi sau c\u0103 nu sunte\u021bi acas\u0103. Uneori veneam \u0219i a\u0219teptam ore \u00eentregi.
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\nA scos mai multe scrisori.
\n\u2800
\nPe fiecare era trecut numele meu.
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\n\u201ePentru Andrei, de ziua lui.\u201d
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\n\u201ePentru Andrei, c\u00e2nd va \u00eemplini zece ani.\u201d
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\n\u201ePentru Andrei, la terminarea \u0219colii.\u201d
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\nM\u00e2inile au \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi tremure.
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\n\u2014 De ce nu le-am primit?
\n\u2800
\nMihai a privit \u00een cea\u0219ca de cafea.
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\n\u2014 Mama ta mi le-a returnat. Pe unele. Pe altele le-am p\u0103strat, sper\u00e2nd c\u0103 \u00eentr-o zi \u021bi le voi putea da.
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\nAm deschis prima scrisoare.
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\n\u201eDragul meu Andrei, ast\u0103zi \u00eempline\u0219ti opt ani. Mi-a\u0219 dori s\u0103 fiu l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine \u0219i s\u0103-\u021bi aduc tortul cu ma\u0219inu\u021be pe care \u00eel iube\u0219ti at\u00e2t de mult. Vreau s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 tata nu te-a uitat \u0219i nu te va uita niciodat\u0103.\u201d
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\nNu am mai putut citi.
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\nMi-au dat lacrimile.
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\n\u2014 De ce n-ai luptat mai mult? l-am \u00eentrebat.
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\nMihai a \u00eenchis ochii.
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\n\u2014 Am luptat. Dar am f\u0103cut \u0219i gre\u0219eli. Am r\u0103mas f\u0103r\u0103 bani, am pierdut procese \u0219i au fost ani \u00een care m-am descurajat. Nu am fost un tat\u0103 perfect, Andrei. \u00cemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 nu am g\u0103sit o cale s\u0103 fiu prezent \u00een via\u021ba ta.
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\nAm r\u0103mas mult timp t\u0103cu\u021bi.
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\nApoi l-am \u00eentrebat despre p\u0103turica g\u0103sit\u0103 \u00een pasaj.
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\nMihai a z\u00e2mbit trist.
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\n\u2014 Mama mea a brodat-o c\u00e2nd te-ai n\u0103scut. Am p\u0103strat-o \u00een casa aceasta ani \u00eentregi. Nu \u0219tiam c\u0103 mai exist\u0103.
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\n\u2014 \u0218i fotografia rupt\u0103?
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Era o fotografie cu noi trei, f\u0103cut\u0103 c\u00e2nd aveai cinci ani. Am v\u0103zut-o ieri \u00een debara. Probabil mama ta a rupt-o demult.
\n\u2800
\nMi-am amintit fotografia de pe podea.
\n\u2800
\nPe jum\u0103tatea pe care o v\u0103zusem era chipul meu.
\n\u2800
\nCealalt\u0103 jum\u0103tate \u00eel ar\u0103ta pe Mihai.
\n\u2800
\nMama nu \u0219tersese doar un om din via\u021ba mea.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cencercase s\u0103 \u0219tearg\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i amintirea lui.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen urm\u0103toarele s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni, am \u00eenceput s\u0103-mi privesc copil\u0103ria cu al\u021bi ochi.
\n\u2800
\nMi-am amintit cum mama \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 b\u0103ie\u021bii buni nu \u00ee\u0219i sup\u0103r\u0103 mamele.
\n\u2800
\nCum pl\u00e2ngea ori de c\u00e2te ori voiam s\u0103 petrec un weekend la un prieten.
\n\u2800
\nCum \u00eemi spunea c\u0103, dac\u0103 voi iubi vreodat\u0103 o femeie mai mult dec\u00e2t pe ea, o voi l\u0103sa singur\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nLa \u00eenceput, crezusem c\u0103 acestea sunt dovezi de iubire.
\n\u2800
\nApoi deveniser\u0103 reguli.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-mi dau seama, ajunsesem un b\u0103rbat adult care se temea mai mult de lacrimile mamei dec\u00e2t de suferin\u021ba propriei so\u021bii.
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 merg la psihoterapie.
