{"id":29988,"date":"2026-10-20T07:18:06","date_gmt":"2026-10-20T07:18:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/?p=29988"},"modified":"2026-10-20T07:18:06","modified_gmt":"2026-10-20T07:18:06","slug":"am-mers-la-mormantul-sotului-meu-in-ziua-in-care-se-implineau-cinci-ani-de-la-moartea-lui","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/?p=29988","title":{"rendered":"Am mers la morm\u00e2ntul so\u021bului meu \u00een ziua \u00een care se \u00eemplineau cinci ani de la moartea lui"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>PARTEA 2<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen geant\u0103 era o pereche de pantofi b\u0103rb\u0103te\u0219ti, o c\u0103ma\u0219\u0103 albastr\u0103 \u00eemp\u0103turit\u0103 cu grij\u0103 \u0219i o cutie mic\u0103 din lemn. Dar nu acestea m-au f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc l\u00e2ng\u0103 morm\u00e2nt.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCi fotografia a\u0219ezat\u0103 deasupra lor.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen imagine se afla so\u021bul meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntasem \u00een urm\u0103 cu cinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nSt\u0103tea pe o banc\u0103 \u00eentr-un parc, cu un b\u0103ie\u021bel de aproximativ patru ani \u00een bra\u021be. Am\u00e2ndoi z\u00e2mbeau spre aparatul foto. Paul avea p\u0103rul pu\u021bin mai lung dec\u00e2t mi-l aminteam \u0219i c\u00e2teva fire albe la t\u00e2mple, dar era el. Nu aveam nicio \u00eendoial\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eentors fotografia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPe spate era scris\u0103 o dat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n14 august, anul trecut.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCu patru ani dup\u0103 moartea lui.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 nu mai pot respira.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu&#8230; am \u0219optit. Nu se poate.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm r\u0103mas c\u00e2teva secunde privind fotografia, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 g\u0103sesc o explica\u021bie. Poate era o imagine modificat\u0103. Poate era un b\u0103rbat care sem\u0103na izbitor cu Paul. Poate cineva voia s\u0103-mi fac\u0103 o glum\u0103 \u00eengrozitoare.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar apoi am observat cicatricea de pe spr\u00e2nceana lui st\u00e2ng\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nO cicatrice mic\u0103, \u00een form\u0103 de semilun\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul o avea de la doisprezece ani, c\u00e2nd c\u0103zuse de pe biciclet\u0103. \u00cemi povestise \u00eent\u00e2mplarea la prima noastr\u0103 \u00eent\u00e2lnire, dup\u0103 ce \u00eel \u00eentrebasem de unde o avea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremur.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen acel moment, am auzit pa\u0219i \u00een spatele meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Doamn\u0103, sunte\u021bi bine?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEra un angajat al cimitirului.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am \u00eentors spre el cu fotografia \u00een m\u00e2n\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Cine a pus geanta aici?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul a privit-o surprins.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu, doamn\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Trebuie s\u0103 fi v\u0103zut cineva! Exist\u0103 camere de supraveghere?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 La intr\u0103ri, da. Dar ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nI-am \u00eentins fotografia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 B\u0103rbatul acesta este so\u021bul meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAngajatul s-a uitat la piatra funerar\u0103, apoi la imagine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu \u00een\u021belege\u021bi! So\u021bul meu este mort de cinci ani, iar fotografia asta a fost f\u0103cut\u0103 anul trecut!<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul m-a ajutat s\u0103 m\u0103 ridic \u0219i m-a condus p\u00e2n\u0103 la o banc\u0103. A chemat administratorul cimitirului, care a venit dup\u0103 aproximativ zece minute.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00centre timp, descoperisem c\u0103 \u00een cutia de lemn se afla o verighet\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVerigheta lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nO recuno\u0219team dup\u0103 zg\u00e2rietura ad\u00e2nc\u0103 de pe interior. O f\u0103cuse accidental c\u00e2nd \u00eencercase s\u0103 repare chiuveta din buc\u0103t\u0103rie, la numai c\u00e2teva luni dup\u0103 nunt\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen ziua accidentului, poli\u021bistul care m\u0103 anun\u021base despre moartea lui \u00eemi spusese c\u0103 verigheta nu fusese g\u0103sit\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAcum o \u021bineam \u00een palm\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nL\u00e2ng\u0103 ea era un bile\u021bel.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201eMihaela, \u00eemi pare r\u0103u. Nu am avut curajul s\u0103-\u021bi spun adev\u0103rul. Dac\u0103 vrei s\u0103 \u00een\u021belegi ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat, caut\u0103 \u00een buzunarul interior al c\u0103m\u0103\u0219ii.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm desf\u0103cut c\u0103ma\u0219a albastr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEra una dintre c\u0103m\u0103\u0219ile preferate ale lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cei cuno\u0219team fiecare nasture.