\u2014 Doamn\u0103 C\u00e2rstea, \u00een apa aceea era un sedativ puternic. Nu \u00een cantitate letal\u0103, dar suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103 v\u0103 adoarm\u0103 rapid \u0219i s\u0103 v\u0103 fac\u0103 dependent\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 realiza\u021bi.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. Timp de \u0219ase ani b\u0103usem acea ap\u0103, sear\u0103 de sear\u0103. \u0218ase ani \u00een care adormeam devreme, f\u0103r\u0103 vise, trezindu-m\u0103 mereu obosit\u0103, dar convin\u0219i c\u0103 era doar v\u00e2rsta.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 dac\u0103 nu mai beau? am \u00eentrebat tremur\u00e2nd.
\u2014 Ve\u021bi fi mai agitat\u0103 o vreme. Poate insomnii. Dar corpul \u00ee\u0219i va reveni.<\/p>\n
Am ie\u0219it din clinic\u0103 cu genunchii moi. \u00cen ma\u0219in\u0103, am izbucnit \u00een pl\u00e2ns. Tot ce crezusem iubire p\u0103rea acum o \u00eenscenare. M-am g\u00e2ndit la toate serile \u00een care el \u00eemi \u0219optea cu voce cald\u0103 c\u0103 nu poate dormi f\u0103r\u0103 mine, la toate m\u00e2ng\u00e2ierile care acum mi se p\u0103reau false.<\/p>\n
\u00cen noaptea urm\u0103toare, am l\u0103sat paharul neatins pe noptier\u0103.
Edi m-a privit lung.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Nu bei, iubito?
\u2014 Nu, am zis z\u00e2mbind u\u0219or. Mi-e bine a\u0219a.<\/p>\n
Z\u00e2mbetul lui s-a str\u00e2ns pu\u021bin, dar nu a spus nimic. \u00cen schimb, s-a dus \u00een baie \u0219i s-a pref\u0103cut c\u0103 se spal\u0103 pe din\u021bi mai mult dec\u00e2t de obicei.<\/p>\n
\u00cen zilele ce au urmat, am \u00eenceput s\u0103 observ detalii pe care \u00eenainte le ignoram. Laptopul lui era mereu \u00eenchis c\u00e2nd intram \u00een camer\u0103. Telefonul, mereu cu fa\u021ba \u00een jos. Primea plicuri f\u0103r\u0103 expeditor.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o diminea\u021b\u0103, am g\u0103sit o h\u00e2rtie cu datorie de 120.000 de lei, semnat\u0103 de el. Nu \u0219tiam nimic despre datorii. C\u00e2nd l-am \u00eentrebat, a spus c\u0103 e o investi\u021bie \u201epentru viitorul nostru\u201d.<\/p>\n
Am t\u0103cut. Dar \u00een mine se n\u0103\u0219tea o hot\u0103r\u00e2re.<\/p>\n
Am \u00eenceput s\u0103 str\u00e2ng dovezi: facturi, mesaje, \u00eenregistr\u0103ri. Totul. Apoi, am contactat un avocat discret, un fost coleg al fostului meu so\u021b. El mi-a spus simplu:<\/p>\n
\u2014 Doamn\u0103, b\u0103rbatul \u0103sta v\u0103 controleaz\u0103 via\u021ba. V\u0103 adoarme ca s\u0103 nu \u00eentreba\u021bi nimic.<\/p>\n
\u00centr-o sear\u0103, am preg\u0103tit eu paharul de ap\u0103. Cu miere, mu\u0219e\u021bel \u0219i nimic altceva. I l-am dus z\u00e2mbind.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Bea tu primul, Edi. Ai nevoie mai mult ca mine.<\/p>\n
A r\u00e2s. Dar \u00een clipa \u00een care a dus paharul la buze, m\u00e2na i s-a oprit. M-a privit fix, cu o privire rece cum nu-i mai v\u0103zusem.<\/p>\n
\u2014 Ce vrei s\u0103 spui cu asta, Lilia?
\u2014 C\u0103 \u0219tiu.<\/p>\n
Pentru o clip\u0103, am crezut c\u0103 m\u0103 va lovi. Dar \u00een loc de asta, a tr\u00e2ntit paharul \u0219i a ie\u0219it pe u\u0219\u0103.<\/p>\n
Nu s-a mai \u00eentors.<\/p>\n
C\u00e2teva zile mai t\u00e2rziu, avocatul m-a sunat: fusese prins \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 scoat\u0103 bani dintr-un cont comun, folosind o procur\u0103 fals\u0103. Poli\u021bia l-a re\u021binut.<\/p>\n
Am sim\u021bit un amestec ciudat de ru\u0219ine \u0219i u\u0219urare. M\u0103 ru\u0219inam c\u0103 am putut iubi at\u00e2t de orbe\u0219te, dar eram recunosc\u0103toare c\u0103 \u00eenc\u0103 tr\u0103iam.<\/p>\n
Ast\u0103zi, la aproape \u0219aizeci de ani, beau tot ap\u0103 cald\u0103 cu miere \u0219i mu\u0219e\u021bel \u00eenainte de somn. Dar o fac singur\u0103. O fac pentru mine.<\/p>\n
Pentru prima dat\u0103 dup\u0103 mult timp, dorm lini\u0219tit\u0103 \u2014 nu pentru c\u0103 altcineva \u00eemi spune c\u0103 trebuie, ci pentru c\u0103 \u0219tiu c\u0103 am avut curajul s\u0103 m\u0103 trezesc.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u2014 Doamn\u0103 C\u00e2rstea, \u00een apa aceea era un sedativ puternic. Nu \u00een cantitate letal\u0103, dar suficient c\u00e2t s\u0103 v\u0103 adoarm\u0103 rapid \u0219i s\u0103 v\u0103 fac\u0103 dependent\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 realiza\u021bi. Am sim\u021bit cum mi se str\u00e2nge stomacul. Timp de \u0219ase ani b\u0103usem acea ap\u0103, sear\u0103 de sear\u0103. \u0218ase ani \u00een care adormeam devreme, f\u0103r\u0103 vise, trezindu-m\u0103 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":9394,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[18],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9393","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-povesti"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9393","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9393"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9393\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9395,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9393\/revisions\/9395"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/9394"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9393"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9393"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bumzi.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9393"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}