\n\u2800
\nLa prima \u0219edin\u021b\u0103, i-am spus psihologului:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Cred c\u0103 mama m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 comport a\u0219a.
\n\u2800
\nEl m-a ascultat, apoi m-a \u00eentrebat:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Cine a \u00eencuiat u\u0219a debaralei?
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 love\u0219te \u00eentrebarea.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Eu.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Cine a auzit-o pe Sara rug\u00e2ndu-se s\u0103 fie l\u0103sat\u0103 afar\u0103?
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Eu.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218i cine a hot\u0103r\u00e2t s\u0103 o lase acolo peste noapte?
\n\u2800
\nMi-am acoperit fa\u021ba cu m\u00e2inile.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Eu.
\n\u2800
\nPsihologul a r\u0103mas t\u0103cut c\u00e2teva clipe.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Influen\u021ba mamei dumneavoastr\u0103 poate explica anumite tipare. Dar nu v\u0103 scute\u0219te de responsabilitate. Schimbarea \u00eencepe c\u00e2nd pute\u021bi recunoa\u0219te ambele lucruri.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen ziua aceea am ie\u0219it din cabinet cu ochii ro\u0219ii.
\n\u2800
\nDar pentru prima dat\u0103 nu mai c\u0103utam pe cineva pe care s\u0103 dau vina.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\nLa aproape o lun\u0103 dup\u0103 incident, Sara a acceptat s\u0103 ne \u00eent\u00e2lnim \u00eentr-un loc public.
\n\u2800
\nA venit \u00eenso\u021bit\u0103 de Elena, care s-a a\u0219ezat la o mas\u0103 din apropiere.
\n\u2800
\nSara purta o rochie albastr\u0103 \u0219i avea p\u0103rul prins la spate. P\u0103rea mai odihnit\u0103, dar privirea ei era \u00eenc\u0103 precaut\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nM-am ridicat c\u00e2nd a intrat.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Bun\u0103, Sara.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Bun\u0103, Andrei.
\n\u2800
\nNe-am a\u0219ezat.
\n\u2800
\nPentru c\u00e2teva secunde nu am \u0219tiut ce s\u0103 spun.
\n\u2800
\nApoi am scos din buzunar un plic.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Nu este o scrisoare prin care s\u0103-\u021bi cer s\u0103 te \u00eentorci. Am scris ce am f\u0103cut \u0219i de ce a fost gre\u0219it. Nu trebuie s\u0103 o cite\u0219ti acum.
\n\u2800
\nSara a privit plicul, dar nu l-a luat imediat.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Andrei, \u0219tii ce m-a durut cel mai tare \u00een noaptea aceea?
\n\u2800
\nAm cl\u0103tinat din cap.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 C\u0103 nu te-am recunoscut. B\u0103rbatul cu care m\u0103 c\u0103s\u0103torisem, omul c\u0103ruia \u00eei spusesem toate fricile mele, m-a \u00eencuiat \u00eentr-o \u00eenc\u0103pere \u00eentunecat\u0103 \u0219i a plecat la culcare.
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge g\u00e2tul.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 nu merit s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Nu, a r\u0103spuns ea. Nu \u0219tii \u00eenc\u0103 tot ce am sim\u021bit.
\n\u2800
\nAm t\u0103cut.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Am crezut c\u0103 voi muri acolo. Aveam dureri, eram ame\u021bit\u0103 \u0219i nu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 bebelu\u0219ul este bine. Am b\u0103tut \u00een u\u0219\u0103 p\u00e2n\u0103 mi-au s\u00e2ngerat degetele. Iar tu nu ai venit.
\n\u2800
\nMi-au curs lacrimile.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u, Sara.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Te-am iubit foarte mult, Andrei. Dar am ajuns s\u0103 m\u0103 tem s\u0103 vorbesc \u00een propria mea cas\u0103. Orice spuneam putea s\u0103 o supere pe mama ta. Iar dac\u0103 o sup\u0103ram, tu m\u0103 pedepseai cu t\u0103cere, cu repro\u0219uri sau cu amenin\u021b\u0103ri c\u0103 m\u0103 vei trimite la p\u0103rin\u021bii mei.
\n\u2800
\nAm privit-o.
\n\u2800
\nNu-mi amintisem niciodat\u0103 acele momente \u00een felul acesta.