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen buzunarul interior am g\u0103sit un plic alb.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPe el era scris numele meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCu scrisul so\u021bului meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm deschis plicul cu m\u00e2inile tremur\u00e2nde.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201eMihaela,<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDac\u0103 cite\u0219ti aceast\u0103 scrisoare, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 adev\u0103rul a ajuns \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it la tine. \u0218tiu c\u0103 nu exist\u0103 nicio explica\u021bie care s\u0103 justifice ceea ce am f\u0103cut. \u0218tiu c\u0103 \u021bi-am distrus via\u021ba \u0219i c\u0103 probabil m\u0103 ur\u0103\u0219ti deja.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar trebuie s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 accidentul din urm\u0103 cu cinci ani nu a fost ceea ce \u021bi s-a spus.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEu nu eram \u00een ma\u0219in\u0103 c\u00e2nd aceasta a luat foc.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm l\u0103sat pe altcineva s\u0103 cread\u0103 c\u0103 murisem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm fugit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i am f\u0103cut asta pentru c\u0103 eram convins c\u0103, dac\u0103 r\u0103m\u00e2n, te voi pune \u00een pericol.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu-\u021bi cer s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00ce\u021bi cer doar s\u0103 afli \u00eentreaga poveste \u00eenainte s\u0103 hot\u0103r\u0103\u0219ti ce s\u0103 faci cu ea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen geant\u0103 se afl\u0103 un telefon. Este \u00eenc\u0103rcat. Deschide-l \u0219i ascult\u0103 prima \u00eenregistrare.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm citit scrisoarea de trei ori.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu pl\u00e2ngeam de fericire.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPl\u00e2ngeam de furie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCinci ani \u00een care \u00eel jelisem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCinci ani \u00een care m\u0103 \u00eenvinov\u0103\u021bisem pentru ultima noastr\u0103 ceart\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCinci ani \u00een care m\u0103 culcasem singur\u0103, \u00eentreb\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 dac\u0103 ar fi tr\u0103it dac\u0103 l-a\u0219 fi rugat s\u0103 nu plece \u00een noaptea aceea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nIar el era viu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm g\u0103sit telefonul \u00eentr-un compartiment lateral al gen\u021bii. Era un model simplu, cu ecranul pu\u021bin zg\u00e2riat. C\u00e2nd l-am pornit, am v\u0103zut c\u0103 nu avea cod de acces.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPe ecran exista un singur fi\u0219ier audio.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201ePentru Mihaela.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm ap\u0103sat pe el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMai \u00eent\u00e2i s-a auzit un fo\u0219net.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi o respira\u021bie ad\u00e2nc\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, vocea lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela&#8230; dac\u0103 ascul\u021bi asta, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 am reu\u0219it s\u0103 g\u0103sesc o cale s\u0103-\u021bi spun adev\u0103rul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-am dus m\u00e2na la gur\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEra vocea lui.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu sem\u0103na cu vocea lui.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEra chiar vocea lui.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 probabil te \u00eentrebi cum am putut s\u0103 te las s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eengropi. M-am \u00eentrebat \u0219i eu asta \u00een fiecare zi. \u0218i nu exist\u0103 zi \u00een care s\u0103 nu regret.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA f\u0103cut o pauz\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Totul a \u00eenceput cu trei luni \u00eenainte de accident, c\u00e2nd am descoperit ce f\u0103cea partenerul meu de afaceri.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul avea o firm\u0103 mic\u0103 de transport \u00een Bra\u0219ov. O \u00eenfiin\u021base \u00eempreun\u0103 cu prietenul lui din copil\u0103rie, Victor Marinescu. Firma mergea bine, aveau c\u00e2teva camioane \u0219i contracte stabile.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCel pu\u021bin, asta \u0219tiam eu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen \u00eenregistrare, Paul povestea c\u0103 descoperise transporturi nedeclarate, facturi falsificate \u0219i transferuri c\u0103tre societ\u0103\u021bi pe care nu le recuno\u0219tea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nIni\u021bial crezuse c\u0103 Victor f\u0103cea evaziune fiscal\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi g\u0103sise documente care sugerau c\u0103 prin firma lor erau transportate bunuri provenite din furturi \u0219i c\u0103 \u00een schem\u0103 erau implica\u021bi oameni periculo\u0219i.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Am vrut s\u0103 merg la poli\u021bie, spunea Paul. Dar Victor a aflat c\u0103 verificasem documentele. M-a chemat \u00eentr-o sear\u0103 la depozit \u0219i mi-a spus c\u0103, dac\u0103 vorbesc, nu eu voi fi primul care va suferi.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVocea i s-a fr\u00e2nt.