Am r\u0103mas blocat. Cuvintele ei mi-au t\u0103iat respira\u021bia. \u201eCe leg\u0103tur\u0103 are tata cu asta?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat, sim\u021bind cum inima \u00eemi bate \u00een urechi.<\/p>\n
Ea a ridicat privirea, iar ochii \u00eei erau umezi. \u201eMi-a spus c\u0103 dac\u0103 nu plec, o s\u0103-\u021bi fac r\u0103u… nu fizic, dar suflete\u0219te. Mi-a jurat c\u0103 o s\u0103 te \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00eempotriva mea. \u0218i am crezut c\u0103, dac\u0103 dispar, m\u0103car \u00ee\u021bi vei p\u0103stra inocen\u021ba.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum \u00eemi fuge p\u0103m\u00e2ntul de sub picioare. Tata? Omul care \u00eemi citea pove\u0219ti, care \u00eemi lega \u0219ireturile \u0219i \u00eemi \u00eenv\u0103\u021ba pa\u0219ii la dans la petrecerile de sat? \u00cen mintea mea, era st\u00e2lpul vie\u021bii mele.<\/p>\n
\u201eDe ce nu ai luptat pentru mine?\u201d, am izbucnit.<\/p>\n
\u201ePentru c\u0103 nu aveam nimic. Eram t\u00e2n\u0103r\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 bani, f\u0103r\u0103 cas\u0103. \u0218i… el avea totul: familia, sprijinul comunit\u0103\u021bii. Orice a\u0219 fi spus, nimeni nu m-ar fi crezut. Am plecat cu inima fr\u00e2nt\u0103, dar am vegheat asupra ta de la distan\u021b\u0103. \u0218tiu tot: prima ta zi de \u0219coal\u0103, c\u00e2nd ai c\u00e2\u0219tigat premiul la alergare, c\u00e2nd ai \u00eenceput s\u0103 c\u00e2n\u021bi la chitar\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit un val de furie \u0219i confuzie. Amintirile mele frumoase cu tata se amestecau acum cu \u00eendoiala. M-am ridicat \u0219i m-am dus spre geam, privind afar\u0103, c\u0103tre str\u0103zile lini\u0219tite ale ora\u0219ului. \u00cen aer plutea miros de pl\u0103cint\u0103 de mere de la brut\u0103ria din col\u021b, acela\u0219i miros care m\u0103 aducea \u00eenapoi \u00een copil\u0103rie.<\/p>\n
\u201eVrei s\u0103-l ur\u0103sc?\u201d am \u00eentrebat, \u00eentorc\u00e2ndu-m\u0103 spre ea.<\/p>\n
\u201eNu. Vreau s\u0103 \u0219tii adev\u0103rul, pentru c\u0103… timpul nu mai e de partea mea.\u201d \u0218i atunci mi-a \u00eentins o h\u00e2rtie. O scrisoare. Am recunoscut scrisul \u2014 era al tat\u0103lui meu.<\/p>\n
Cu m\u00e2inile tremur\u00e2nde, am deschis-o. Era scurt\u0103: \u201eIart\u0103-m\u0103 pentru tot. Am crezut c\u0103 te protejez. \u00cen realitate, te-am lipsit de mama ta. Dac\u0103 cite\u0219ti asta, \u00eenseamn\u0103 c\u0103 ea a g\u0103sit puterea s\u0103-\u021bi spun\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. Am ie\u0219it afar\u0103, cu mama \u00een urma mea. Strada era plin\u0103 de oameni care \u00ee\u0219i f\u0103ceau cump\u0103r\u0103turile, iar undeva, la un col\u021b, un b\u0103tr\u00e2n c\u00e2nta la acordeon \u201eCiob\u0103na\u0219 cu trei sute de oi\u201d. Sunetul acela, at\u00e2t de rom\u00e2nesc, m-a lovit \u00een piept cu o for\u021b\u0103 incredibil\u0103.<\/p>\n
\u201eCe facem acum?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat, mai mult c\u0103tre mine dec\u00e2t c\u0103tre ea.<\/p>\n
\u201eAcum… \u00eencerci s\u0103-\u021bi g\u0103se\u0219ti lini\u0219tea. \u0218i dac\u0103 vrei, \u00ee\u021bi promit c\u0103 nu mai plec.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00cen acea sear\u0103, am mers \u00eempreun\u0103 \u00een curtea casei p\u0103rinte\u0219ti. Mirosea a iarb\u0103 proasp\u0103t cosit\u0103, iar c\u00e2inele vecinului l\u0103tra dincolo de gard. \u00cen cas\u0103, pozele de familie at\u00e2rnau pe pere\u021bi \u2014 doar eu \u0219i tata. Nici urm\u0103 de ea.<\/p>\n
Am luat o fotografie veche din sertar: eu, mic, pe prispa casei, cu un z\u00e2mbet larg, iar \u00een spate, o umbr\u0103 neclar\u0103 \u2014 probabil ea, \u00eenainte s\u0103 plece.<\/p>\n
Am \u00een\u021beles atunci c\u0103 via\u021ba nu e alb-negru. C\u0103 oamenii pot gre\u0219i din iubire, la fel cum pot iubi \u0219i din gre\u0219eal\u0103. \u0218i am hot\u0103r\u00e2t c\u0103 nu voi l\u0103sa trecutul s\u0103 m\u0103 mai fr\u00e2ng\u0103.<\/p>\n
Am pus poza pe mas\u0103, \u00eentre noi. \u201eDe azi, \u00eencepem alt\u0103 poveste. \u00cempreun\u0103.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ea a z\u00e2mbit, iar pentru prima dat\u0103 \u00een 20 de ani, am sim\u021bit c\u0103 am din nou o mam\u0103. Iar undeva, \u00een ad\u00e2ncul sufletului, am \u0219tiut c\u0103 tata ar fi vrut asta.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Am r\u0103mas blocat. Cuvintele ei mi-au t\u0103iat respira\u021bia. \u201eCe leg\u0103tur\u0103 are tata cu asta?\u201d, am \u00eentrebat, sim\u021bind cum inima \u00eemi bate \u00een urechi. Ea a ridicat privirea, iar ochii \u00eei erau umezi. \u201eMi-a spus c\u0103 dac\u0103 nu plec, o s\u0103-\u021bi fac r\u0103u… nu fizic, dar suflete\u0219te. Mi-a jurat c\u0103 o s\u0103 te \u00eentoarc\u0103 \u00eempotriva mea. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3762,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3761","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3761","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3761"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3761\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3763,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3761\/revisions\/3763"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3762"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3761"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3761"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3761"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}