\n\u2800
\nPentru mine fuseser\u0103 simple certuri.
\n\u2800
\nPentru ea fuseser\u0103 ani \u00een care \u00eenv\u0103\u021base s\u0103-\u0219i m\u0103soare fiecare cuv\u00e2nt.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103 te mai \u00eentorci \u00eentr-o astfel de via\u021b\u0103, i-am spus.
\n\u2800
\nSara \u0219i-a \u0219ters o lacrim\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Nici eu.
\n\u2800
\nApoi \u0219i-a pus m\u00e2na pe abdomen.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Sarcina evolueaz\u0103 bine p\u00e2n\u0103 acum. Medicul spune c\u0103 trebuie s\u0103 continui controalele, dar deocamdat\u0103 totul arat\u0103 \u00eencurajator.
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit un val de emo\u021bie.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 M\u0103 bucur.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Vreau ca acest copil s\u0103 aib\u0103 un tat\u0103 bun, Andrei. Dar asta nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 eu trebuie s\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n so\u021bia ta.
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eencuviin\u021bat.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u00cen\u021beleg.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103, chiar \u00een\u021belegeam.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen lunile urm\u0103toare, Sara a depus actele pentru divor\u021b.
\n\u2800
\nNu am \u00eencercat s\u0103 o opresc.
\n\u2800
\nAm cooperat cu avoca\u021bii \u0219i am respectat limitele pe care mi le-a cerut. Am continuat terapia \u0219i am participat la un program specializat pentru persoane care au exercitat comportamente abuzive \u00een rela\u021bii.
\n\u2800
\nNu am f\u0103cut aceste lucruri ca s\u0103 o conving s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nLe-am f\u0103cut pentru c\u0103 nu voiam s\u0103 mai fiu omul care o \u00eencuiase \u00eentr-o debara.
\n\u2800
\nMama s-a mutat \u00eentr-un apartament \u00eenchiriat.
\n\u2800
\nLa \u00eenceput m-a sunat zilnic.
\n\u2800
\nPl\u00e2ngea, m\u0103 acuza c\u0103 am abandonat-o \u0219i \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 Sara \u00eemi distrusese via\u021ba.
\n\u2800
\n\u00centr-o zi, i-am r\u0103spuns:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Mam\u0103, Sara nu mi-a distrus via\u021ba. Eu am distrus \u00eencrederea dintre noi prin ceea ce am f\u0103cut.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Dar eu sunt mama ta!
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218tiu. \u0218i asta nu \u00ee\u021bi d\u0103 dreptul s\u0103-mi controlezi c\u0103snicia sau s\u0103 m\u0103 min\u021bi despre tata.
\n\u2800
\nA \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nDe data aceasta am l\u0103sat-o s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nNu am \u021bipat.
\n\u2800
\nNu am insultat-o.
\n\u2800
\nDar nici nu mi-am schimbat decizia.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00centr-o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103, Mihai m-a invitat la el acas\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nLocuia \u00eentr-o cas\u0103 modest\u0103, la marginea ora\u0219ului. Avea o gr\u0103din\u0103 mic\u0103, un c\u00e2ine b\u0103tr\u00e2n \u0219i rafturi pline de c\u0103r\u021bi.
\n\u2800
\nMi-a ar\u0103tat o cutie de lemn.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen\u0103untru erau fotografii cu mine, scrisori \u0219i c\u00e2teva juc\u0103rii din copil\u0103rie.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Le-am p\u0103strat pe toate, a spus.
\n\u2800
\nAm ridicat o ma\u0219inu\u021b\u0103 ro\u0219ie.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 O \u021bin minte.
\n\u2800
\nMihai a z\u00e2mbit.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Dormeai cu ea sub pern\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm r\u00e2s printre lacrimi.
\n\u2800
\nPentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 treizeci de ani, am petrecut o dup\u0103-amiaz\u0103 \u00eentreag\u0103 cu tat\u0103l meu.
\n\u2800
\nNu am \u00eencercat s\u0103 recuper\u0103m \u00eentr-o singur\u0103 zi tot timpul pierdut.
\n\u2800
\nAm vorbit despre lucruri simple.
\n\u2800
\nDespre meseria lui.
\n\u2800
\nDespre \u0219coal\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nDespre bunicii mei.