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mi-a ar\u0103tat o fotografie cu tine, f\u0103cut\u0103 \u00een timp ce ie\u0219eai de la serviciu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit un fior rece pe \u0219ira spin\u0103rii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mi-a spus c\u0103 \u0219tie la ce or\u0103 pleci de acas\u0103, unde lucrezi \u0219i pe unde mergi la cump\u0103r\u0103turi. Mi-a spus c\u0103, dac\u0103 vreau s\u0103 te p\u0103strez \u00een via\u021b\u0103, trebuie s\u0103 dispar.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm oprit \u00eenregistrarea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu puteam s\u0103 ascult mai departe.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVictor.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cel cuno\u0219team de aproape cincisprezece ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVenise la nunta noastr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nFusese unul dintre b\u0103rba\u021bii care purtaser\u0103 sicriul lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDup\u0103 \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntare, m\u0103 vizitase de c\u00e2teva ori \u0219i \u00eemi spusese c\u0103, dac\u0103 am nevoie de bani sau de ajutor, pot conta pe el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi se f\u0103cea r\u0103u c\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm pornit din nou \u00eenregistrarea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u00cen noaptea accidentului, Victor mi-a cerut s\u0103 merg la un depozit de l\u00e2ng\u0103 Sibiu. C\u00e2nd am ajuns, am v\u0103zut c\u0103 ma\u0219ina mea fusese mutat\u0103. Mi-au luat telefonul \u0219i m-au \u021binut \u00eentr-o \u00eenc\u0103pere \u00eencuiat\u0103. Mai t\u00e2rziu am aflat c\u0103 autoturismul fusese incendiat \u0219i c\u0103 un trup fusese g\u0103sit \u00een interior.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremur.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mi-au spus c\u0103 acum sunt mort pentru toat\u0103 lumea. C\u0103, dac\u0103 \u00eencerc s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc la tine, vei p\u0103\u021bi ceva. M-au obligat s\u0103 plec din \u021bar\u0103 cu acte false.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA urmat o pauz\u0103 lung\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 ar fi trebuit s\u0103 g\u0103sesc o cale s\u0103 cer ajutor mai devreme. Mi-a fost fric\u0103. Dar frica mea te-a condamnat pe tine la cinci ani de doliu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm ascultat restul \u00eenregistr\u0103rii pe banca din cimitir.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul povestea c\u0103 petrecuse aproape doi ani \u00een str\u0103in\u0103tate, sub un nume fals, lucr\u00e2nd pentru oameni lega\u021bi de Victor. Dup\u0103 aceea reu\u0219ise s\u0103 se desprind\u0103 de ei, dar se temuse s\u0103 se \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00een Rom\u00e2nia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen ultimul an, contactase un avocat \u0219i \u00eencepuse s\u0103 colaboreze cu autorit\u0103\u021bile pentru a documenta ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela, spunea la final, dac\u0103 ai g\u0103sit geanta, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 ancheta a ajuns \u00eentr-un punct \u00een care pot \u00eencerca s\u0103 \u00eendrept lucrurile. Nu vreau s\u0103 te apropii de Victor. Nu vreau s\u0103-l confrun\u021bi. Te rog s\u0103 mergi la poli\u021bie cu telefonul \u0219i scrisoarea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi vocea i s-a schimbat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218i mai trebuie s\u0103-\u021bi spun ceva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenchis ochii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 B\u0103ie\u021belul din fotografie se nume\u0219te David.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-am str\u00e2ns m\u00e2inile.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Este fiul meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPentru c\u00e2teva secunde, nu am mai auzit nimic.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm privit fotografia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul \u021binea copilul \u00een bra\u021be, cu un z\u00e2mbet pe care \u00eel cuno\u0219team at\u00e2t de bine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nUn copil de aproximativ patru ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nN\u0103scut dup\u0103 presupusa lui moarte.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 ceva se rupe \u00een mine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen \u00eenregistrare, Paul continua:<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mama lui se nume\u0219te Alina. Am cunoscut-o \u00een perioada \u00een care eram ascuns. Nu \u0219tia cine sunt cu adev\u0103rat. C\u00e2nd i-am spus, era deja \u00eens\u0103rcinat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu a fost o rela\u021bie construit\u0103 pe minciuna c\u0103 nu am avut niciodat\u0103 o so\u021bie, spunea el. I-am spus c\u0103 am fost c\u0103s\u0103torit \u0219i c\u0103 mi-am pierdut via\u021ba de dinainte. Dar nu i-am spus c\u0103 tu m\u0103 crezi mort. Am min\u021bit-o \u0219i pe ea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit un val de furie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu doar c\u0103 Paul tr\u0103ise.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu doar c\u0103 m\u0103 l\u0103sase s\u0103-l pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00ce\u0219i construise o alt\u0103 familie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen timp ce eu mergeam la morm\u00e2ntul lui cu flori galbene.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenchis telefonul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am uitat la piatra funerar\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201ePaul Ionescu. So\u021b iubit. Ve\u0219nic \u00een inimile noastre.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCuvintele acelea mi se p\u0103reau acum o glum\u0103 crud\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm ridicat florile \u0219i le-am a\u0219ezat l\u00e2ng\u0103 piatr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi am sunat-o pe sora mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela? Ai terminat?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Ana, trebuie s\u0103 vii dup\u0103 mine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVocea ei s-a schimbat imediat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eencercat s\u0103 vorbesc, dar am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Paul&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Ce este cu Paul?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Cred c\u0103 este \u00een via\u021b\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa cel\u0103lalt cap\u0103t s-a f\u0103cut lini\u0219te.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela, unde e\u0219ti?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 La cimitir.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu pleca nic\u0103ieri. Vin imediat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAna a ajuns dup\u0103 dou\u0103zeci de minute.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nC\u00e2nd i-am ar\u0103tat fotografia \u0219i i-am dat s\u0103 asculte \u00eenregistrarea, a r\u0103mas f\u0103r\u0103 cuvinte.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Doamne, Mihaela&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-a \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219at.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Cum a putut s\u0103-\u021bi fac\u0103 asta?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng din nou.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAna a privit geanta.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Trebuie s\u0103 mergem la poli\u021bie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAdministratorul cimitirului ne-a spus c\u0103 putea p\u0103stra \u00eenregistr\u0103rile camerelor de supraveghere pentru autorit\u0103\u021bi. I-am mul\u021bumit \u0219i am plecat \u00eempreun\u0103 cu sora mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPe drum, am privit fotografia copilului.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDavid.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nUn b\u0103ie\u021bel nevinovat, care probabil nu \u0219tia nimic despre trecutul tat\u0103lui s\u0103u.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu puteam s\u0103-l ur\u0103sc.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar nici nu puteam s\u0103 ignor ce \u00eensemna existen\u021ba lui.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa poli\u021bie, am predat geanta, telefonul, fotografia \u0219i scrisoarea. Le-am explicat tot ce \u0219tiam \u0219i am cerut s\u0103 fie verificate \u00eemprejur\u0103rile mor\u021bii so\u021bului meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nOfi\u021berul care m-a ascultat nu a \u00eencercat s\u0103 trag\u0103 concluzii pe loc.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-a spus c\u0103 documentele \u0219i \u00eenregistrarea trebuiau verificate, iar cazul urma s\u0103 fie analizat de structurile competente.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm plecat acas\u0103 epuizat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen seara aceea, m-am a\u0219ezat pe podeaua dormitorului \u0219i am deschis cutia \u00een care p\u0103stram lucrurile lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCeasul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nO fotografie de la nunt\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nO felicitare de ziua mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i un bile\u021bel pe care \u00eel l\u0103sase \u00eentr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, \u00eenainte s\u0103 plece la serviciu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201eTe iubesc. Ne vedem disear\u0103.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm privit cuvintele mult timp.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng at\u00e2t de tare, \u00eenc\u00e2t Ana a venit din camera al\u0103turat\u0103 \u0219i m-a \u021binut \u00een bra\u021be p\u00e2n\u0103 am adormit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAu trecut aproape trei s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2ni p\u00e2n\u0103 c\u00e2nd am primit primele informa\u021bii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAnchetatorii confirmaser\u0103 c\u0103 existau neconcordan\u021be grave \u00een identificarea persoanei decedate \u00een accident. Fuseser\u0103 g\u0103site \u0219i indicii care justificau redeschiderea investiga\u021biei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen plus, Victor Marinescu era cercetat \u00eentr-un dosar separat privind activit\u0103\u021bile firmei de transport.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar vestea care m-a f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 a\u0219ez a venit la sf\u00e2r\u0219itul discu\u021biei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Doamn\u0103 Ionescu, avem motive s\u0103 credem c\u0103 so\u021bul dumneavoastr\u0103 se afl\u0103 \u00een Rom\u00e2nia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se opre\u0219te inima.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Unde?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu v\u0103 putem comunica deocamdat\u0103 toate detaliile. Dar exist\u0103 posibilitatea unei \u00eent\u00e2lniri, dac\u0103 ve\u021bi dori.