\n\u2800
\nLa plecare, Mihai m-a \u00eentrebat:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Cum se simte Sara?
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Mai bine. Sarcina evolueaz\u0103 bine.
\n\u2800
\nA \u00eencuviin\u021bat.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Sper s\u0103 aib\u0103 parte de lini\u0219te.
\n\u2800
\nAm privit spre poart\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218i eu.
\n\u2800
\nMihai m-a b\u0103tut u\u0219or pe um\u0103r.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 S\u0103 nu confunzi faptul c\u0103 \u00ee\u021bi pare r\u0103u cu dreptul de a fi iertat, Andrei.
\n\u2800
\nAm r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe t\u0103cut.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Nu le mai confund.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103 de aprilie, Sara mi-a trimis un mesaj.
\n\u2800
\n\u201eS-a n\u0103scut.\u201d
\n\u2800
\nSub mesaj era o fotografie.
\n\u2800
\nO feti\u021b\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAvea obrajii roz, ochii \u00eenchi\u0219i \u0219i o c\u0103ciuli\u021b\u0103 alb\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 nu mai pot respira.
\n\u2800
\nApoi a venit un al doilea mesaj.
\n\u2800
\n\u201eEste s\u0103n\u0103toas\u0103. O cheam\u0103 Emma.\u201d
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.
\n\u2800
\nNu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 am voie s\u0103 vin.
\n\u2800
\nNu \u0219tiam dac\u0103 Sara m\u0103 vrea acolo.
\n\u2800
\nA\u0219a c\u0103 am \u00eentrebat:
\n\u2800
\n\u201ePot s\u0103 o v\u0103d c\u00e2nd vei considera c\u0103 este potrivit?\u201d
\n\u2800
\nR\u0103spunsul a venit dup\u0103 c\u00e2teva minute.
\n\u2800
\n\u201eDa. Vom stabili \u00eempreun\u0103 cu avoca\u021bii cum proced\u0103m.\u201d
\n\u2800
\nAm pus telefonul la piept.
\n\u2800
\nPentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een via\u021b\u0103, aveam o fiic\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i, \u00een loc s\u0103 m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la ce drepturi am asupra ei, m-am g\u00e2ndit la responsabilitatea pe care o aveam fa\u021b\u0103 de ea.
\n\u2800
\nS\u0103 nu o fac niciodat\u0103 s\u0103 se team\u0103 de mine.
\n\u2800
\nS\u0103 nu o \u00eenv\u0103\u021b c\u0103 iubirea \u00eenseamn\u0103 supunere.
\n\u2800
\nS\u0103 nu repet ceea ce f\u0103cusem cu mama ei.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\nPrima dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd am \u021binut-o pe Emma \u00een bra\u021be, avea aproape trei s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cent\u00e2lnirea a avut loc \u00een prezen\u021ba Sarei \u0219i a unei persoane de sprijin.
\n\u2800
\nM-am a\u0219ezat pe canapea, iar Sara mi-a pus feti\u021ba \u00een bra\u021be.
\n\u2800
\nEmma a deschis pentru o clip\u0103 ochii.
\n\u2800
\nEra at\u00e2t de mic\u0103, \u00eenc\u00e2t \u00eemi era team\u0103 s\u0103 m\u0103 mi\u0219c.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Bun\u0103, Emma, am \u0219optit.
\n\u2800
\nFeti\u021ba \u0219i-a str\u00e2ns degetele \u00een jurul unuia dintre degetele mele.
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.
\n\u2800
\nSara m-a privit \u00een t\u0103cere.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Este frumoas\u0103, am spus.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218tiu.
\n\u2800
\nAm z\u00e2mbit printre lacrimi.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Seam\u0103n\u0103 cu tine.
\n\u2800
\nSara a privit-o cu dragoste.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Sper s\u0103 aib\u0103 parte de o copil\u0103rie lini\u0219tit\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm ridicat ochii spre ea.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218i eu voi face tot ce \u021bine de mine pentru asta.
\n\u2800
\nNu i-am promis c\u0103 voi fi perfect.
\n\u2800
\nNu i-am cerut s\u0103 aib\u0103 \u00eencredere \u00een mine.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218tiam c\u0103 \u00eencrederea nu se ob\u021bine printr-o declara\u021bie.