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenchis ochii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCinci ani m\u0103 rugasem s\u0103-l mai v\u0103d o singur\u0103 dat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAcum, c\u00e2nd acea posibilitate devenise real\u0103, nu mai \u0219tiam dac\u0103 \u00eemi doream s\u0103-l privesc \u00een fa\u021b\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cent\u00e2lnirea a avut loc \u00eentr-o cl\u0103dire administrativ\u0103, \u00eentr-o camer\u0103 simpl\u0103, cu o mas\u0103 \u0219i c\u00e2teva scaune.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAna a venit cu mine, dar a r\u0103mas pe hol.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nC\u00e2nd u\u0219a s-a deschis, am sim\u021bit c\u0103 mi se \u00eenmoaie genunchii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a intrat \u00eencet.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEra mai slab.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAvea p\u0103rul mai lung \u0219i c\u00e2teva fire albe la t\u00e2mple.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar era el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel iubisem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntasem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul care m\u0103 l\u0103sase singur\u0103 timp de cinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVocea lui s-a fr\u00e2nt.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a f\u0103cut un pas spre mine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Te rog&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm ridicat m\u00e2na.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu te apropia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nS-a oprit imediat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNe-am a\u0219ezat de o parte \u0219i de alta a mesei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul pl\u00e2ngea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEu nu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu mai aveam lacrimi \u00een acel moment.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u00cemi pare r\u0103u, a \u0219optit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am uitat la el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218tii c\u00e2te nop\u021bi am dormit cu tricoul t\u0103u \u00een bra\u021be?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA cobor\u00e2t capul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela&#8230;<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218tii c\u00e2te zile de na\u0219tere am petrecut singur\u0103? C\u00e2te s\u0103rb\u0103tori? C\u00e2te dimine\u021bi \u00een care m-am trezit \u0219i, pentru o secund\u0103, am uitat c\u0103 e\u0219ti mort?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103 \u0219i mai tare.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218tiu c\u0103 nu m\u0103 po\u021bi ierta.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu, Paul. Nu \u0219tii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi tremur\u0103 vocea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Tu ai tr\u0103it. Ai respirat. Ai cunoscut oameni. Ai avut un copil. Eu am stat l\u00e2ng\u0103 un morm\u00e2nt \u0219i am vorbit cu o piatr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA \u00eenceput s\u0103 tremure.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Am crezut c\u0103 te protejez.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Poate c\u0103 la \u00eenceput ai crezut asta. Dar dup\u0103 ce ai sc\u0103pat, de ce nu ai venit?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA r\u0103mas t\u0103cut.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i atunci am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 aceasta era \u00eentrebarea la care nu avea un r\u0103spuns bun.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mi-a fost ru\u0219ine, a spus \u00een cele din urm\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm r\u00e2s amar.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Ru\u0219ine?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Cu fiecare lun\u0103 care trecea, devenea mai greu s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc. M\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam la ce \u021bi-am f\u0103cut \u0219i nu \u0219tiam cum s\u0103 repar.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 A\u0219a c\u0103 ai continuat s\u0103 m\u0103 la\u0219i s\u0103 cred c\u0103 e\u0219ti mort?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA \u00eencuviin\u021bat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Da.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am uitat la el mult timp.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218i Alina?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul \u0219i-a \u0219ters ochii.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu mai suntem \u00eempreun\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 De c\u00e2nd?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 De aproape un an.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218i David?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nChipul i s-a luminat pentru o clip\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Este bine. Locuie\u0219te cu mama lui. \u00cel v\u0103d c\u00e2nd pot.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit un nod \u00een g\u00e2t.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu vreau s\u0103-l r\u0103nesc pe copilul t\u0103u, Paul. Nu are nicio vin\u0103. Dar nu-mi cere s\u0103 m\u0103 bucur pentru via\u021ba pe care \u021bi-ai construit-o \u00een timp ce eu \u00ee\u021bi pl\u00e2ngeam moartea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA \u00eenceput din nou s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi i-am pus \u00eentrebarea pe care o purtam \u00een suflet de cinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Cine a murit \u00een ma\u0219ina ta?