\n\u2800
\nSe construie\u0219te prin fapte, \u00een timp.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\nAu trecut patru ani de atunci.
\n\u2800
\nEu \u0219i Sara suntem divor\u021ba\u021bi.
\n\u2800
\nEa locuie\u0219te \u00eentr-o cas\u0103 luminoas\u0103, aproape de gr\u0103dini\u021ba Emmei. Are un serviciu care \u00eei place \u0219i o via\u021b\u0103 \u00een care nu mai trebuie s\u0103 se team\u0103 c\u0103 o simpl\u0103 replic\u0103 va declan\u0219a o pedeaps\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nEu locuiesc \u00eentr-un apartament, la c\u00e2teva str\u0103zi distan\u021b\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nRela\u021bia noastr\u0103 nu a redevenit ceea ce fusese \u00eenainte.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i nici nu trebuia.
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat s\u0103 comunic\u0103m despre Emma cu respect, s\u0103 respect\u0103m programul stabilit pentru timpul petrecut cu ea \u0219i s\u0103 nu folosim niciodat\u0103 copilul pentru a ne r\u0103ni reciproc.
\n\u2800
\nContinui s\u0103 merg la terapie.
\n\u2800
\nUneori \u00eenc\u0103 descop\u0103r \u00een mine reac\u021bii pe care le-am \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat \u00een copil\u0103rie.
\n\u2800
\nDiferen\u021ba este c\u0103 acum le recunosc \u0219i \u00eemi asum responsabilitatea de a nu le transforma \u00een comportamente care \u00eei r\u0103nesc pe ceilal\u021bi.
\n\u2800
\nMihai face parte din via\u021ba mea.
\n\u2800
\nNe vedem \u00een fiecare s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nEmma \u00eel ador\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cei spune \u201eBunicul Mi\u0219u\u201d \u0219i \u00eel pune s\u0103-i citeasc\u0103 aceea\u0219i poveste de trei ori la r\u00e2nd.
\n\u2800
\nUneori \u00eei privesc \u00eempreun\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la to\u021bi anii pe care i-am pierdut crez\u00e2nd c\u0103 tat\u0103l meu murise.
\n\u2800
\nNu \u00eei mai putem recupera.
\n\u2800
\nDar putem avea grij\u0103 de timpul care ne-a r\u0103mas.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00centr-o duminic\u0103, Emma a venit la mine cu o fotografie veche \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nO g\u0103sise \u00eentr-o cutie pe care o p\u0103strasem \u00eentr-un dulap.
\n\u2800
\nEra fotografia rupt\u0103 pe care o descoperisem \u00een debara.
\n\u2800
\nO lipisem cu grij\u0103, dar linia dintre cele dou\u0103 jum\u0103t\u0103\u021bi \u00eenc\u0103 se vedea.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Tati, de ce este poza stricat\u0103?
\n\u2800
\nM-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 ea.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen fotografie eram eu, la cinci ani, \u021binut de m\u00e2n\u0103 de Mihai.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 cineva a rupt-o demult.
\n\u2800
\nEmma a trecut cu degetul peste linia alb\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218i de ce ai lipit-o?
\n\u2800
\nAm privit-o.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 era important\u0103 pentru mine.
\n\u2800
\nFeti\u021ba s-a g\u00e2ndit pu\u021bin.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Dar tot se vede c\u0103 a fost rupt\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm z\u00e2mbit trist.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Da, iubita mea. Unele lucruri pot fi reparate, dar urmele r\u0103m\u00e2n.
\n\u2800
\nEmma a ridicat fotografia.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Tot e frumoas\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Da, Emma. Tot e frumoas\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nApoi a pus fotografia la loc \u0219i a fugit s\u0103-\u0219i aduc\u0103 juc\u0103riile.
\n\u2800
\nEu am r\u0103mas pe canapea, privind spre u\u0219a deschis\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nMi-am amintit de noaptea \u00een care o \u00eencuiasem pe Sara.
\n\u2800
\nDe rug\u0103mintea ei.
\n\u2800
\n\u201eTe rog. Nu ast\u0103zi.\u201d
\n\u2800
\nDe bufniturile pe care le auzisem \u0219i le ignorasem.
\n\u2800
\nDe verigheta l\u0103sat\u0103 pe podea.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i de testul de sarcin\u0103 pe care era scris numele meu.
\n\u2800
\nAtunci crezusem c\u0103 cel mai mare \u0219oc fusese descoperirea c\u0103 tat\u0103l meu tr\u0103ia.
\n\u2800
\nDar ast\u0103zi \u0219tiu c\u0103 adev\u0103rata revela\u021bie fusese alta.
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen diminea\u021ba aceea, v\u0103zusem pentru prima dat\u0103 ce fel de om devenisem.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i nu-mi pl\u0103cuse deloc.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\nC\u00e2teva zile mai t\u00e2rziu, am \u00eent\u00e2lnit-o pe Sara c\u00e2nd am dus-o pe Emma acas\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nFeti\u021ba a fugit spre mama ei \u0219i a \u00eenceput s\u0103-i povesteasc\u0103 despre desenele pe care le f\u0103cuser\u0103m \u00eempreun\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nSara a ascultat-o z\u00e2mbind.
\n\u2800
\nApoi Emma a intrat \u00een cas\u0103, iar noi am r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva clipe pe verand\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Mul\u021bumesc c\u0103 ai respectat programul, a spus Sara.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Cu pl\u0103cere.
\n\u2800
\nA urmat o t\u0103cere lini\u0219tit\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nNu mai era t\u0103cerea ap\u0103s\u0103toare din vechea noastr\u0103 cas\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nEra t\u0103cerea dintre doi oameni care trecuser\u0103 prin ceva dureros \u0219i \u00eenv\u0103\u021baser\u0103 s\u0103-\u0219i respecte limitele.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Sara, am spus, vreau s\u0103-\u021bi mul\u021bumesc pentru felul \u00een care ai avut grij\u0103 de Emma.
\n\u2800
\nEa m-a privit.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Este fiica mea, Andrei. O iubesc.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218tiu.
\n\u2800
\nAm ezitat o clip\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218i vreau s\u0103-\u021bi spun c\u0103 \u00eemi pare r\u0103u. Nu ca s\u0103 schimb ceva \u00eentre noi. \u0218tiu c\u0103 nu pot. Ci pentru c\u0103 nu voi considera niciodat\u0103 normal ceea ce \u021bi-am f\u0103cut.
\n\u2800
\nSara a r\u0103mas t\u0103cut\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nApoi a \u00eencuviin\u021bat.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 M\u0103 bucur c\u0103 ai \u00een\u021beles asta.
\n\u2800
\nNu m-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.
\n\u2800
\nNu mi-a spus c\u0103 m-a iertat.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i nu am a\u0219teptat-o s\u0103 o fac\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nNe-am luat r\u0103mas-bun, iar eu am plecat.
\n\u2800
\nPe drum, m-am g\u00e2ndit la un lucru pe care mi-a\u0219 fi dorit s\u0103-l \u00een\u021beleg cu mul\u021bi ani \u00eenainte.
\n\u2800
\nIubirea nu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 ai putere asupra cuiva.
\n\u2800
\nNu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103-l pedepse\u0219ti c\u00e2nd te contrazice.
\n\u2800
\nNu \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103-i ceri s\u0103 sufere pentru ca altcineva s\u0103 fie mul\u021bumit.
\n\u2800
\nIubirea \u00eenseamn\u0103 s\u0103 respec\u021bi libertatea \u0219i demnitatea omului de l\u00e2ng\u0103 tine, chiar \u0219i atunci c\u00e2nd e\u0219ti sup\u0103rat.
\n\u2800
\nMama m\u0103 \u00eenv\u0103\u021base c\u0103 un fiu bun trebuie s\u0103-i dea \u00eentotdeauna dreptate.
\n\u2800
\nEu crezusem c\u0103 un so\u021b bun trebuie s\u0103-\u0219i \u021bin\u0103 so\u021bia sub control.
\n\u2800
\nAmbele convingeri erau gre\u0219ite.
\n\u2800
\nIar pre\u021bul pentru a \u00een\u021belege asta fusese pierderea c\u0103sniciei mele.
\n\u2800
\n***
\n\u2800
\n\u00cen seara aceea, Emma m-a sunat \u00eenainte de culcare.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Tati, \u00eemi cite\u0219ti o poveste?