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a ridicat privirea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu sigur. Mi-au spus c\u0103 era un b\u0103rbat pe care \u00eel aduseser\u0103 la depozit \u00een noaptea aceea. Am aflat abia mai t\u00e2rziu c\u0103 murise cineva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm sim\u021bit un fior.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 \u0218i ai acceptat s\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti \u0219tiind c\u0103 alt om fusese \u00eengropat sub numele t\u0103u?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu am acceptat. Am fost amenin\u021bat. Dar da, am t\u0103cut prea mult.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am ridicat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a f\u0103cut \u0219i el o mi\u0219care, dar s-a oprit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela, mai exist\u0103 vreo \u0219ans\u0103 pentru noi?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nL-am privit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00centrebarea aceea m-ar fi f\u0103cut s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng de fericire cu cinci ani \u00een urm\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAcum m\u0103 durea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu \u0219tiu cine e\u0219ti, Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA r\u0103mas nemi\u0219cat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 B\u0103rbatul cu care m-am c\u0103s\u0103torit nu ar fi putut s\u0103 m\u0103 lase s\u0103 trec prin a\u0219a ceva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm ie\u0219it din camer\u0103 f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103-l \u00eembr\u0103\u021bi\u0219ez.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPe hol, Ana m-a prins de m\u00e2n\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 E\u0219ti bine?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm cl\u0103tinat din cap.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Nu. Dar o s\u0103 fiu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen urm\u0103toarele luni, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 merg la terapie. Nu mai era vorba doar despre doliu. Era vorba despre faptul c\u0103 pierderea pe care o tr\u0103isem fusese construit\u0103 pe o minciun\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm avut zile \u00een care \u00eel uram pe Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nZile \u00een care \u00eemi era dor de el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i zile \u00een care m\u0103 sim\u021beam vinovat\u0103 pentru c\u0103 o parte din mine \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eel iubea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nTerapeuta m-a ajutat s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg c\u0103 aceste sentimente puteau exista \u00een acela\u0219i timp.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu trebuia s\u0103 aleg \u00eentre furie \u0219i dor.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu trebuia s\u0103 iau imediat o decizie despre viitor.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAveam dreptul s\u0103-mi reconstruiesc via\u021ba \u00een ritmul meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00centre timp, ancheta a continuat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nIdentitatea b\u0103rbatului mort \u00een accident a fost stabilit\u0103 \u00een urma unor expertize suplimentare. Era un fost angajat al firmei de transport, disp\u0103rut \u00een aceea\u0219i perioad\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nFamilia lui a aflat, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it, ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nC\u00e2nd am auzit vestea, am pl\u00e2ns pentru acei oameni.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEu \u00eengropasem un b\u0103rbat crez\u00e2nd c\u0103 este so\u021bul meu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEi \u00ee\u0219i c\u0103utaser\u0103 ani \u00eentregi fiul \u0219i fratele.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am g\u00e2ndit la toate vie\u021bile distruse de minciunile lui Victor \u0219i de t\u0103cerea celor care \u0219tiau.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul a continuat s\u0103 colaboreze cu anchetatorii, iar autorit\u0103\u021bile au verificat inclusiv propriile lui ac\u021biuni din perioada dispari\u021biei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu \u0219tiam ce consecin\u021be legale avea s\u0103 suporte.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar \u0219tiam c\u0103 adev\u0103rul trebuia s\u0103 ias\u0103 la iveal\u0103, indiferent pe cine durea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa aproape un an dup\u0103 descoperirea gen\u021bii, am primit o scrisoare de la Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu era lung\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u201eMihaela,<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu \u00ee\u021bi mai cer s\u0103 m\u0103 ier\u021bi. Am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 iertarea nu este ceva ce pot pretinde de la tine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVreau doar s\u0103 \u0219tii c\u0103 \u00eemi pare r\u0103u pentru fiecare zi \u00een care ai suferit din cauza mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-ai spus c\u0103 nu mai \u0219tii cine sunt. Adev\u0103rul este c\u0103 nici eu nu mai \u0219tiam cine devenisem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cencerc s\u0103-mi asum ce am f\u0103cut \u0219i s\u0103 fiu un tat\u0103 bun pentru David.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu voi \u00eencerca s\u0103 intru din nou \u00een via\u021ba ta dac\u0103 nu \u00ee\u021bi dore\u0219ti.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00ce\u021bi mul\u021bumesc pentru cei nou\u0103 ani \u00een care m-ai iubit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul.\u201d<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm citit scrisoarea de dou\u0103 ori.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi am pus-o \u00eentr-un sertar.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu am r\u0103spuns.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu din r\u0103zbunare.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCi pentru c\u0103 nu mai sim\u021beam c\u0103 \u00eei datorez un r\u0103spuns.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA trebuit s\u0103 rezolv\u0103m \u0219i situa\u021bia juridic\u0103 a c\u0103s\u0103toriei noastre.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul fusese declarat decedat, iar acum existen\u021ba lui \u00een via\u021b\u0103 era confirmat\u0103. Cu ajutorul avoca\u021bilor, au fost ini\u021biate procedurile necesare pentru corectarea actelor de stare civil\u0103 \u0219i clarificarea efectelor juridice ale declara\u021biei de deces.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDup\u0103 aceea, am decis s\u0103 pun cap\u0103t c\u0103sniciei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nA fost una dintre cele mai grele hot\u0103r\u00e2ri din via\u021ba mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu pentru c\u0103 nu a\u0219 fi avut motive.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCi pentru c\u0103 o parte din mine \u00eenc\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i amintea b\u0103rbatul care \u00eemi aducea flori galbene \u00een fiecare vineri.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul care dansa cu mine \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nB\u0103rbatul care \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 vom \u00eemb\u0103tr\u00e2ni \u00eempreun\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar am \u00een\u021beles c\u0103 amintirea unui om nu este acela\u0219i lucru cu omul care st\u0103 ast\u0103zi \u00een fa\u021ba ta.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i c\u0103 iubirea pe care i-o purtasem nu m\u0103 obliga s\u0103 accept tot ce f\u0103cuse.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103 de prim\u0103var\u0103, am mers din nou la cimitir.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDe data aceasta, nu era aniversarea mor\u021bii lui Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu aveam flori galbene.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i nu venisem s\u0103 vorbesc cu el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVenisem pentru ultima oar\u0103 la morm\u00e2ntul care \u00eemi reprezentase durerea timp de cinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPiatra funerar\u0103 urma s\u0103 fie \u00eendep\u0103rtat\u0103 \u00een cadrul procedurilor legale, dup\u0103 clarificarea identit\u0103\u021bii persoanei \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntate acolo \u0219i a drepturilor familiei acesteia.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nM-am a\u0219ezat pe banca din apropiere.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm privit locul unde, an dup\u0103 an, l\u0103sasem flori.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i am \u00eenceput s\u0103 pl\u00e2ng.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu pentru Paul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCi pentru femeia care fusesem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPentru Mihaela de acum cinci ani, care primise un telefon \u00een mijlocul nop\u021bii \u0219i aflase c\u0103 so\u021bul ei murise.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPentru Mihaela care alesese sicriul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCare organizase \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntarea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCare \u00eenv\u0103\u021base s\u0103 doarm\u0103 singur\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nCare \u00ee\u0219i petrecuse ani \u00eentregi \u00eentreb\u00e2ndu-se dac\u0103 ar fi putut schimba ceva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm stat acolo aproape o or\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi m-am ridicat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu am spus \u201eadio, Paul\u201d.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPentru c\u0103 Paul nu era acolo.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i, \u00eentr-un fel, nu mai fusese de mult \u00een via\u021ba mea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm spus doar:<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Mihaela, e timpul s\u0103 mergem acas\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i am plecat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAst\u0103zi au trecut aproape doi ani de la ziua \u00een care am g\u0103sit geanta neagr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nVia\u021ba mea este diferit\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm schimbat apartamentul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-am cump\u0103rat o ma\u0219in\u0103 mic\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm \u00eenceput s\u0103 c\u0103l\u0103toresc.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i, dup\u0103 mult timp, am acceptat s\u0103 cunosc pe cineva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nNu \u0219tiu unde va duce rela\u021bia aceea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar \u0219tiu c\u0103 nu m\u0103 mai simt vinovat\u0103 pentru faptul c\u0103 vreau s\u0103 fiu fericit\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul este \u00een via\u021b\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAre un fiu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i o poveste pe care va trebui s\u0103 o poarte cu el pentru totdeauna.