\n\u2800
\nAm z\u00e2mbit.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Sigur, iubita mea. Pe care o vrei?
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Pe cea cu prin\u021besa care deschide toate u\u0219ile.
\n\u2800
\nAm r\u0103mas o clip\u0103 nemi\u0219cat.
\n\u2800
\nEra povestea ei preferat\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nO poveste despre o feti\u021b\u0103 curajoas\u0103 care descoperea c\u0103 niciun castel nu este frumos dac\u0103 oamenii din\u0103untru nu sunt liberi s\u0103 plece.
\n\u2800
\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 citesc.
\n\u2800
\nLa final, Emma m-a \u00eentrebat:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Tati, de ce prin\u021besa nu a r\u0103mas \u00een castelul cel mare?
\n\u2800
\nAm privit cartea.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Pentru c\u0103 acolo nu era fericit\u0103.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Dar era un castel foarte frumos!
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 \u0218tiu, puiule. Dar o cas\u0103 frumoas\u0103 nu este suficient\u0103 dac\u0103 nu te sim\u021bi \u00een siguran\u021b\u0103 \u00een ea.
\n\u2800
\nEmma a t\u0103cut c\u00e2teva secunde.
\n\u2800
\nApoi a spus:
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Atunci prin\u021besa a ales bine.
\n\u2800
\nAm sim\u021bit cum mi se umplu ochii de lacrimi.
\n\u2800
\n\u2014 Da, iubita mea. A ales bine.
\n\u2800
\nDup\u0103 ce am \u00eenchis telefonul, am r\u0103mas mult timp privind pe fereastr\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nMi-am amintit de Sara, st\u00e2nd \u00een \u00eentuneric, \u00een spatele unei u\u0219i \u00eencuiate.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103, \u00een povestea noastr\u0103, ea fusese cea care g\u0103sise curajul s\u0103 deschid\u0103 u\u0219a.
\n\u2800
\nEu nu fusesem salvatorul ei.
\n\u2800
\nFusesem omul de care trebuise s\u0103 se salveze.
\n\u2800
\nAcesta era adev\u0103rul pe care aveam s\u0103-l port cu mine toat\u0103 via\u021ba.
\n\u2800
\nDar aveam \u0219i o alegere.
\n\u2800
\nPuteam s\u0103 continui s\u0103 m\u0103 ascund \u00een spatele gre\u0219elilor mamei mele.
\n\u2800
\nSau puteam s\u0103 devin un om care nu le mai repet\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nAm ales a doua variant\u0103.
\n\u2800
\nNu pentru a primi \u00eenapoi ceea ce pierdusem.
\n\u2800
\nCi pentru ca fiica mea s\u0103 nu fie nevoit\u0103 vreodat\u0103 s\u0103 se team\u0103 de b\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel nume\u0219te \u201etata\u201d.
\n\u2800
\n\u0218i pentru ca, atunci c\u00e2nd Emma va cre\u0219te \u0219i va \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba ce \u00eenseamn\u0103 iubirea, s\u0103 \u0219tie un lucru pe care eu l-am \u00een\u021beles mult prea t\u00e2rziu:
\n\u2800
\nNimeni nu are dreptul s\u0103 te \u00eenchid\u0103 \u00eentr-o camer\u0103, s\u0103 te umileasc\u0103 sau s\u0103 te fac\u0103 s\u0103 suferi \u00een numele iubirii.
\n\u2800
\nPentru c\u0103 iubirea adev\u0103rat\u0103 nu \u00eencuie u\u0219i.
\n\u2800
\nLe las\u0103 deschise.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
PARTEA 2 \u2800 \u2014 Nu trebuie s\u0103 te \u00eentorci la el, Sara. Ascult\u0103-m\u0103 bine. Ce \u021bi-a f\u0103cut nu este iubire \u0219i nu trebuie s\u0103 mai supor\u021bi nici m\u0103car o zi. \u2800 Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se taie respira\u021bia. \u2800 Vocea aceea. \u2800 A\u0219 fi recunoscut-o dintre o mie. \u2800 Era vocea tat\u0103lui meu. \u2800 Tat\u0103l […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":29252,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-29957","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-diverse"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29957","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=29957"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29957\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":29958,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29957\/revisions\/29958"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/29252"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=29957"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=29957"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=29957"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}