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEu am alt\u0103 poveste.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nUna pe care \u00eenc\u0103 o scriu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nUneori m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la geanta neagr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa fotografia cu Paul \u0219i David.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa verigheta zg\u00e2riat\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLa vocea lui care \u00eemi spunea c\u0103 \u00eei pare r\u0103u.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i m\u0103 \u00eentreb cum ar fi fost dac\u0103 nu a\u0219 fi deschis fermoarul \u00een diminea\u021ba aceea.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPoate c\u0103 a\u0219 fi continuat s\u0103 merg la morm\u00e2nt \u00eenc\u0103 zece ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPoate c\u0103 a\u0219 fi continuat s\u0103 vorbesc cu o piatr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPoate c\u0103 nu a\u0219 fi aflat niciodat\u0103 adev\u0103rul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar apoi \u00eemi amintesc ceva.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAdev\u0103rul m-a distrus pentru o vreme.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cens\u0103 minciuna m\u0103 \u021binuse captiv\u0103 timp de cinci ani.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i, oric\u00e2t de dureros a fost s\u0103 descop\u0103r ce se \u00eent\u00e2mplase, adev\u0103rul mi-a dat \u00eenapoi ceva ce credeam c\u0103 pierdusem pentru totdeauna.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDreptul de a-mi alege singur\u0103 viitorul.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n***<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00centr-o vineri, cu pu\u021bin timp \u00eenainte de ziua mea, am trecut pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 o flor\u0103rie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u00cen vitrin\u0103 erau buchete de trandafiri, lalele \u0219i crizanteme.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nDar privirea mi s-a oprit asupra unor flori galbene.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nExact ca acelea pe care Paul obi\u0219nuia s\u0103 le cumpere pentru masa din buc\u0103t\u0103ria noastr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm intrat.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 A\u0219 dori un buchet din acestea, i-am spus flor\u0103resei.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nFemeia a z\u00e2mbit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Sunt pentru cineva special?<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAm privit florile.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApoi am z\u00e2mbit \u0219i eu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u2014 Da. Pentru mine.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nLe-am dus acas\u0103 \u0219i le-am a\u0219ezat \u00eentr-o vaz\u0103, pe masa din buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nSoarele intra pe fereastr\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nApartamentul mirosea a cafea proasp\u0103t\u0103.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\n\u0218i, pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mul\u021bi ani, florile galbene nu mi-au mai amintit de un b\u0103rbat pe care \u00eel pierdusem.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nMi-au amintit de femeia pe care reu\u0219isem s\u0103 o reg\u0103sesc.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPentru c\u0103 uneori cea mai grea desp\u0103r\u021bire nu este de omul pe care l-ai iubit.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nEste de via\u021ba pe care ai crezut c\u0103 o vei avea al\u0103turi de el.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nIar eu, dup\u0103 cinci ani de doliu \u0219i doi ani de adev\u0103ruri dureroase, \u00eenv\u0103\u021basem \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it s\u0103 nu mai tr\u0103iesc \u00een trecut.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nPaul \u00ee\u0219i primise a doua \u0219ans\u0103 cu mult \u00eenainte s\u0103 aflu eu.<br \/>\n\u2800<br \/>\nAcum venise r\u00e2ndul meu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>PARTEA 2 \u2800 \u00cen geant\u0103 era o pereche de pantofi b\u0103rb\u0103te\u0219ti, o c\u0103ma\u0219\u0103 albastr\u0103 \u00eemp\u0103turit\u0103 cu grij\u0103 \u0219i o cutie mic\u0103 din lemn. Dar nu acestea m-au f\u0103cut s\u0103 m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc l\u00e2ng\u0103 morm\u00e2nt. \u2800 Ci fotografia a\u0219ezat\u0103 deasupra lor. \u2800 \u00cen imagine se afla so\u021bul meu. \u2800 Paul. \u2800 B\u0103rbatul pe care \u00eel \u00eenmorm\u00e2ntasem \u00een [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":29251,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-29988","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-diverse"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29988","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=29988"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29988\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":29989,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29988\/revisions\/29989"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/29251"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=29988"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=29988"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=29988"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}